Being Authentic

One of the aspects of my life is to be as authentic as I can. When I made the the decision to be open about being transgender, in took into consideration that there would be opposition to the visibility transgender people are getting. I'm pleased that transgender people are taking more control of their situations.

While I haven't encountered any physical attacks, I'm aware that it could happen. I'm not afraid, just aware. The risk one takes by being who they are many. Then again that's what makes life worth living. Over two years ago, I started writing poetry. I started not to prove myself to others but to challenge myself. I have a much better understanding of this genre and the people who write poetry. I have written over a hundred poems. 

Being vulnerable can bring rewards as well as risks. One of the rewards is discovering that you can do things that you never thought you could. It was like that with poetry and now it's advocating for justice causes. I enjoy the moment that I'm in. Stopping to smell the roses keeps me in tune with life.

ENDA Will Be ReIntroduced On Thursday

The Employment Non-Discrimination Act is set to be introduced in both chambers of Congress on Thursday, according to multiple sources, but without major changes that were previously under consideration.

The bill will be reintroduced in the House by Rep. Jared Polis (D-Colo.), the most senior openly gay member of the chamber, who’s taking over the legislation now that former Rep. Barney Frank has retired. In the Senate, the legislation will be reintroduced by Sen. Jeff Merkley (D-Ore.). The lawmakers’ offices confirmed they would introduce ENDA concurrently on Thursday.

The Senate version of the bill will have five original sponsors: Merkley and lesbian Sen. Tammy Baldwin (D-Wis.) will be two Democrats, Sens. Mark Kirk (R-Ill.) and Susan Collins (R-Maine) will be two Republicans and Senate Health, Education, Labor and Pensions Committee Chair Tom Harkin (D-Iowa) will round out the quintet.-washingtonblade.com

http://www.washingtonblade.com/2013/04/23/enda-introduction-set-for-thursday/

This should be interesting, especially if progress is made. 

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

There comes a time when we have to put aside our egos and fears and proceed with doing what we know is right.

Protesting, Writing, and Educating

There is a slowdown after all the festivities of Easter. As late April approaches, life is picking up again. It seems that the older I get, the busier I am. I don't mind at all. If I can help someone I will. 

I will be out protesting about some issues important to me. I'm against all these wars. With what happened in Boston, it eerily reminds me of 9/11. The drum beat of war by media pundits and politicians are beginning to sound. I was in the service during the Vietnam War. I just missed going but I saw a fellow soldier a year later who was in my basic training unit. He was really messed up. what's really angering is that there are nearly a million homeless vets that the VA is doing nothing for. People need to be out there protesting.

I'm working on my first chapbook of poems which I may self publish. I already have a title for a future chapbook. I was surprised because thinking of titles has always been difficult for me. Go figure. There are some writing projects that I'm considering. 

With all the events happening I really have to do my homework. Thee's so much misinformation being put out there about everything that I can't take anything for granted. I guess this is part of my unconventional teaching. I do enjoy it. Well, time to get back to it now  

Milestone

I didn't realize that I made 1100 posts. Wow! I never realized that there was a lot to say or comment on. It's been quite a ride. I just pray that others were helped and encouraged.

Week In Review

I experienced two wonderfully warm days on Monday and Tuesday. A taste of summer in early April. By yesterday it was forty degrees cooler. Like I told everyone, that was just a tease.  I finished reading Selected Poems of Thomas Merton. I began reading the last poems of Robinson Jeffers. I'm amazed at the wide variety of styles and viewpoints about a number of topics by the authors.   

I began preparing a manuscript for my first chapbook. I have decided to self publish this one then get a publishing company for the next one. On Friday I moved my radio program to Friday night's at 6 PM. The program, Genevieve's Gems, talks about Godly things from the transgender perspective. I increased it from a half hour to a full hour. The hour went so fast! My wife and I attended a poetry reading event.


Reflecting on some personal aspects, I saw some positive changes in my life. The desire to be more open tops the list.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

A friend is someone who understands your past, believes in your future, and accepts you just the way you are.


~Author Unknown

Summer Tease

I just have been enjoying the unusually warm weather the past couple of days. Yesterday, it reached 82 degrees.  I was out and about in the city. I arrived at the South Ferry subway station which reopened over a week ago. It was badly damaged during Hurricane Sandy.

It was the first time that I was in the financial district as Gennee. I got some looks but nothing happened. I visited a few of my old haunts. A couple of them have closed due to the economy. It was just great being out and being myself. 
  

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

In a time of universal deceit-telling the truth is a revolutionary act.

~George Orwell

I'M BACK

I took some time off from posting but now I'm back. I hae been reading, writing, and preparing to participate in upcoming protests. I will be attending a couple of upcoming book fairs, a poetry reading, and an investment seminar. As you can see, I will be pretty busy.

My radio program, Genevieve's Gems, is going well. Tomorrow, I will discuss the whole transgender spectrum. Someone made the suggestion to speak about this. I've been broadcasting for a couple of months now. I've always loved radio and now I have my own program.  

