Transition And Journeys

When I was alone with my thoughts the other day, it dawned on me that I have journeyed many, many miles. My transition reminds me of the sojourner out on the road with his backpack and a walking stick. He doesn't know where he is going but is compelled to continue on. 

I'm not lost or restless-I am a seeker. Always have been. I've never been afraid of the unknown-it's what to do when I get there. Looking at my life, I go to a place, stay awhile, then move on. Have a sense of knowing when my time there is over. What's different about transition that one never knows when the journey will end. In a sense, I find it welcoming. 

I know that I cannot go back because I've crossed the Jordan River. I will be doing some traveling later this year. I will be presenting in venues out of the city and state. It's no telling where the journey will take me but I'm looking forward to it.  

TRAILS

I'm sure some of you may have noticed my fascination with trails. Even as a young boy I always wondered where a trail would lead. As we go back over our lives we can see that we have walked along many trails.

No matter how far we have traveled there are still many trails we will cross eventually. What I've discovered is how different each trail is. Yes, there are similarities but there certainly are differences. Life is like that in that we may walk along a trail that we never expected to. I beleive that the creator designed it that way because there are lessons still to be learned.

I remember someone describing me as a seeker. My thirst for knowledge and discovery is endless. Trails always lead to somewhere and that is how life is. I have come to particular spots and rested a while. When the time has come for me to journey, I picked up and moved along. I know that this is not my design because I wouldn't know which way to go or what is looming on the horizon. One thing I do know is that God is with me every step of the way.

~Genevieve

SEEKER

I have been reading and writing a lot. I am presently reading an excellent book 'Thomas Merton: My Brother'. I have fallen in love with this man's work. His books have expanded my horizons because I'm a seeker. Merton (1915-1968) was a seeker. He was a man who was in tune with the issues of his day. Some may dismiss Thomas Merton because of his religious zeal. His was a quest for God and a deep concern for his fellow man.

I am seeking to integrate what I am learning with the transgender issues that concern me. Merton 's thoughts and ideas are relative today. In my opinion, Thomas Merton would be grieved by the bigotry and prejudice by society against transgender and gender variant people.I go through those periods where I come upon another road and decide whether or not to cross it. It seems that I'm gently nudged in this direction. There's no fear or trepidation because I have an inner peace about where things are headed. At this point I'm wondering if the future involves working with transgender people wihich I would certainly love to do.

I have been out more as a transgender woman. It has nothing to do with telling everyone I'm trans but my being out in public expressing who I am. Action does speak louder and this is something that I believe I need to do. I crossed a huge threshhold two weeks ago walking through my neighborhood wearing women's clothing. Two years ago I was apprehensive. Now it's no sweat. I have shared some of what is happening in my life. There's so much going on inside that it would take many blogs to comment. The journey will continue.

Genevieve