GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Each person is where they are
because there is a greater good to be achieved.

Christmas was good. A quite day for us. I just relaxed and watched tv.

I'm thinking about my year-end blog. There has been a number of goals reached personally and in the transgender community. I will highlight some things that I would like to see happen in 2007.

I have to work today and tomorrow, then I have five days off. I'll have to get my computer fixed, also. I'm trying to see if I can be dressed all day Friday or Saturday.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Every girl needs a black dress-and I'm still looking for one.





MERRY CHRISTMAS!

I purchased a gray wool skirt yesterday at a thrift shop. Now I can purchase any color top to go with it. That's the beauty of having a lot of gray, black, or white skirts.

I have been reflective of the year past and am looking forward to 2007. It's been a great year for me and I have grown much since I came out to myself as a transgender. I will blog about this after Christmas. There are things that I would like to see happen for transgender men and women.

I'm finished with classes for this semester. When I came home early last evening, it felt weird. I miss class already.

My computer at home is down so I'm using a couple of available resources. I have so much to blog and write.

I'm still working on a play. Now that classes are over, I'll have more time to work on it. Also have a short story in the works. What's important to me is that transgender people are represented in a positive way.

I don't know if I have posted these websites here, but here are some that are informative.

www.crossdressers.com
www.averny.tripod.com
www.glbtq.com
www.tavausa.org
www.lauras-playground.com

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Some of the most revealing moments have come
when I was the most fearful.

Tomorrow is my last class for the semester. I'm so glad. I need a break.

I'm wanting to attend a TG event before the year is out but I don't know if I'll have the time. I will attend more events in 2007.

I'm looking for a gray skirt for my wardrobe. I also need a couple of dresses. I am somewhat of a conservative dresser. I would rather wear skirts in femme mode rather than pants. I guess it's that I feel more feminine when I wear a skirt.

This is my last week of classes for this semester. Have a final exam tonight and a class on Thursday. I need a break.

I haven't dressed much in the past couple of weeks but to do so this weekend. This past Sunday I attended the GLBT veterans meeting. I'm going to become a member of the group. I feel comfortable with them and look to understand some of the issues the group is tackling.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Find out what is comfortable for you,then go with it.

I have been feeling very good the past couple of days. I think my gender may be fluid again. I have a wonderful sense of contentment with who I am as a transgender. It's a beautiful feeling to have.

I will be finished with classes next week. Thank gooodness. I'm also shopping for Christmas. I hope my spouse will buy something feminine for me. If not, I'll treat myself.

Weather is finally normal. I was getting spoiled (and sick) by the unusually mild temperatures. I like the cold weather at times as long as it isn't too windy.

I have been feeling very good the past couple of days. I think my gender may be fluid again. I have a wonderful sense of contentment with who I am as a transgender. It's a beautiful feeling to have.

I will be finished with classes next week. Thank gooodness. I'm also shopping for Christmas. I hope my spouse will buy something feminine for me. If not, I'll treat myself.

Weather is finally normal. I was getting spoiled (and sick) by the unusually mild temperatures. I like the cold weather at times as long as it isn't too windy.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Being a TV/TG has allowed me to experience life
from two gender perspectives.

I feel much better today. This weather is really strange. I'm looking for wool skirts anf long sleeves blouses. I'm wanting to dress more because I want to go out to various functions.

I have been making progress on a story about an out crossdresser. It's possible it could be a vehicle for a play.

I haven't been feeling good the past couple of weeks. This crazy weather has gotten a lot of people sick. Still trying to shake something.

Thanksgiving was good. My computer is down so I'm using this one at work. Hope to be up again soon.

Thanksgiving was very good. Spent the day with the family eating turkey and all the trimmings. It rained all day.

I watched the documentary 'Transgeneration' in its entirety. It was quite interesting how the families handled the transitioning these college students were going through. When I think about it's really crossed many barriers, not just gender. I admire these young people for the courage to follow their convictions.

I went into the city on Saturday. It was mild for late November. I went into a few bookstores and browsed through the fiction and literature sections. Plays have been the focus lately and I'm attempting to write one. I also thumbed through some women's magazines. I want to improve my make up skill and add shades of color to my appearance.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Inner peace and contentment far outweigh
whether or not I will pass.

Today is the best I have felt in several days. I have been battling a cold and the flu.

I attended a transgender Day of Remembrance celebration yesterday. It felt good to be around my trans brothers and sisters. One of my goals for the coming year is to attend more trans events.

This year has been one of firsts. I am so comfortable with being a transgender person. It has made a difference in my life.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Diversity is accepting people who may have differing views,
but are a piece to the puzzle of life.

REMEMBER!

TRANSGENDER DAY OF REMEMBRANCE
MONDAY NOVEMBER 20TH
@HOUSING WORKS
320 WEST 13TH STREET NEAR 8TH AVE.
NEW YORK, NY @3PM

I marched in the Veteran's Day parade dressed as Genevieve. It was a great day for everyone. I marched under the banner of the American Veterans for Equality. Young and old cheered, waved, and said "Thank you". I was truly humbled by it. There were many veterans in the parade. The comraderie among them is still after many years.

There were a number of WWII and Korean War vets. Not each homage is paid to these brave men and women and we should thank them for what they did to preserve our freedom.

I was dressed the whole day. It was the longest that I spent dressed and I want to do it more often.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

The people who have impacted mankind the most
were those who were willing to step outside the box.

It's official! I will march in the Veteran's Day parade on Saturday. I'm both excited and honored. I want to get to know more LGBT veterans.

The elections are over and I have some mixed vibes about what transpired. Partisan politics and political correctness seem more important than issues of the people. Also, IMO, there are too 'empty suits'.