MARCH

MARCH

Trees awaken from winter's slumber.
Silver gray clouds streak cross the blue landscape.
Warm southern winds loosen the grip of winter's chill
March is winter's last hurrah.

Tulips, enchanted by the sun's embrace,
Escape their dark prison
March blasts one last mighty roar
Only to fall silent in spring's serenade.

Taking A Break

I took a break from posting (needed it) but I have been active reading, writing (a lot), and seeing some more journeys that I will take. I have noticed that the backlash against trans people is intense. A bill in Arizona is being considered to jail/fine people if they don't have ID to prove they are the right gender when using public restrooms. On a positive note, South Korea has passed a law stating that trans people do not need to have surgery to change their gender markers.    

Reading much has helped educate me about what is going on. I will respond to some of the events in future posts. I have written a number poems. I'm working on a short story and a prose poem. Looking ahead to April it promises to be an active month for me. I may not post as much but I will keep you up to date on my comings and goings. 

Brought Granddaughter to Church

Today I brought my granddaughter to church for the first time. In the beginning she was overwhelmed because she never been around that many people. In fellowship she began to loosen up. Everybody liked her and she was feeling her oats.

After service, I and another trans woman were asked if we would like to speak at one of our sister churches. We both accepted. I'll let you know the details when they come in.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Humankind has not woven the web of life. We are but one thread within it. Whatever we do to the web, we do to ourselves. All things are bound together. All things connect. 


~Chief Seattle, Leader (1786-1866) 

Freedom Tower

This past Monday, I returned to lower Manhattan from a job interview in Staten Island. It was for a position as a visitors guide at the 9/11 memorial. I passed by the Freedom Tower (above) on my trek uptown. Even after all these years, 9/11 still has an effect on me.

 

TIme To Act

Today I read much news about many issues of the day. Even with all that's going on, it still boils down to whether people can come together and work to resolve those concerns. Egos and personal agendas need to be set aside. 

There is much bickering along ideological lines and belief systems. Through all this, those parties which do not have the people's interest at heart are further entrenching themselves. They are secretly working with federal, state and local officials to pass laws that they create to benefit corporations and not people. I'm currently looking at some future protests in which I can participate.

 Look at the folks in countries like Greece, Spain, and Italy. Unemployment is off the charts. People are eating out of garbage cans, and suicide is on the increase. They are out in the streets challenging the austerity measures put forth by these corrupt politicos and corporate heads. They are challenging the very people who caused this mess.  This is what is needed here in America.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Beware of false knowledge; it is more dangerous than ignorance.

~George Bernard Shaw, Dramatist (1856-1950)

Quiet Moments

 In those quiet moments, thoughts of where my journey has taken me fill my mind. I'm different and yet I didn't feel any earthshaking experience. This has been the way my journey has gone. I find these quiet moments rather refreshing.

I've always been a quiet and reflective individual. Quiet spaces for me is nirvana. An empty church, park, among nature. These thoughts are clearest when I wake up in the morning. This has happening with more frequency. From time to time I wonder if my being transgender was the fulfillment of a Native American prophecy.

There are those times I wish that I could travel by foot across the land. As a child I was fascinated by country roads and trails. I wondered where they would lead. Now in my middle years I still have that curiosity. Perhaps my transgender journey is an answer to this desire.

Window Shopping

I had just finished a job interview when I decided to windowship. I crossed the street and entered Payless Shoes. I was like a little girl as I oogled over the many wonderful styles and color-and in my size! I have to wear size 13 in a ladies shoe because I have a wide foot. I saw cream colored low heels, white heels, and aqua blue running shoes. Aqua blue! Right up my alley! 

Wisdom Of The Elders

I was chatting with an 85 year old member of my church. For nearly an hour, I listened as she shared stories of her childhood and young years. I marveled at the joy and wisdom she has about life. I've known Carmen only a short time but whenever she spoke it was from her years of experience.

One of aspects I believe is being lost is the wisdom of the elders being inparted on the young. I am a member of two cultures with  oral traditions. I enjoy listening to others share their experiences.

I am a nature lover and whenever I'm out in it I let it consume me.  As a child I loved venturing into the woods, against my mother's wishes. I have wondered if my being transgender was part of a Native American prophecy. The wisdom of others can serve as a reminder that we too carry the torch of being seers, shamans, and historians to younger generations.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Faith and prayer are the vitamins of the soul;
man cannot live in health without them.


~Mahalia Jackson (1911-1972) 

HANGING OUT

Yesterday, I hung out at some of my usual hangouts. It's been a few weeks since doing this. Illness, terrible weather, and lack of funds contributed to this. 

I stopped by the community center then at the library nearby. I was tempted to take out another book but resisted the urge. Recently, a Barnes and Noble bookstore shut its doors. There are a number of business that have shuttered its doors because of increased rents. It's really a shame. 

