Friday, August 31, 2012


Enjoy the Labor Day weekend!


I thank you God for this most amazing day, for the leaping greenly spirits of trees, and for the blue dream of sky and for everything which is natural, which is infinite, which is yes.


Tuesday, August 28, 2012

Clearer Picture

When I first posted this I wasn't sure at all what the changes would be. Now I have a clearer picture. I sense that in a year or two I'll reveal my identity to my brother and sister. This will be a huge step and I'm not really sure if it will happen.

I also sense there will be another shift in my transgender expression. I have shared with many folks over the past couple of months. This past Sunday another member of the church discovered that I was transgender.

I have degree in childhood education. I have maintained that my teaching career will not necessarily be in a tranditional setting. This seems to be happening more often. I'm preparing some materials about transgender pioneers. Possibly I may educate more folks about our history. That's about where I am at the present time.

Saturday, August 25, 2012

More Changes In Store

I have been out in my neighborhood more and more. It's very refreshing to see that people see and treat me like anyone else. I've even received some compliments. It's really wonderful that I can be authentic self.

I see that there will be some changes ahead. I don't know what they will be but I sense it. This is nothing new with me because whatever I did sense in the past came to fruition. I will have a clearer picture in the months ahead.

Friday, August 24, 2012


Never forget the folk who came before you. Never forget thse who helped you.

Thursday, August 23, 2012


I have been out and about in my neighborhood. I get some compliments about my attire, all positive. I wear sandals during these months and I have received some positive compliments about my feet. A man told me just last night that I have beautiful feet. I always seem to get compliments about me that I don't expect.

Tuesday, August 21, 2012


I trek through the same places,
New environs create new spaces.
Have I evolved?
Is the riddle solved?
The storm clouds have lifted,
I see now that I'm gifted.

Friday, August 17, 2012


None are so old as those who have outlived enthusiasm

~Henry David Thoreau

Tucson's Birthday

I was reading on of my posts about the upcoming birthday party for the city of Tucson, Arizona. The city will be 237 years old. I didn't know that Tucson was around that long.

Monday, August 13, 2012

Seen As A Woman

Ever since I came out at my place of worship, I have been treated and spoken to as a woman. It's even happened in other places that I go. Been hit on a number of times also.It's really been amazing. Interacting with the public has helped along with some pointers from my spouse.

Friday, August 10, 2012


As I approve of a youth that has something of the old man in him, so I am no less pleased with an old man that has something of the youth. He that follows this rule may be old in body, but can never be so in mind.

                                                                                                              ~Marcus Tullius Cicero

Wednesday, August 08, 2012

Chooosing To Be Authentic

You decide that you can no longer continue life on the current course. The gender struggles get stronger and are not going away. The day comes when a decision has to be made. Do you make the changes needed or continue on the track you're running on?

I enjoy reading many posts and the progress people are making. It encourages me that my trans sisters and brothers are choosing to be authentic. This is wonderful and greatly needed. Actions can affect others in ways that we may not always see. It's the reason I choose to be open with others. Just recently, I educated a young couple about my transgenderism. I have seen other transgender people in my neighborhood. I know that they are out there, but not always visible.

There are common threads that run through all the posts. The one that makes the most impression on me is people choosing to be authentic. I was afraid in the beginning. When I made the choice to proceed forward, I never looked back. The footprints of the past were gone. I'm still moving forward. Many of my sisters and brothers are doing likewise.

I never travel this road before.
Lined with thick brush and boulders,
it looks strange and forboding.
there's nothing to guide me.
Each step forward is a step closer to my destiny.
I trek on, not knowing what awaits me.
I'm gently nudged forward by an unseen hand
I look behind me and footprints of my past are gone.   

Friday, August 03, 2012

Coming To Terms

     What happens when a person discovers that they aren’t what they thought they were?  What do they do when the time comes to make the decision to accept their real identity?

     Many men and women erroneous thought that they could pray the gay away. Some thought that it was ridiculous that they were more interested in the habits and manners of the opposite gender. Some marry and have children thinking that just need a good mate to take away the urges they have. Men join the army to become ‘real men’. Women become engrossed in womanly pursuits to prove that they are women.

     The day comes when they can no longer keep in who they are. Now they have to decide which it is that they desire to be. As I write this, I’m sure there are men, women, boys, and girls who are tired of hiding. They just want to be authentic. If only society and their family and friends would understand.

     Thankfully many have come out of hiding. It was a grand day when I came out as transgender. Every day many people reveal their true identity to the world. I pray that those folks who are struggling will see that they are created exactly as they are. They have nothing to be ashamed of. They needn’t feel guilty or ashamed. They have the right to be who they are.



     Reading about folks coming to terms with their gender or sexuality thrills me. It’s a liberating experience for them in that they can move forward to living the lives that they desire. Denial turned out to be an albatross around their necks.

     I’m acquainted with denial because I was in denial several weeks before finally accepting myself as a cross dresser. Denial puts off the inevitable for a short time. We can say that we’re not gay or transgender. We can do all we can to prove to others that we are “manly” or a real woman. For a while things can roll along smoothly. Then the day comes when we’re come face to face with the truth.

     I wonder what many people have committed suicide because they denied an aspect of themselves. It’s one thing that society gives us a hard way to go. When we add denial and self-loathing to an already unbearable load, it’s a matter of before a person shows cracks in the armor.  What’s really sad is when some people who deny who they are will do everything to deny others their rights.

     How each person comes out is a personal matter. It is also vital that each person has a healthy and positive view of themselves. A healthy mind, body, and spirit is as important as looking good or impressing others.