I got dressed up last Friday evening and wow, it was great to be out there again! I walked along the bust streets without a care in the world. I strolled through the nearly empty park, save several joggers, by the river. It was chilly but I dreesed warm. The feel of the wind on my bare legs was exhilerating. Gazing out into the harbor, I felt so comfortable being me. I am so happy that I am a transgender and a transvestite.

People laughs and scorns at us. We're called perverts, mentally ill, and faggots. Society says we aren't fit to be considered normal. My insides bubbling, I said to no one in particular "My name is Gennee! I'm a transgender and a transvestite and I'm proud of it!" That felt sooo good to get off my chest.

Yesterday, I attended a meeting of LGBT veterans. AVER, American Veterans for Equal Rights, will be marching in the Veterans Day Parade this Saturday. I will be marching as a transgender. I can't waith because this is something I have wanted to do for a while.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Change happens because there a greater purpose that lies ahead.

Tomorrow I will be out dressed for the first time in two months. I can't wait to get out and about again. There's so much happening and trying to decide which place to go is a challenge.

I have so much to write about my life as aTG/TV. Each day it gets better and I am comfortable with my life. I'm still developing a play but I haven't worked it as much as I would like.

I have been feeling good the past several days. I have been reading, writing, enjoying my life as a transgender. I haven't dressed in two months but I feel feminine just the same.

I will be going out dressed Friday evening . I'm checking out a couple of films to see if they are worth seeing.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

It's not about where we come from;
it is about where we are now, and where
do we want to go.

My gender has been fluid the past few days. I'm am my most content when it happens. I am happy to be transgender because so many beautiful things have been revealed to me.

I purchased a cream color sweater and wine, long sleeve blouse yesterday. I am going out dressed tomorrow for the first time since early September. I feel feminine whether or not I dress.

I will be marching in the Veterans Day parade. I contacted the local chapter of the American Veterans for Equal Rights and will march under their banner. I spoke with the president of the chapter and he is pleased that a transgender person like myself will participate. He has been hoping that more trans folk will march. It is something that I have wanted to do for awhile.

Gennee

I went out shopping today. I only purchased a belt. I saw so many lovely clothes. I concentrated on finding blouses, a sweater, and a skirt. Probably go out again tomorrow and purchase something.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Five things I can't do without: panties, lipstick, my denim skirt,
make-up, and purse ( have to remnd mysel that I'm a lady now).

I'm feeling much better today. I'm finally over the flu symptoms.

I am writing quite a bit because there's so much on my heart that I want to say. This transgender journey is taking me to new horizons. I have a very positive feeling about where I'm going. It's exciting as a matter of fact.

Life never stands still for anyone. Changes can lead to new challenges. It can stretch us to points that we wonder if we can make it through. I want to experience the things that are waiting for me. I don't know what they are but I'll be equipped to handle them when they come.

I am a wanderer traveling along a narrow winding path. I never look back. I keep looking ahead.

I didn't feel that great over the weekend. Coming down with a cold. I have been drinking fluids and taking some medicine. I feel a little better today.

I hope to go out dressed this weekend. Going no where in particular; just walk around. Veteran's Day is coming up and I plan on going and marching as a transgender. I'm apprehensive but I look forward to it.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Happy is the T-girl who enjoys being herself.

It's been rather busy in my life. School work, unpacking, reading, writing. i'm not complaining, though.

I'm reading the Complete Stories and Poems of Edgar Allan Poe. He is one author that I admire. He was brilliant, eccentric, laconic, and accurate in his descriptions of places and events. Some day I will write a murder mystery or detective story featuring a transvestite.

I'm hopeful my financial situation will get better this month because I want to attend some TG events. Yesterday was National Coming Out Day. Next month is the Day of Rememberance and the Veterans Day Parade. I'm definitely going to attend both of these events because they are near and dear in my heart.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

All we T-girls need is a place where we can party, laugh, and enjoy who we are.

I looked for more skirts and blouses today. I'm going to hit it hard on Friday for clothes because the weather will be getting cooler. I saw some nice sweaters and a couple of dresses. My wife suggestedm that I purchase more nail polish.

As you know, I am a avid reader. The writings of Edgar Allan Poe has always intrigued me. His work is brilliant. I also like Herman Melville. I gravitate to authors who may fly under the radar. I'm also looking for more books written by transgenders.

I purchased a navy blue skirt and a red pullover. This is the start of me building up my winter wardrobe. I love wool but it's too warm and it doesn't really get that cold here. A sweater and dress is next.

I remember how I confused gender with sexuality when I was in my gender questioning stage. Now, I understand how both are part of me though different entities. I'm a heterosexual and transgender. I realized the day that I came out as a transvestite I wasn't straight. I believe that it's one reason that I don't have any stress over this issue, because it isn't an issue.

I was able to wear something femme other than panties. I wore my favorite pink top after almost a month without dressing up. I still felt femme though I didn't dress.

It was cool today so it's time to look for some sweaters and skirts. My support group is starting again this Wednesday. I hope to be out dressed more because I need to be. Right now I'm organizing my time because there's so much to do. Schoolwork, writing, job, homework, There's so much that I have to say so I'm putting things in order.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Each person has to find their own comfort zone.
When it is no longer comfortable,
it signals that a new journey lay ahead.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Unless a person is willing to make a lifestyle change, nothing will really improve their well being.

I just finished reading My Husband Betty by Helen Boyd. It's a very good read and I recommend it highly. One highpoint for me is the need for transvestites to get to know and understand the rest of the community. I have learned so much from transsexuals. I want to know about FTMs, genderqueer, leather, BDSM, and others.

I try to read at least one book per month. I'm always browsing the bookstores. St. Mark's Bookshop is one of my favorite places for out of the ordinary books and magazine. Located in the East Village, it has served the community for over thirty years. Lambda Rising is another good source. Another favorite is Ebookslib.com, an internet source that I have a quirky appeal to.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

If' you recognize a calling on your life, seek it, gather all the information you can, then follow the promptings.