I walked up the block toward Fifth Avenue. The building below was the old Marlton Hotel. Many famous artists and writers lived in single occupancy rooms. One of them was poet, critic and writer Delmore Schwartz (1913-1966). I read a couple of his books recently and found him a brilliant and troubled person. Today, the building is a dormitory for art students.

I visited a bookstore, a church, and a park that I hung out in during late 1960's and 1970s. I was no hurry and strolled leisurely. I do feel my spirit here in these places. It's only that spent some of my youth here but believe that I saw much creativity and authenticity in the arts and the many denizens of the neighborhood. I do miss those days. Much of this rich past is being absorbed through gentrification. I love sharing stories of my past. It's just me but I really    believe that young folks today really miss on on the positive and original vibes of that time.

It was a wonderful to be out and about again. One thing these excursions do is give me some great ideas for poems and short stories.

TRUE DIVERSITY OUGHT TO BE REFLECTED IN LEADRSHIP

Diversity is something that many organizations work hard to achieve. However when I look at the leadership of many LGBT  organizations, I wonder if I'm missing something. Many positions are still overwhelming white and male.

As a transgender individual I find this disturbing. The vast majority of transgender people abused and murdered are women of color. Whenever I read about the Stonewall Riots here in New York in 1969, I pleasantly remind some folks that it was began by a transgender woman of color and a butch lesbian woman. 
Within a year the leadership positions in many organizations were overwhelmingly  male, white, and middle class.Transgender people were shunted to the margins. Women formed their own groups. While there has been much improvement over the years, I believe in my heart that if equality was fought with the same fervor as assimilation, we would be much further along.

Yesterday, the assistant pastor spoke about diversity. The congregation reflects what diversity should truly be. In the leadership there is a black woman, black gay man, and a Latino man. There is a wide diversity of cultures, ages, genders and sexualities. I reflect on how diverse the early Christian church was. I'm not talking about tokenism either. 

In my opinion if the diversity in leadership positions doesn't change, then a golden opportunity to hear voices from other experiences and cultures will be lost. LGBT rights is not just an American phenomena. It's a worldwide one.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

What you learn today may prove invaluable to you or someone else in the future.

What I Remember Most About Martin Luther King

This Sunday we will be celebrating Black History Month. I am reminded of Rev. King and others sacrificed in time, material comforts, and lives. We remember his fine oratory, his vision, and his spiritual strength in a tumultous time in history.

What I remember  about Rev. Dr. King is the love he displayed in the face of hate and violence. He never shut the door on those who were oppressed or on his oppressors. He spoke out against those injustices with clarity and conviction. That clarity was most evident in the May 4, 1967 speech of his opposition to the Vietnam War.

Rev. Dr. King knew that a bullet could meet him at any time and yet he kept going. I admire him most for staying with the spiritual component  of the movement, something that is sorely lacking in today's movements. He was a minister and spiritual father to many near and far.

When Rev. Dr. King was taken from us we lost a man who brought people of all walks of life together. He's left a legacy and example that desparately needs to be seen today in our politically-correct, apathetic world.

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MODELING

I have taken up some new activities. I have a radio show and am preparing to self publish a chapbook. The other day I thought about modeling clothes. Yes, modeling! Previously, I had no interest in it other than the clothes the models were dressed in. I do keep up with fashion trends. It's a crazy thought, one of my fantasies. It's quite possible that it could happen (never say never). Something nice to add to my my resume, if it happens.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Remember when life's path is steep to keep your mind even.

~Horace

SF To Cover SRS For All Transgender Residents

San Francisco to cover sex change surgeries for all uninsured transgender residents



The commentators at FOX News are going to love this one.

In 2001, San Francisco became the first city in the country to cover the cost of sex change surgeries for transgender city employees. In 2007, it became the first city in the country to provide health care for all uninsured residents through its Healthy San Francisco program.

Now, San Francisco is combining those firsts into yet another pioneering move by becoming the first city in the country to cover the cost of gender reassignment surgeries for its uninsured transgender residents.

The Department of Public Health has long been on the cutting-edge of providing medical care for transgender patients. It established a special clinic for them in 1994 and offers hormone   therapy, counseling and primary care services.

But the city’s health regulations excluded coverage for gender reassignment surgeries, and the department hasn’t employed surgeons capable of performing them.

That’s about to change thanks in large part to advocacy from the city’s Transgender Law Centerand Supervisor Scott Wiener who quietly introduced legislation at the Board of Supervisors over the summer encouraging the health department to remove the exclusion from its code. -SFGate 

http://blog.sfgate.c...nder-residents/ 

Transformation

I love the Lent season because it is a time to reflect about the changes in our lives. This past Sunday in service the Transfiguration of Jesus was preached from Matthew 17:1-9. Upon further thought, I realize that we are transforming every day.

Transformation may mean that some thing in our lives has been changed or replaced with something better. Several days ago I noticed more changes in my transgender journey. More of my male identity is giving way to a more feminine personality. This is something I never actively sought but the Lord rendered upon me.

