Friday, August 27, 2010


If I had no choice about the age in which I was to live,
I nevertheless have a choice about the attitude I take
and about the way and the extent of my participation
in its living ongoing events.

~Thomas Merton

Saturday, August 21, 2010

Transition Of the Mind

Today, I was at the laudromat doing the wash. While my clothes were spinning around in the machines I sat down at the table, notebook and pen in hand. I was about to write a short story about a man in search of his identity. However, when I tried to put words to paper I discovered that I could only present stories from the perspective of my transgender identity. It seems that another part of my transition had taken place. This one was between the ears.

I understand much more about the masculine and feminine mind. I'm no expert but much of what I'm discovering lines up with what I've felt all along. My transition is much deeper than I ever imaged. I feel a connection with the struggles of women, especially women of color. I also see that I must carry myself with dignity and self-respect. I'm thankful for parents who taught me that at a young age.

I can safely say now that I'm out on the sea of transition, not always knowing where I'm going but continue on I must.


Friday, August 20, 2010


Before convincing others to accept themselves, we must accept ourselves.


Thursday, August 19, 2010

Lately, I have been reading much about happenings in the LGBT community.
There are some things that I feel very strong about. I will comment on them
when I am through reading about them and doing some research.

Four subjects near and dear to me are marriage, adoption, procreation, and the church.
I cannot sit here and let hatred and vitriole be spewed on us by those who choose to
demean us. Those who call themselves "Christians" and do this should repent and confess
to God the errors of their thinking and ways. Too many LGBT people are hurting and dying
because of all this. I have become more active in letting opponents know that we are here to

This is pretty strong coming from me because normally I'm quiet and reserved. I could go
strealth or be anonymous but to me that is not an option. Too many people's lives are at


Friday, August 13, 2010


There's a compeling reason why we travel down certain roads. We may
not always see what's ahead but what hapeens will impact our lives in some way.



I'm sure some of you may have noticed my fascination with trails. Even as a young boy I always wondered where a trail would lead. As we go back over our lives we can see that we have walked along many trails.
No matter how far we have traveled there are still many trails we will cross eventually. What I've discovered is how different each trail is. Yes, there are similarities but there certainly are differences. Life is like that in that we may walk along a trail that we never expected to. I beleive that the creator designed it that way because there are lessons still to be learned.
I remember someone describing me as a seeker. My thirst for knowledge and discovery is endless. Trails always lead to somewhere and that is how life is. I have come to particular spots and rested a while. When the time has come for me to journey, I picked up and moved along. I know that this is not my design because I wouldn't know which way to go or what is looming on the horizon. One thing I do know is that God is with me every step of the way.

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Still There

My feelings have settled down but they are still here. I'm taking everything one moment at a time. Last night, the thought came to me that if this goes any further I will need to tell my spouse. I'm waiting until there is clarity as to which direction I'm headed in. I'm pleased that this has not been a stressful experience. I have enough on my plate already.


Friday, August 06, 2010


Living in a box is stunting and boring. A bird never learns to
fly by hanging around the nest.


Wednesday, August 04, 2010

Mid Week Inspiration

Many precious gems have been discovered in the midst of rubble and ruin.