I haven't posted in severals days because I moved to a new apartment. Finally got done yesterday but still have a lot of unpacking to do. I haven't dressed for several days but I'm not stressed by it. I'm still TG whether or not I'm dressed.

Once I get settled I will post more things of substance.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

LET'S LEARN ABOUT ALL THE GROUPS UNDER THE TRANSGENDER UMBRELLA

It's been a few days since I last posted. I will be moving to a new apartment on Saturday. Classes have started so I don't how frequent I will be able to blog but I'll try.

I will be dressing more after we get settled. I'm at the point now that I need to be involved with the community. Transvestites need to get their voices heard. I'm looking at the other communities for ideas and direction.

Labor Day weekend was quiet. I have been looking for more long sleeve blouses, skirts, dresses, and sweaters. Plenty of nice colors, too. There willbe plenty of places to go so i have to plan the wardrobe accordingly.

I saw the movie 'World Trade Center' today. It was a decent movie which reminded me of the events of that infamous day five years ago. Whatever your feelings about it, let's not forget those who died.

I started classes this week and I'm happy to be back. I graduate in a year. I have been writing a lot and it seems that I have much to say. It just comes out of me. It's possible that some life changing event will happen to me. What it is I don't know.

I haven't dressed all week but I will tomorrow. I take that back. I wear panties every day. I wore a bra, panties, a cami today. So I did dress. My bad. When the fall and winter sets in I will dress in primarily sweaters and skirts. For some reasons I prefer skirts over ladies pants (for now). Maybe its because I wear them as a male.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Tribulations serve to strengthen our character.

A long weekend coming up and I can't wait. I'm trying to decide how many times that I will dress up. I'm looking for clothes for the fall which is my favorite season of the year. I'm a sweater and skirt gurl. I saw some lovely long sleeve blouses and skirts at a thrift store. A winter coat is also in order. I may try some boots, too.

The summer has come and gone so fast. It was a great summer for me personally. I went out dressed many times, witnessed others transformation and maturity, and I found my comfort level as a transgender. I start class tomorrow in British literature. I have written much this year and more writing is in order. There's so much within me that needs to get out.

My nieces came up from Virginia to visit my wife and me. They stayed overnight. We ate fried chicken and macaroni and cheese, played games, and watched TV. It was fun.

On Friday evening I was out on the street dressed. I passed by a man panhandling for money. I dug into my purse and retrieved a few coins. I walked up to him and deposited them in his coffee cup.
"Thank you very much, Ma'am." I am still euphoric today about the comment. It's amazing how people perceive and react to you when I change my persona.

I will be starting classes on a few days. I can't wait. I was shopping for my fall and winter wardrobe. Saw some nice long sleeve blouses and some skirts. My first winter coat is in order, too.

I am going to see the movie 'World Trade Center' tomorrow. I'm curious to see how the people and the events are portrayed. I'm looking at the fall fashions. I'm a sweater and skirt gurl and I'm still searching that elusive black dress.



GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

TGURLS HAVE MORE FUN.

It was a muggy day today. I'm packing more stuff for the move we will make in a few weeks.

My spouse likes a lime green blouse that I purchased a month ago. It goes with my light green floral and black skirts. I'm looking for brown shoes now. I love shopping now and look at as an event. I'm planning my fall wardrobe. I love wearing sweaters and skirts.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS


STAY POSITIVE, THINK YOUNG,
DO SOMETHING FOR OTHERS.

Things have been busy. I have been writing blogs, a short story, an essay, working on a play, and reading about famed author Edgar Allan Poe. I will be writing an essay about him.

I am searching for a transgender group that I want to become involved with. There's so many of them so I'm researching some of them on the internet. I registered for three classes this fall. Two of them are writing courses. I'm looking forward to taking those classes. I have a pretty full schedule this year. I graduate next year.

Today, I'm going to pick some earrings for myself. Clip-ons will have to do until I get my ears pierced.

I really feel good today. Life has been moving along rather well. I will start college again soon, move to a new apartment, and do more writing.

I was browsing the thrift shops and department stores for a nice black blouse or top. I didn't find one that I liked. Later, I found a black button down blouse in my spouse's wardrobe. I'm going to borrow it one day soon. We share our skirts and tops. Such is the wonderful life of a transvestite.

I am happy to see more films about transgendered men and women. I would love to see a play written, produced, directed, and acted by transgenders and crossdressers.

I was out dressed in the park yesterday afternoon and early evening. I was read by a few people. Two young women in particular chatted to themselves but I know they read me. I kept on going expressing and enjoying myself.

The park is by the water and it is so serene and peaceful. Joggers, bladers, joggers, and strollers convene in the park but I felt so peaceful and content. I just sat on a bench admiring the sunset and the activity. I thought that I was going to be hit upon by a couple of gents but nothing came of it. It was a wonderful evening. I didn't feel like I dressed my best but I needed to be out there.

My urge to dress has gotten stronger as I go further on this journey. I enjoy my life as a transgender and I wonder where this journey will take me? I imagine some people will come my way because, perhaps, some one needs the encouragement to go on and be their true selves.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS


IN MY ACCEPTANCE AS A TRANSGENDER, I FOUND COMPLETENESS

I posted numerous threads on the forums that I subscribe to. I'm very happy that many of my friends are moving ahead in their lives. they, in turn, have encouraged me in my journey.

I will be moving soon (not one of my favorite activities). It's a one bedroom apartment and gas and electric are included in the rent. It's amazing how much junk you accumulate over time. My wife and I will be putting a lot of stuff in the trash.

My love for shopping has increased. I need to think about my fall wardrobe. I'm a sweater and skirt gurl so i'm seeing which are the hot fall colors this year. I'm trying to decide if I will wear boots this year. A nice car coat is a must.

THE NEW YORK INTERNATIONAL FRINGE FESTIVAL

AUGUST 11-27, 2006

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

I don't know if I will ever be a full time transvestite,
but I wonder if I could?