There are things that I can give up during Lent but I believe that something good will replace it. When I decided to be the transgender woman I was created to be, many avenues opened up to me. New friends, new thoughts, a new direction. Above all, I was transformed and renewed by God.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

I love to think of nature as an unlimited broadcasting station, through which God speaks to us every hour, if we only tune in.

~George Washington Carver, Scientist (1864-1943)

No'Easter!

A big blizzard today. Have about a half a foot of snow so far. Windy and getting colder. My son and girlfriend are coming in from Washington DC by bus. Praying for their safety. Should end tomorrow afternoon.

Chinese New Year

This coming Sunday Chinese New Year will be celebrated after Sunday service. I attended last year and enjoyed learning much about Chinese culture and cuisine. There are a number of Asian people in church. I'm really blessed to know some of them.

QUOTE FROM A BUTTON

God created you
ON purpose
WITH purpose
FOR a purpose


This quote was on a button I picked up last week at a luncheon.

Don't Want To Miss Anything

January, I believe, is a 'chill' month after the Christmas season. Looking at my calender, things are picking up again. There's the Chinese New Year, the beginning of the Lenten season which culminates with Easter, and Black History month. 

It gives pause as to how diverse a world we are. I've always enjoyed this diversity and derive much pleasure from it. I still have that childlike curiosity about life. I'm open to many things because if one is too rigid in their belief systems, they may miss something that may prove valuable.            

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Be who you are and be that well.


~St. Francis de Sales

Gennee Makes Presence Felt

This past Sunday my wife and I went to visit a friend who was in the hospital. As we walked to the security desk I saw that we needed to show our IDs. I don't have a picture of me as Gennee. I wondered how this would turn out? I presented my ID with mymale picture. The guard looked at me for a moment, sowewhat startled. He gave us passes and let's us proceed.

We had to sign again when we reached my friend's ward. The lady with signed me didn't take a moment's notice. She just let me pass. Quite a day. Gennee is making her presence felt. My friend is doing much better.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Never be bullied into silence. Never allow yourself to be made a victim. Accept no one's definition of your life; define yourself.



~ Harvey Fierstein

Winter Interlude

Winter is probably my second favorite season. After the fading beauty of fall, winter is serene and quiet. The leafless trees whisper in the wind The parks and trails are empty. As a child I enjoyed being outside during the winter. 

To me, winter is nature's way of slowing down so we all can rest, reflect, and recharge. I am reminded that there's a warm place waiting for me. Taking pause to be thankful for what I have makes for a grateful heart.  

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Make a difference by being a difference.

Age No Barrier

Recently I've read some posts here and at other places that some feel that they are too old to transition or to make the changes needed to be the people they want to be. It's never too late to make positive changes.

Change is not easy but consider the alternative. Do you wish to be miserable and unhappy or do you desire to be happy, content, and full of vitality. Society will tell you that when you're in middle age, you're no longer productive or that you have nothing of value to offer. What gets me is that society thinks that we do not have the creative ideas or the desire to make change. Yes we can change and we can have an impact on others.

When I read posts I'm always happy for the success folks have experienced in their lives. I started cross dressing in my mid fifties. I returned to school at 54, graduated with a bachelor's degree at 59. I came out last June to my congregation as a transgender woman. I was sixty three. I know of a woman who transitioned at age 77.

Age should never be barrier to achieving your dreams. If you need to transition, do it. Do the the things that you have put off for so long. Be around positive people who will encourage you.

Happy Birthday MLK

On this day eighty four years ago one of greatest champions for human rights was born. Martin Luther King is one man that I admire because he stood up for the poor and oppressed. He demonstrated love and compassion in the face of hate and personal harm. 

Earlier today I listened to his speech done on May 4, 1967, comdemning the Vietnam War. A year later on the exact day MLK was assasinated. I have listened to a number of his speeches including the 'I Have A Dream' speech in 1963. I listened to his last speech on May 3, 1968. This and the Vietnam War speech resonate with me.

 Much of what he spoke about is happening today; racism, militarism, and social injustice. More MLKs are needed to speak out and change conditions in America. People in other countries such as Greece, Spain, Irealand, and Italy are doing just that. On this occasion let's strive to fulfill the dream that Dr. King sacrificed his life for.

Cecilia Chung

Transgender patients seeking medical care face discrimination even in liberal, cutting-edge San Francisco.

But this being liberal, cutting-edge San Francisco, they also have a champion: Cecilia Chung, a transgender woman serving on the Health Commission.

Appointed to the commission overseeing the Department of Public Health by Mayor Ed Lee in April, Chung made news by pushing the department to pay for gender reassignment surgeries for uninsured transgender patients - making San Francisco the first city in the country to do so.





http://www.sfgate.com/bayarea/article/Cecilia-Chung-transgender-health-advocate-4189493.php

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Are we like late Rome, infatuated with past glories, ruled by a complacent, greedy elite, and hopelessly powerless to respond to changing conditions.


