A couple of weeks ago, we have a lesson on the seventh chapter of Matthew. We studied the whole chapter. Verses 13 and 14 have stuck in my mind.
Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it.Matt. 7:13-14
These verses remind of the road that I trod on when I was coming to terms about my gender issues. Prior to 2000 I was traveling the same road as everybody else. Then suddenly I was nudged along to travel another path. No one else could do this for me. The trek was lonely, winding, challenging at times, and never ending. I was encountering new experiences. The further I traveled the more that life was becoming clearer. If I continued walking on the broad road, I would have been miserable. I was a mess internally and emotionally.
As the journey continued there were roads crossed, new discoveries, and more joy as I embraced what came my way. The biggest trial came this past May. The road become narrower and I hesitated. I could turn back but that wasn't a viable option. Finally, I did continue trekking on a narrower road. What happened was my migration from a crossdresser to a transsexual. I have never been happier in my life.
I am writing this piece in more detail for an online magazine. I will let you know when it is published.
I listened to a message by Sister Paula (www.sisterpaula.org) today. She read from an article by John Shelby Spong, a retired Episcopal bishop. I recommend that you listen to her latest podcast in its entirety.
In the article Sister Paula read, she quoted from him that justice postponed is justice denied. Pondering over the words, it shows the fallacy of incrememental justice. THis logic is used against blacks, women, Hispanics , Native Americans, Asians and GLBT men and women. Sadly this institutional church has fomented much of the bigotry against GLBT people. What Bishop Spong mentioned that he wasn't going to argue any more with bigoted 'preachers' who actions do not demonstrate the love of Jesus.
Bishop Spong's words remind me of a quote in scripture 'don't throw pearls to swine'. It reminds me that it's a waste of time to educate folks that aren't going to change. I'd rather speak with folks who may not know about transgender people or issues. There are many who do not understand what gay and lesbian people have to put up with. As I see it, I need to be careful not waste my time talking to the wall.
At present, I am preparing my goals for this year. So far I have two. I need to think out some more. I have felt the need to be more involved in the transgender community so I am seeking a group to volunteer with. My feeling is that this is a pivotal year for important legislation and for trans people to make their presence felt.
I am looking forward to attending a couple of conferences this year. I want to hear some other speakers and meet other transgender people. Even as I sit writing this blog, I can feel some changes going on within me. I'm not sure where the road leads next but I'll just take it a step at a time.