It was very hot today. It rained while I was at the laundry this evening. It has cooled off significantly. I have been writing much on my blogs, notebooks, and pads. I'm developing a character for the play I am writing. I am writing about a transvestite living openly in society.

I need to slow down my thoughts because I need to get them on paper. There's so much inside me that I want to say. I get those spells from time to time.

I will have information about the Fringe Festival tomorrow.

I have been a great mood the past few days. I am comfortable in my transgender status. I have been shopping and planning my winter wardrobe. My wife thinks I'm nuts but she let's me dress at home.

I'm making it a point to dress up and be out in public at least twice a week. I just have the feeling that there is some one out there that wants to dress up but may need some prodding. I would never force any one to do something against their wishes.

There are some events coming up that I hope I can attend. There's a CD club that I have attended in the past plus I have a couple of invites at a club. I have to attend to some of my personal affairs first.

I will make a few announcements of some upcoming events at a later date.

It's been warm the past few days. Suppose to be 100+ degrees tomorrow and Wednesday. Ugggh! Too hot for me.

Today, I realized how much I enjoy shopping. Perhaps its because of my transgender status that I appreciate why women like to shop. I purchased some jewelry yesterday and a green v-neck today. Tomorrow? Who knows.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

I have an easier time passing than I do
convincing others about my age.

I have been writing a lot of late. I do this when I have much inside of me that needs to be released. Much of my thinking has been from the perspective of a transgender and transvestite.

I am looking for some TG friendly establishments where I can meet other TGs. There's more out there than I thought. I have a couple of invites from some Tgirls. I'm going to get my ears pierced too.

I have always tried to dress well. Coordinating my clothing is important to being well groomed. Now I can really put to work as a transvestite. Women have it good because they have so many styles and colors to choose from.

I am looking for a black dress because I want to attend some formal events with a crossdressing I know of. I also need a new wig. I'm interested in wearing a hat, too. I have also loved hats as part of a woman's wardrobe. Some of the young women should consider wearing a hat because they would look great.

A quiet today today. Spent a few hours dressed up. I wore a turquoise top, blue foral print skirt, and blue flats. My make-up work has improved but still needs some refining. I've been battling an allergy over the past few days.

I hope to be out again this Wednesday and over the weekend. Being a transvestite seems to have made me bolder. It has carried over into other areas of my life. My wife still shakes her head. I guess she's got an unusual mate.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

There are times in our journey
when we must go by ourselves.

Only 3 days left in the FRESH FRUIT FESTIVAL!


Today I kept thinking about what I need to add to my wardrobe. I'm still in the market for a black dress. I saw three black dresses at a thrift shop yesterday. I think I'll order a new one online. Also saw some blouses and skirts that I liked.

There's so many gender expressions that I don't see how people can narrow the landscape to two genders. Just like there are many different learning styles, there are many gender expressions. Could it be that people are jealous of us?

We were in the middle of a heat wave. It's much cooler today. The other day I purchased a turquoise top at a thrift shop for two dollars. A new thrift shop opened up in my neighborhood. They have some good stuff and the prices aen't bad either.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

IF TWO OF YOU DISAGREE, TRY TO FIND
SOME COMMON GROUND.

Tomorrow I will be dressed again. It's suppose to be hot and humid so I'll dress light and cool. I will be out pretty much the whole weekend. I have to look for some tops for my wife (and me) and a pair of flats. There are a number of sales now, so I'm going to take advantage of them.

Remember the FRESH FRUIT FESTIVAL now through July 23.

I am currently reading 'My Husband Betty' by Helen Boyd. This book is written from the perspective of the wife of a crossdresser. I will give a critique of this book when I finished.

The previous book I read was Leslie Feinberg's Stone Butch Blues. I have read three of his books and this one is the best. It is packed with emotions, struggles, searching, and friendship. A very good read.

As I move ahead in my journey, no day is stagnant and neither is time. I'm making the most of my time by doing the things I must do. While the transgender experience is challenging, I choose not to wallow in the negative because it takes away the energy needed to resolve them. Obstacles will be thrown our way but it shouldn't deter from the course set for us.

Yesterday I was dressed for a few hours. I want to go clothes shopping with my wife some day. She still shakes her head but she understands why I dress.

This coming Saturday, we are spending the afternoon in the quaint north Brooklyn neighborhood of Williamsburg. The once decaying neighborhood is one of the hip spots in the city. I'd love to go there at night because there's music, shows and restaurants. We will be going to Coney Island later this summer plus attend some poetry readings and some movies.


STARTING TOMORROW

FRESH FRUIT

INTERNATIONAL FESTIVAL OF LGBT ARTS AND CULTURE

JULY 11-23, 2006

For Info: Website- www.freshfruitfestival.com

I went out dressed again last night. I wore a pink top, denim skirt and blue flats. Some people looked or stared at me but most walked by me. I just enjoyed the warm July evening and going about my business.

The Fresh Fruit Festival starts next week. It will be my first one and I look forward to attending. I love the summer because of the festivals, flea markets, and outdoor concerts and theater.

My wife knows the extent of my dressing. She purchased two bottles of nail polish for me. I going out dressed more and loving it. We need to be out there more if people are going to understand us.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

The best way to overcome fear is to face it head on.

Last night I walked around dressed as Gennee. I felt sooo empowered as I was my femme self. I wasn't afraid or fearful. It felt so natural and my feminine qualitites came out. I have to do this more often.

My spouse and I spoke at length about my dressing. I shared much with her about it and why I do it. I even showed her some of my outfits. She likes some of my articles so much that she wants to wear them. I can wear some of hers, too. I put on one of my wigs and she says that I look different.

It was a great week for me. Now that every thing is in the open, I'm free to dress up and go out without all the secrets. She can't see me dressed as a woman but she understands that it's part of me.