~Camile Paglia, b. 1947

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

When an individual is protesting society's refusal to acknowledge his dignity as a human being, his very act of protest confers dignity to him.


~Bayard Rustin (1910-1987)

GOALS FOR 2013

Every year at this time I go about choosing goals that I will accomplish. I have three thus far. The first is to work toward seeing the employment non discrimination pass here in New York. The law has repeatedly failed to pass in the state senate. I want to see this change. It's been on the ballot for over a decade and enough stalling is enough.

Second, I will buy my first black dress. It is said that a lady needs at least one black dress in her wardrobe. I need to get two or three.

Third, I will get my certificates so I can teach/tutor. I'm not so sure about working in the public school sector but non profits seem appealing. 

That's three goals thus far. I'll most like come up with more as time passes.  

2012-SUMMARY

If I could sum up 2012, I would conclude that it was a year of revelation, growth, and challenge. I came out to my faith community and my neighborhood. I educated many folks about what it is to be transgender and the concerns of transgender People as a group. I also saw the challenges we face in a clear and concise way.

During gay pride month in June I came out to my church family. Some were surprised but the response was overwhelmingly supportive. It was the first time my wife went out with me when I was Gennee. We met many LGBTQI men and women from other churches. The mixer that was given helped open door and established connections.

In October and November a journalism grad student interviewed my wife and me. I shared the video with friends and received positive responses. Keeping up with the issues and topics concerning transgender people was challenging. Much happened in 2012 and more will happen in the coming year. I invited a transgender woman who I met at Transgender Day of Remembrance ceremonies to church. Now Michelle is a regular.

Looking back, 2012 was a year of growth emotionally and spiritually. I met some wonderful folks and made some good friends.  In my next post I will share some goals I have in mind for 2013.



HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Response to Pope's Rant

Several days ago I read the vitriolic words of Pope Benedict's thoughts
about marriage equality and about transgender people. A rebuttal was
posted a short time after those remarks. Below is the link.



A Catholic's Response to Pope Benedict XVI's Comments Regarding Marriage Equality

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Let each new year be better than the last.

HOLIDAY GREETINGS

MERRY CHRISTMAS! HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Underappreciated

Their jobs are filled with stress. They aren't paid enough and are vastly under appreciated. Yet they are vital to public service of the citizenry.

1. parents- there's no instruction book

2.teachers- they are professionals, too. They affect the future learning of our children more than one thinks.

3. nurses- just as valuable as doctors. 

4. police/fire/ems personnel- do dangerous jobs that most of us wouldn't.

5. military personnel- much sacrifice to keep us safe.

Video Of Interview

Here is a link to the interview I had in November. I hope that you enjoy it.




http://northattan.com/2012/12/18/fort-washington-collegiate-church-washington-heights-lgbt-religion-transgender/

GENDA IN 2013

I havent though about my goals for 2013 yet but one came to me while I was changing the backround of my blogsite. Purple is one of my favorite colors. This year was one of coming out many times and connecting with like minded folks. It was a year of educating others.

In the upcoming year, I will be involved in two or three issues that are very important to transgender people. One of those issues will be the Gender Expression Non Discrimination Act (GENDA) here in New York State. Probably will travel upstate as to put a face on what it is to transgender.  

I don't know what the other topics will be at this point but I'll post it when I have them.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

If you really think about it, we are changing all the time.

Coming Out To Siblings

I'm getting closer to the point that I don't have a desire to own any male clothing.
Right now, I'm sitting at my computer dressed in a red mock sweater and black
maxi skirt. Not wanting to take them off I know that I will have to when I go to bed pretty soon.

 I have the feeling that I may break the news to my brother, sister, and nephew about
Genevieve. When that my happen I can't said but 2013 could be the year.  I'm ready for
the repercussions but as I have mentioned when I come out to someone, there's no going back.
When the time is right I will do this.

Social Settings

I have been to a Christmas party and a cocktail social in recent days. I don't remember if it's the first time out for me at a party as Genevieve but it's great when it's with ladies. I wasn't conscious of being trans, I was being myself. I'm pretty comfortable in social settings.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

We are shaped by our thoughts; we become what we think.
When the mind is pure, joy follows like a shadow that never leaves.

Feeing Better

I'm doing much better after a bout with a viral infection.

Under The Weather

I went to the emergency room today because of a sore throat. Found out I have a viral infection. One of my lymph nodes is swollen. I was given some antibiotics to take. I'll be in bed for a couple of days. Doesn't prevent me from reading, writing, and posting.  

December

December is here (so fast). This is usually an active month for me. Gatherings, a little shopping, sharing the joy of the season. This past Saturday, there was a Christmas Tree lighting celebration at church. Estimates of how many people came range between eight hundred and a thousand people.