Enjoyed a great day in the city yesterday. It was a pleasant day to enjoy the pulse and people walking about. I even got a compliment on the blue polish on my toenails.

The deeper that I go into transgenderism, the more I wonder if there were transgenders and crossdressers in my ancestral lineage. So far, I'm the only transgendered person in my immediate family. I am currently doing some research on this.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

DRESSING UP HELPS ME TO BECOME THE WOMAN THAT I
WANT TO BE.

I have a very good idea of where I want to go as a transvestite. I'm happy with where I am so far. I intend to go out more being 'Genevieve'.

The pride weekend was good. Progress has been made but transgenders need to focus on real issues. We need to be out there more and on a consistent basis. That's my aim.

My gender is fluid once again. Crazy thoughts are filling my mind. My body wants to submit to its pleasure and sense of discovery. More adventures lie ahead in my sojourn.

I have written much over the past several weeks. Stories, blogs, essays. There's much within me that needs to get out. At times, I am afraid of making myself vulnerable; of expressing my deep feelings. This I must do because it is Genevieve who makes me a better person.

Post # 200!

I had some down time this weekend. I wanted to dress up but the time to access my goals was needed. I'm happy that I have come this far and want to move ahead. I plan on attending some social functions with other transgenders. I am comfortable dressed in public as a woman. The more that I get out the easier it will be.

My spouse and I discussed the matter of my dressing again. It was more in depth this time. She thinks crossdressing is synonomous with being gay. I explained that most transvestites are hetero and married. I'm keeping the lines of communication open. I believe that she will come to understand TG issues.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

The worlds greatest heroes are sometimes people
you will never read or hear about.

Summer is here! Very humid today. I say that after the first day of summer, it's downhill afterwards. That's because each successive day gets a little shorter.

I began working full time again. My body feels it but I'll get used to the routine in time. I miss going to my support group meetings. There's been some illness in the family but I hope to go again very soon.

Tomorrow the Trans Day of Action group will have a march and rally uptown to protest police brutality and discrimination against transgender people of color. I will be going to the rally.

Pride weekend starts tomorrw but Sunday is the big march. I hope that I can march if my schedule permits but it's not looking good. I want to march to represent transgenders and transvestites.

A friend suggested a place for Transwomen and their admirers.

The Boy's Room ( formerly Lucky Stiffs)
211 Avenue A @ 13th Street
New York, NY Weds.

I purchased a chartreuse button down blouse and light green floral skirt. I will wear them possibly as soon as tomorrow. this Saturday, I want to walk around the city dressed. I'm aware of the safety concerns but I'm not afraid.

I'm reading Leslie Feinberg's book Stone Butch Blues. It is a great novel and I recommend it for the LGBT community. I read a lot and learn much about so many things. I don't have a favorite author but read every thing from Plato to the bible to history.

This past Friday, I attended a panel discussion featuring how four women have embraced their transgendered sibling. These lovely ladies have chosen to love and encourage and support their mates and sibling. I was moved by a grandmother who has a grandson who identifies as transgender. She is working hard to understand and help the parents with the child. It is so wonderful to listen to four POSITIVE stories of trans families. They need our support.

I went to the meeting dressed. I wore a denim skirt, pink top and blue flats. A couple of my friends did not recognize me. It was the first time they saw 'Gennee'. I guess I passed. Passing is not that important to me, but I want to look my best.

One thing that really made an impression on me was the gender diversity present. MTFs, crossdressers, FTMs, gender queer, intersex, and others. I really want to meet folks from these other expressions. They are family, too.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

I would rather stand for what is right rather than what is popular.

Today, I wore a bra for the second day in a row. My breasts look like they're getting big-and I don't take hormones.

My gender has been fluid the past couple of days. I looked at myself as 'Genevieve'. I envisioned myself going through the day dressed as a woman. Shopping, riding the subway, whatever activities that I needed to do. I know that some day this is coming down the pike.

Today is Flag Day. Once again, it is a good day to remember the men and women in the military. They are our brothers and sisters.
I saw a beautiful red suit in the Roaman's catalogue today. I have to get it. There's some fine events coming up this summer and I want to dress up and go out more. Still looking for a black dress. I haven't found the style that I like.
Going to my first pride event last Saturday has made me feel proud to be a transgender person. I'm still going to try to go to the New York City Pride march.


Here are some websites worth checking out:
www.bowerypoetry.com
www.poetz.com
www.nuyorican.org
www.poetryproject.com
www.bluestockings.com

Today is my first anniversary as a transgender person. Last year I was a gender questioning middle aged man. Now I am a complete and liberated transgender transvestite. I have entered a world whose people are hated, villified and even killed. because they express themselves different from the norm.
I have met some wonderful, creative, and enlightening folks who have helped me in my journey towards self discovery. I want to help others in the same way. This past weekend's activities in Brooklyn Pride have strengthened my self esteem as a transgender.

This was the best weekend I have had as a transgender. On Friday, I attended my first LGBT film festival called Newfest. I saw two documentaries dealing with transgender women. The first film was called Sexualidad, which was 30 minute piece about transgender women in Cuba. This was the first sex education course formed there during the early stages of the AIDS epidemic. Their approach is to deal with the women as they express themselves. It is much superior to the narrow paradigm used here in America.

The main feature was called Cruel and Unusual. It was a documentary about transgender women in the prison system. The filmmakers interviewed them at various prisons around the country. Transgender women are housed with male inmates. They are subjected to harassment, rape, and physical violence by other inmates and some guards. The prison system has no clue about transgender issues. This film needs to be shown at community centers, schools, medical and law schools, prisons,and political consortums.

On Saturday I attended Brooklyn Pride which was my first pride event ever. I enjoyed myself and met a few interesting people. They was food, entertainment, information about various services. The evening concluded with the pride march. I hope to march in New York City pride if my schedule allows me.

Yesterday, I spend much of the day dressed as 'Genevieve'. I wore a skirt, sandals, and cami as I cleaned, cooked, and blogged. It was the longest that I have been dressed.

I will be attending more events this year. I want to be out more with my trans sisters. This past weekend, I felt that I was with family.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

SOCIETY HAS BEEN PROVEN WRONG ABOUT MANY THINGS.

Tomorrow, I will be seeing a documentary called 'Cruel and Unusual'. It is about trans men and women in the prison system. I will give a critique about the film next week.

I will attend the Brooklyn Pride event on Saturday. It will be a first for me. I'm hoping that I can attend the New York City pride if my schedule allows me.


REMEMBER! NEWFEST FILM FESTIVAL
thru Sunday June 11.

Next Monday will be my first anniversary as a transvestite. It has been a wonderful journey. I have found liberation and completeness. I am part of a group of people who are villified and hated by society. I am part of a people who dare to be their true selves. This is something that I am happy to be a part of.

This time last year, I was a man who was questioning his gender. I had read gay magaziness, investigated the leather scene, and watched porno movies. It still didn't feel right for me. When I got the urge to try on women's clothing, it was the start of my journey toward transgenderism. I received some counseling to help me sort out my thoughts. When I admitted that I was a transvestite, all my tensions and fears dissipated.

Today, I am comfortable with who I am. I nurture my feminine qualities, understanding what it is to be a woman in this society. I will never transition, but I feel that those who do are courageous. They hold a special place in my heart. I am equally comfortable wearing women's as I am wearing men's attire. If I had my druthers, I'd wear women's clothes all the time.

This blog was created and dedicated to my transformation. Each day is different and new. The journey continues.

I am working on my second short story about an out transvestite. I hope to put out at least a half dozen short stories by summer's end. Also hope to finish the play that I have been working on for months.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS


Now I can be the Lady in RED

As cities across the country celebrate pride month, it is time to be proud of the successes transgenders have attained. It is a time that we can educate the public about transgender issues. I have been transgendered for only a year but I'm understanding the animosity between the gay and lesbian community and the transgender community. One of the sticking points is the fact that trans people are out in the open. One doesn't has to disclose their sexual preference but our trans identity is there for all to see.
I am a crossdresser, and I plan on being out more. There are times when you have to throw caution to the wind. I know crossdressers who go out dressed and I love and admire them. They are aware of the dangers but they are living their life. The more that I go out dressed the more it will, hopefully, encourage others. It's strange but the older that I get the bolder that I have become. One reason that I want to march in the pride parade is to introduce the world to Genevieve. I believe that there will be people who will be emboldened by crossdressers being out in public.



Don' forget:
NEWFEST FILM FESTIVAL JUNE 1-11
@ AMC LOEWS THEATER
312 West 34th Street (@ 8th Avenue)
Newfest.org

I'm almost finished with a story I have been writing about an out crossdresser. It should be done by the weekend.

There are so many beautiful clothes in the stores. If I had to choose a style that I like, it would be fashions from the '40's and '50's. They really knew how to dress. I'm having quite a time looking for a nice black dress. Finding a style that I like is the most difficult part, but I will find one.

With pride month in full swing this June, I believe it is a great opportunity for trans men and women to educate the public about the issues. I will do whatever I can to help.

Don't miss it!

Newfest

New York Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual and Transgender Film Festival

June 1-11, 2006

@AMC Loews 34th Street Theater

312 West 34 Street (@ 8th Avenue)

Newfest. org

It was a quiet Memorial Day weekend. I spent time reflecting on what the day really means. I think we take for granted all the sacrifices men and women in uniform have made over the years. Now with the war in Iraq going on, I believe it the spirit is returning to Americans.
I have been writing much of late. I am writing positive stories about crossdressers living out in society. So far there are three stories on the back burner. I will post one when it is completed. I portray crossdressers as a vibrant part of our world who are being their true selves.
I will be seeing two films at the Newfest Film Festival next week. One of them named 'Cruel and Unusual' is of particular interest to the TG community. I will give a review of this film and the other one after I see them.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

It takes courage to be your real self. It takes determination
and singlemindedness to live your convictions.

I went out dressed again last night. Had a wonderful time. I wore my new high heels and they felt good on my feet. I met some new ladies and I felt more comfortable this time. It was a mild evening so we had a barbecue. There are folks from all walks of life and it's a great chance to hear what is happening in other peoples's lives. We will be going out to a restaurant in a couple of weeks, but unfortunately, I won't be able to attend because of a prior committment.

The long weekend can't come soon enough. I need a break. I hope to go to a poetry recitation or concert, I don't know which yet. I will be able to get some writing done, too.

Tonight is the big night! Will tell you how it was in the next post.

Today my feelings about transgenderism and transvestism were reinforced within me. I have written some notes, posted comments on some forums about the subject. The further that I move ahead in my journey, the more I wonder if I am fulfilling some ancient tribal prophecy. It's weird, but I must keep going forward.

I'm going out dressed tomorrow for the second time. I will be wearing HEELS! I will also be wearing a pastel yellow blouse and black print skirt. I'm trying to see if I can find a black or yellow blazer.

There's much writing that needs to be done. A short story, work on my play, my blog. Busy night ahead.

I dressed up yesterday and today while my wife was out. It was for a half hour or so yesterday. Today it was for over two hours. I was busy on the computer that I didn't notice that I was dressed. I guess it has become natural to me.

I purchased a pair of black heels today. They are two or two and a half inches high. I will be going out dressed on Wednesday. Can't wait.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

There's no such thing as a gurl having too many
pairs of shoes.

I wrote a short essay on transphobia versus differing opinions. You can read it at
www.glbtq.com under 'Trans Issues and Culture'.

I wanted to go out dressed last night but I couldn't because of other things that
needed to be done. I will be going out this coming Wednesday.