This is also a time of reflection. I'm thankful about the many blessings  bestowed on many folks and on me.Many people will be alone. Some will be depressed. This is particularly true in the LGBT community. Many are estranged from loved ones and families. Bringing joy can be as simple as a smile, a card, a meal, or an invitation to a concert. 

 As the years pass I am reminded of the many people would have passed through my life. I have been  enriched by them and share some of the good tidings with others.     

WORLD AIDS DAY

On this day, I am reminded of the millions of people who succumbed to the disease. I am mindful of the millions who are suffering. The HIV/AIDS crisis may not be in the headlines as it was thirty years ago but it's still a crisis today. New cases, particularly among young men of color and African American women are on the rise. 

I do not know anyone personally who died from AIDS but I know a few folks who had friends and partners die from it. A couple of years ago, I was at the community center on WORLD AIDS DAY. I listened to some classical music being played by an orchestra. When I heard that some of the instruments being used belonged to deceased partners or friends, I wept. The loss of so many gifted and talented people has been felt by the LGBT community in particular. 

I look forward to the day when this dreaded disease will no longer exist. There are successful treatments out there, though. Education is still needed because there is still stigmatization and ignorance about HIV/AIDS.   

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

It takes courage to admit when one is wrong.

Internet Back On

After more than a year I finally have my own internet. I've been using the library computers and there are days that I don't feel like leaving the house. I hope to post more and read more. 

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

How can someone tell me what I should be when they don't even know anything about me?

Transgender Day Of Remembrance

Last night, I attended the Transgender Day of Remembrance ceremonies at the community center. Well over 100 people attended. There were speakers with some interesting stories about how the work they are doing to end transphobia. It was both somber and yet encouraging to hear so many stories of struggle, discovery, and victory.

A transwoman named M* shared her story about her unhappy life as a male and is now transitioning. M* shared the story of her friend Venus, who was murdered 20 years ago. Venus was instrumental in M* deciding to transition. A transman shared his story of being attacked and seriously injured. I took many of these stories to heart because there's such a long way to go.
I spoke a few words to the audience about my coming out at my place of worship and my family's acceptance. I encouraged them to be themselves. Afterwards, a number of folks thanked me for the words that I spoke. I was invited to speak at one place and the possibility of a portrait of me and my wife from someone else.
I felt this was the best TDOR I've attended because the resolve and determination of folks to fight against transphobia and discriminnation was definitely there.

Thanksgiving Dinner

Today, Thanksgiving dinner will be served to those in need at church. My wife and I will be helping out. There are many folks in need in the neighborhood and we do whatever we can to help. 

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

The fight for equality requires knowledge, information,determination, and perseverance.

Documentary

This past Saturday evening, I watched DVD named Out Of The Box. It is the stories of transgender people of faith. Interviewed were a cross dresser, two trans women, and a trans man. Each shared their stories of discovery, struggle, transition,  loss, and redemption. Each individual is now serving in the ministry. It was a positive story to show that transgender people have a vital part in God's kingdom and work.

Afterwards Vivian, a transgender woman, shared her own story. I was fascinated how she broke the news to her family. During refreshments, we talked for fifteen minutes or so,sharing our desire to affect the spiritual community that transgender people are God's people also.  

Coming Out Later in Life

I have been reading the stories of folks who discovered later in life that their sexuality or gender expression were different. Many of the people who commented discovered in their thirties, forties, fities, and even sixties. I was in my mid fifties when I discovered that I love wearing women's clothing.

I took note that not everyone knows that they're gay when they are children. A woman could discover that she attracted to women when she married. A man or woman may realize that they would be much happier as the other gender. Circumstances varied with each person but the results were life changing. What I see is the evolution of each person into their authentic and true identities. When they embraced it, they were much happier and complete.

I came out as a crossdresser then later saw that my feelings ran deeper than clothing. When I researched about my my concerns, that's when I discovered that I  was transgender. From time to time, my gender identity undergoes a shift. I have no desire to fully transition but I haven't closed the door to it. Some may think that I missed out on a lot by coming out late. I just believe that it was the right time for me to coming out in the world.

It's been over seven years since I came out as Gennee. This year I came out to more people. I will be coming out to more people in the future. 

Survived Hurricane Sandy

I survived Hurricane Sandy. Where I live, there was only some downed trees, a little flooding, and a few power outages. My residence is on a hill so was spared much of the flooding. Some other neighborhoods were really devastated. I used to live in Coney Island and was born in Staten Island so I know how vulnerable these places are. New Jersey was really decimated.

I thought the news coverage was spotty in that they showed the same pictures over and over. Also the poor areas and the projects were virtually neglected.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Discontent is the first step in the progress of a man or a nation.


~Chinese proverb

Transgender In Africa

I read this article today that may be of interest to you.

http://www.blacklooks.org/2012/10/transgender-community-as-an-african-in-the-diaspora/

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

JUST ONE KIND WORD CAN BRING JOY TO THE WHOLE DAY.

Wearing Purple this Weekend.

I am wearing purple in support of those who have been bullied.  It's time that this scourge is confronted. Let's wrap our arms around those who have been bullied and harassed and tell them that we love them.

Beyond Labels

This past Thursday the Beyond Labels ministry at church met to discuss ideas for the coming year. Many wonderful ideas were presented. I mentioned that Transgender Day of Remembrance was coming up next month. I informed the group that I will be attending the ceremony at the community center. Some folks may come in support.

The assistant pastor is writing something about transphobia.  I am gathering materials about the origins of Transgender Day of Remembrance.  My wife stated publically that she fully supports me. One of my desires is to reach out to transgender people who may be stealth or struggling. What I'm really pleased about is that people of faith both LGBTQI and straight are involved in spearheading this outreach.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Look deep into nature, and then you will understand everything better. 


~ALBERT EINSTEIN

2012

This year has gone by so fast! The elections are less than a month away, transgender day of remembrance ceremonies come up next month,  and once again Thanksgiving and Christmas will be upon us. 

2012 has been a big year for transgender people in that many communities around the country are even discussing this issue. There have been some victories, some defeats. What has been consistent in my life is the desire to share with others what being transgender is. There have been inroads in my place of worship and within the community that I live in. I have seen more trans folks here and there on the street. The trans community is largely invisible. 

I'm aware of some concerns (safety) but I cannot let that stop me. With each passing day my trans identity is being defined and refined. I sense that there will be more internal changes in the future. I am thankful for an accepting and understanding mate who has come to terms with my transgenderism. 

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Each day presents us with a new opportunity to improve ourselves.

Getting Back To Normal

September was a very trying month. My sister was evicted from her apartment while she was in the hospital. My wife was in the hospital for three days. My brother and I handled the storage and moving affairs. My wife is much better now. I haven't been on the forums or posting much lately but now I'm getting back to normal. 

Calm In the Face of Conflict and Struggle

I was browsing the GLBT section of Barnes and Noble. I thumbed through some of the books which I was interested in. I realized that I've come along way just in the last year.

My post about what happened in an eating establishment doesn't deter me from living life in a positive manner. I try to remain calm in the face of conflict and struggle. I also see the challenges that we all face. With increased visibiblity have come acts of violence and hatred against us.

I don't see myself as a leader of some movement or platform but I can't sit by and not lend a hand in some manner. This is something that has come into my path and I must follow it

Close To Home

http://www.nydailynews.com/news/crime/man-22-slashed-razor-gay-slurs-greenwich-village-mcdonald-article-1.1164580


I have frequented this establishment a few times. I usually hang out in Greenwich Village. This hits close to home for me. Won't stop me from going there.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

There is no better than adversity. Every defeat, every heartbreak, every loss, contains its own seed, its own lesson on how to improve your performance the next time. 



~Malcolm X

More Opportunities

Tuesday evening, I shared with a young woman at bible study about my transition. Previously she saw and knew in male mode. I shared with her about my coming out in June.  She was pleased with my response. 

Later, another woman told me that she would like me to meet someone she knows that is transgender. I look forward to meeting her. 

Very Hectic

The past couple of weeks have really been hectic. First my sister was in the hospital for surgery. She's doing okay in her rehabilitation. My brother and I put her belongings in storage. She's going to move into a smaller and less expensive place.  My wife spent a few days in the hospital after complaining of dizziness and blurred vision. She's better now and is at home. She uses a cane now because her arthritis in her right knee. We looking to get therapy. Things are calming down and getting back to normal.

More Surprises

On Sunday at church, a young couple discovered that I am transgender. They sat in the same pew as my wife and me. We know the couple. After service she shared with them that the woman standing next to her was her husband. They were quite shocked  to say the least. Every week at least one person discovers that I'm transgender. It's my way of educating the public.

Later in the evening, my wife and I were having coffee  at a local restaurant. While she was getting our coffee, a woman at the next table was staring at me. I was busy reading my email but sensed that her eyes were searching me trying to figure me out. Later, my wife stated such. It's happened to me before but I pay no attention to them.

It was quite a day from two different perspectives.

Experience is not what happens to you; it's what you do with what happens to you.


Aldous Huxley

Quite a Week

The past week has really been dramatic. The three day weekend was very nice and relaxing. I have been to a couple activities at the SAGE center here. I met some wonderful people and look forward to being more involved. 

I have had some family drama also. My sister is recuperating from surgery. My nephew has moved on after splitting from his ex. Can't say my life has been boring.

Weekend

Enjoy the Labor Day weekend!

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

I thank you God for this most amazing day, for the leaping greenly spirits of trees, and for the blue dream of sky and for everything which is natural, which is infinite, which is yes.


~E.E.Cummings

Clearer Picture

When I first posted this I wasn't sure at all what the changes would be. Now I have a clearer picture. I sense that in a year or two I'll reveal my identity to my brother and sister. This will be a huge step and I'm not really sure if it will happen.