I have been looking about the pride march in June. Trying to decide whose banner to march under. I have two organization to choose from.

June will be a busy month for me. Film festival, my support group, the march. I'm excited about what's coming up.

I have been wiriting and reading more in the past few days. I am currently reading "Nectar In a Sieve" by Kamala Markandaya. I am formulating ideas for an essay about crossdressing and gender. There's so much confusion about the two.

I plan on attending the Newfest Film Festival in June. I want to check out some films about the GLBT community and transgender in particular. June will be busy month for me. I plan on marching in the pride parade. I am looking forward to it.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Know the masculine, keep to the feminine.

-Lau Tzu (570-490 BC)

I purchased a yellow blouse and black print skirt from a thrift shop today. I'm looking for a nice, lightweight blazer to pull it together. I'll have to order some shoes because my feet are big (12E). Found some nice articles at the thrift shop. They had a good selection for a change.

I will have more time to read and write about transgender and crossdressing issues. I will pass on any information I feel will help the trans community.

I will post a few sites on the blog in the next few days.

I just wish to encourage any trans person who feels lonely or is ready to give up. DONT! If you need help, get it. Go to a place where other tg"s are. I am concerned about your well being. Above all:

I LOVE YOU!

GenderEvolve: The Crossdressers' Manifesto

I attended a seminar at the community center last night. A speaker delivered a 90 minute demo about Sexual Reassignment Surgery. It was quite informative and chock full of photos of patients before and after surgery. Some of my friends from my support group were there in attendence.

It has been warm the past few days (finally) and I'm enjoying it. I want to go out dressed more often. Since Wednesday, I have been euphoric over having gone out dressed in public for the first time. I was out with the gurls!

There are a lot of us out there. The trans community is quite diverse and large. My love for the trans community knows no bounds. I pray for the day that we are recognized for being contributing citizens and not freaks.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Living and being your true self is better than being what others think you should be.

I DID IT! Last night, I went out dressed in public for the first time. I was so calm and felt so feminine. I walked along the street and no one paid attention to me. It was so wonderful being with other gurls who want to express themselves. We had a barbecue and shared our experiences. I look forward to going out dressed again. We will be going to a restaurant next time.

I just realized that this is my first spring as a crossdresser. A year ago I never even gave crossdressing a thought. Much has happened in the past year. I have met so many wonderful gurls and love to be with them. I can never go back to the places that I have passed through. I must stay the course. I'm not afraid about what may lie ahead. I just need to find out where I can best help my trans sisters. they have helped me so much.

I tried on the high heels that I purchased. I really have to get used to wearing them. Only wore them for about five minutes and I feel it in my legs. I'm going to look for another wig tomorrow for Wednesday night when I go out.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS



THE GURL WITHIN IS READY TO BLOOM!

I purchased my first pair of high heels today. I will have to get used to wearing them. This will be interesting. I may have a chance to look for some blouses tomorrow. My SO has some blouses that she hardly wears. Maybe she'll give them to me (I hope, I hope).

I am getting to the point where I would rather dress en femme. I feel so much more feminine and I want to express it more often. There so much I want to share and express to others.

Next Wednesday will be my big day. I will be going out dressed in public for the very first time. I don't know what to think except that I am looking forward to it.

I am looking for a trans conference to attend. SOUTHERN COMFORT in Atlanta is a good one, I hear. More and more transgenders are making their mark in the arts and in political circles. It's nice to see that we are slowly being recognized for our talents and gifts. Gender has nothing to do with what we have to offer society.

Leslie Feinberg, a transgender activist, spoke at Barnes and Noble here in the city. I wanted to attend but was unable to.

I hope to go out publicly for the the first time either this week or next week. I have my outfit in my mind that I want to wear. Either a denim skirt and top or a dress.

I am at the community center almost daily. Last Thursday or Friday I noticed a man standing across the street. He looked like we wanted to go in. I was hoping that he would take that step, but he continue onto his destination. I wonder how many men and women pass by the center and are dying to enter through those doors. For some reason, either out of fearof being found out, shame, or guilt they let another opportunity pass by. I wish that I could take them by the hand and lead them in. They don't have to feel isolated and alone.

Now that my support group is on hiatus, I have the opprtunity to explore some of the other trans events at the center. Some day I am going to go in as Gennee. That will be a highlight for me in that I am willing to put myself out there.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

In the process of projecting outer beauty, let us work cultivate the inner beauty within.

I traveled to New Jersey yesterday to take care of some business. I observed all the women coming and going through the train station. I noticed what they were wearing, how they walked, how they gestured. Sandals and open toe shoes were the order of the day since it was over 80 degrees. I could have stayed there all day. I probably would have walked and acted like a woman when I got done. Clothing was bright and interesting. I loved the white skirts and colorful tops I saw.

It was a busy day at work. I went outside to take care of some vending machines. I wore pink panties and bra under my work clothes. I had a chance to browse around in the mall afterwards. I saw so many beautiful ladies tops and pants. I felt so feminine, as if I was actually purchasing all the articles I saw. Ladies, you don't know how good you have it.
I looked for some shoes but couldn't find anything I liked. I'll try again tomorrow.

I awakened this morning feeling more feminine than I since my early days of gender questioning. Genevieve was in bloom. I felt as if I should be this dynamic person going through life with joy and purpose. A helping hand to someone in distress; a listening ear to a troubled soul. I see this beautiful woman making a difference with people around her.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

The security of the present must be forsaken to venture into the future.

This coming Wednesday will be the last group support meeting for this session. It has been better than the first session that I attended. A few people bared their souls. The last couple of meetings have been testy but timely. I have gotten to know a few of my tran-sisters better. Can't wait until the session starts in June.D
If you want to go somewhere to let loose, I suggest 'Lips' (www.lipsnyc.com). Dinner is served by crossdressing waitresses who will entertain you. There are also shows and performances.