I also sense there will be another shift in my transgender expression. I have shared with many folks over the past couple of months. This past Sunday another member of the church discovered that I was transgender.

I have degree in childhood education. I have maintained that my teaching career will not necessarily be in a tranditional setting. This seems to be happening more often. I'm preparing some materials about transgender pioneers. Possibly I may educate more folks about our history. That's about where I am at the present time.

More Changes In Store

I have been out in my neighborhood more and more. It's very refreshing to see that people see and treat me like anyone else. I've even received some compliments. It's really wonderful that I can be authentic self.

I see that there will be some changes ahead. I don't know what they will be but I sense it. This is nothing new with me because whatever I did sense in the past came to fruition. I will have a clearer picture in the months ahead.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Never forget the folk who came before you. Never forget thse who helped you.

Compliments

I have been out and about in my neighborhood. I get some compliments about my attire, all positive. I wear sandals during these months and I have received some positive compliments about my feet. A man told me just last night that I have beautiful feet. I always seem to get compliments about me that I don't expect.

Poem

I trek through the same places,
New environs create new spaces.
Have I evolved?
Is the riddle solved?
The storm clouds have lifted,
I see now that I'm gifted.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

None are so old as those who have outlived enthusiasm


~Henry David Thoreau

Tucson's Birthday

I was reading on of my posts about the upcoming birthday party for the city of Tucson, Arizona. The city will be 237 years old. I didn't know that Tucson was around that long.

www.antigonebooks.com

Seen As A Woman

Ever since I came out at my place of worship, I have been treated and spoken to as a woman. It's even happened in other places that I go. Been hit on a number of times also.It's really been amazing. Interacting with the public has helped along with some pointers from my spouse.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

As I approve of a youth that has something of the old man in him, so I am no less pleased with an old man that has something of the youth. He that follows this rule may be old in body, but can never be so in mind.

                                                                                                              ~Marcus Tullius Cicero

Chooosing To Be Authentic

You decide that you can no longer continue life on the current course. The gender struggles get stronger and are not going away. The day comes when a decision has to be made. Do you make the changes needed or continue on the track you're running on?

I enjoy reading many posts and the progress people are making. It encourages me that my trans sisters and brothers are choosing to be authentic. This is wonderful and greatly needed. Actions can affect others in ways that we may not always see. It's the reason I choose to be open with others. Just recently, I educated a young couple about my transgenderism. I have seen other transgender people in my neighborhood. I know that they are out there, but not always visible.

There are common threads that run through all the posts. The one that makes the most impression on me is people choosing to be authentic. I was afraid in the beginning. When I made the choice to proceed forward, I never looked back. The footprints of the past were gone. I'm still moving forward. Many of my sisters and brothers are doing likewise.



I never travel this road before.
Lined with thick brush and boulders,
it looks strange and forboding.
there's nothing to guide me.
Each step forward is a step closer to my destiny.
I trek on, not knowing what awaits me.
I'm gently nudged forward by an unseen hand
I look behind me and footprints of my past are gone.   
   

Coming To Terms

     What happens when a person discovers that they aren’t what they thought they were?  What do they do when the time comes to make the decision to accept their real identity?

     Many men and women erroneous thought that they could pray the gay away. Some thought that it was ridiculous that they were more interested in the habits and manners of the opposite gender. Some marry and have children thinking that just need a good mate to take away the urges they have. Men join the army to become ‘real men’. Women become engrossed in womanly pursuits to prove that they are women.

     The day comes when they can no longer keep in who they are. Now they have to decide which it is that they desire to be. As I write this, I’m sure there are men, women, boys, and girls who are tired of hiding. They just want to be authentic. If only society and their family and friends would understand.

     Thankfully many have come out of hiding. It was a grand day when I came out as transgender. Every day many people reveal their true identity to the world. I pray that those folks who are struggling will see that they are created exactly as they are. They have nothing to be ashamed of. They needn’t feel guilty or ashamed. They have the right to be who they are.

DENIAL

                                               

     Reading about folks coming to terms with their gender or sexuality thrills me. It’s a liberating experience for them in that they can move forward to living the lives that they desire. Denial turned out to be an albatross around their necks.

     I’m acquainted with denial because I was in denial several weeks before finally accepting myself as a cross dresser. Denial puts off the inevitable for a short time. We can say that we’re not gay or transgender. We can do all we can to prove to others that we are “manly” or a real woman. For a while things can roll along smoothly. Then the day comes when we’re come face to face with the truth.

     I wonder what many people have committed suicide because they denied an aspect of themselves. It’s one thing that society gives us a hard way to go. When we add denial and self-loathing to an already unbearable load, it’s a matter of before a person shows cracks in the armor.  What’s really sad is when some people who deny who they are will do everything to deny others their rights.

     How each person comes out is a personal matter. It is also vital that each person has a healthy and positive view of themselves. A healthy mind, body, and spirit is as important as looking good or impressing others.