I have been checking out the fashions for this season. White pants and peasants skirts are in. I prefer a white skirt with a pastel top. White and black are really a great combo. I have seen some crossdressers dress better than a lot of women.
I will be posting some places where crossdressers, transsexuals, transgenderists, and transvestites can go in a few days. There's more out there than you think. I just have to get my list in order.

I worked some more on my play. Still haven't thought of a title for it. One will possibly come to mind when I complete writing it. There's precious little art and movies which portray transgenders in a positive light. I think the movie 'Transameica' was a decent start but more is needed. I have principally crossdressers and transvestites in mind.
I have been reading much about the progress the transgender community is making in regards to civil rights. It's been painfully slow but activists are scoring a few victories.
The senseless deaths of so many transgenders is a topic that really grabs me. When I read about the viciousness of these crimes it makes me want to weep. I'm not sure in what capacity that I will be involved with this but I believe that I will be a part of it. People need to be educated about transgender issues and especially the wide range of gender expression.

I purchased a whie on Friday as I continue to build my wardrobe. The weather was great, too. I dined at a sidewalk cafe on Second Avenue. I have always loed side walk resaurants. There's something romantic about them.
Saturday was rainy and cold so I stayed and worked on the internet. Chatted with my friends on the chat line. I read some and wrote some. I have come up with a few ideas for the play that I am writing.
Though I get no support from SO, I'm still positive and hope one day she will understand. She dooesn't prevent me from dressing. I will have to show her wha crossdressing is all about.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

I'm getting better with age. I may have started late, but better late than never.

I envision the day when I will go out dressed in public without a care in the world. There are so many pretty clothes out there. Wish I had a million dollars so I can purchase the things that I want.

Currently, I am reading Ayn Rand's book "Atlas Shrugged". I am an avid reader as I try to read at least one book per month. It's a habit I have had since grade school.

I will be posting in the coming days places where TG/TS/TV/CD events are happening.

It was a warm, pleasant weekend. Rather nice for the Northeast this time of year. Hung out in New York City on Saturday window shopping. I walked a lot and the exercise was good.

I found transgender music at the Virgin Superstore. The group is 'Antony and the Johnsons'. I'm picking up a cd on Friday. I'm surfing the internet for more transgendered musicians. I would like to find some jazz musicians.

I'm looking for a black skirt and black shoes. I need flats and heels (about 3 inches maximum). I have to get used to wearing them. I will look at the Kmart on Friday for the skirts. My spouse and I window shopped at Lane Bryant's yesterday. She saw a couple of outfits that she liked.
They would look good on me, too.

My wife shook her head when after I painted my toenails. We have a ways to go before she accepts my dressing.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

OPEN DIALOGUE IS BETTER THAN SILENT SUFFERING

I went out shopping yesterday. I purchased a pink top, a denim skirt, and blue flats. It may not sound like much, but to me it was heaven! Though dressed in drab I felt so feminine, knowing how women feel when they shop. They have so many more choices. Can't wait for my next foray. I want to go out dressed, too.

Still working on my play. I have gotten some ideas from some folks. As I become more involved with transgender issues, I am learning what trans people feel and believe. As I grow in my own transgenderism, I look to make the characters in the play human and caring.

In the next few weeks, I will be posting events where transgenders can get together for fun and entertainment.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

ONCE YOU ARE OUT OF THE CLOSET, STAY OUT!

Today, I went out looking for some shoes. I'll have to order them online because my size (12e) is diificult to find. I need a size 14 in womens size. I shopped for some skirts and dresses. I may purchase something tomorrow.

Now that I'm out to my spouse, I'm going to be the best crossdresser that I can be. I hope some day that she will see that this is a part of me. It will take time.

I'm seeking to attend more transgendered and CD events. I want to meet more people like myself. I count some in my support group as friends. The chat lines are a gold mine of info and people who are like me. I am not alone.

My wife now knows that I am a crossdresser. I told her after she found my panties. She reacted calmly but I'm not sure if she approves. I professed my love to her and that this is a part of me.
It will take time for us to sort it out. I need to show her other things about crossdressing and transgender issues. I'm calm about it and now someone else knows. I was going o tell her in the future, but the future arrived a lot sooner than I expected. The point is that there's nothing to hide anymore. I never felt ashamed about being a crossdresser before and I don't now.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

DOWN DAYS CAN BE AN OPPORTUNITY TO REFOCUS AND REASSESS OUR GOALS.

The writing is coming along. I'm trying to find my transgender voice. There are many positive stories of and by transgenders and that is what I want to accentuate.

I will be shopping for clothes sometime next week. Shoes will be tough because I have wide feet. A red dress is my top priority. I also need a black one, too. The spring fashions are out now. Teal, apple green, and orange seem to be hot colors. I like teal on myself.

I keep learning so much about transgender that I am seeking to become more involved with the community. I love to hang around the center. It's too bad that this is one of the few places that transgender men and women feel safe. I love listening to people talk about their progress. Some day we will have our rights.

Life has been good. I have been dressing more and feeling good about it. So far, it has been a wonderful journey and I have loved every moment. I have been looking for more TG music and films. I have become interested in others experiences. I listened to some music by transgenders and I enjoyed it. It's hard to find but I'm searching. There are a couple of queer film fests here that I plan to attend. The Newfest Film Festival is popular here in New York. It begins in June.

The play that I am writing has progressed some. I did some writing yesterday and Saturday. Still don't have a title but that will come.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

BE BOLD; BE DARING; ENJOY LIFE; AND MOST OF ALL LOVE YOURSELF FOR WHO YOU ARE!

My playwriting is going slow, but it's going. I want to portray transgenders in a positive light to show that we are real people who want to live our lives without fear of violence and harassment.

The more that I understand about being transgendered, the more I want to be involved in the community. There are too many things on my plate right now, but just getting to know my trans brother and sisters is a wonderful experience.