Friday, December 28, 2007


Being who you are is more important than what others may think or say.
Be proud of who you are, and help someone else along the way.

Friday, December 21, 2007


Invite some to your home or visit someone who may be lonely or depressed. Bring joy into someone else's life.

Hospitality was one of the virtues my late mother possessed. If she knew someone who did not have any family nearby or lived alone, she would invite them over to her place. From what she told me, the person who comment to her days later that it was the best day they have in some time.
When I thought about this, I wonder how many trans people feel isolated, depressed, or lonely. Perhaps the holidays dredge up many sad memories of the past. I look at the holiday season as a time of reflection. It is a time to be thankful that God has let me see another year. It's a time to be thankful for the good things that has happened. Perhaps, we can share that goodness with someone who may feel that they aren't appreciated for who they are.
As we reflect on the season, let each one of us bring joy to someone who may need it. Invite them to dinner, give a small gift, and share what you have. To me bringing joy to another life is the best Christmas present I can give.


Thursday, December 20, 2007

I'm finished with classes for my last semester. I graduate in May with my Bachelor's degree in education. I will be tutoring adults in an adult education class while I study for the exam for certification. I will be moving onto to graduate school in the fall for my Master's degree in education.
Sometime in the future I will pursue a master's in Gender Studies. As a future educator, the needs of LGBT students will have to be addressed in our educational institutions. Teachers will need to know how to address and relate to students whose gender does not conform to the rigid binary that is enforced, directly and indirectly. I will have to take a more open stance on these matters because it affects many people. Fellow teachers, administrators, parents, and school districts will have to see that we are here to stay. LGBT students deserve the same opportunity and quality education as anyone else with out worrying about being bullied or harassed or ignored.
Sometimes a person may have to go against the grain of conventional thought. I have in an indirect and quiet way. I know that some day I will have to do this in the public sector and I am willing to do it. Doing what is right is more important to me than what is convenient or the'norm'. History reflects this over and over. I am long past the point of what the greater society thinks about me and my gender expression.

Friday, December 07, 2007


Being a faithful friend is more valuable than silver and gold.

Saturday, December 01, 2007

Another year is almost over. As I reminisce, there have beeen many changes in my life. The changes have been so subtle that I don't even notice it. Each time I attend a trans events it reveals to me that I am a different than I was a few months earlier.
The fact that I'm not afraid was evident when I started dressing. When I threw caution to the wind, it was I saying to the world, "This is me!" I am content being transgender and transvestite and don't feel any shame or guilt about it. My desire for my trans brothers and trans sisters is to see them overcome all the shame others have fostered on us because of our identity. Nobody should be made to feel ashamed of who they are.
One other fact is that I want to share my story with others. We need to tell our own stories and let people know that we are productive, loving, and caring people. One positive sign is the openness among young about LGBT issues. So day I would love to speak to a group of people and share why I am who I am.

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

Last night I attended transgender Day of Remembrance vigil and celbration. About 150 people gathered at the community center. The group gathered outside for the march carrying candles, flashlights and posters. One of the posters read 'Transphobia Is Un-Acceptable'. We marched a half block to the park where we joined hands in a circle and prayed. Later we marched one square block and back to the center.

Speeches were spoken and acknowledgements given to numerous trans organizations. Several people to friends and family lost to anti-trans violence and AIDS. a young man cited two murdered transgender people who cases are still unsolved after a decade. A tribute that touched my heart was from a woman whose trans brother went to Chicago-never to be heard from again.

I surveyed the room as we enjoyed a luscious meal. there were transmen, transwomen, genderqueer, gay, straight, lesbianand others. I met a couple of transwomen that I knew. I met a transman form one of my forums who transsitioned earlier this year. He realy looked great!

I wondered earlier how I would react because the Day of Remembrance is one event that really touches me. People are killed senselessly because they are being themselves. Instead I was encouraged by all the people and it gave me comfort that the community is strong and growing.

There was a 'Tree of Remembrance' on the side. In the programs we were given were different colored leaves cut out of construction paper. Each person was encouraged to write the name of a person who has gone on. I didn't know anyone who died from anti-transgender violence but put down the names of two transgender women I had read about. One was Rita Hester, a transgender woman who was stabbed repeatedly. the other woman was Tyra Hunter, a transwoman who was injured in an accident. Upon discovering that she was genetically a male, Tyra was not treated and died from her injuries. This case makes my blood boil.

On the the leaf that I had, I wrote this tribute to Rita and Tyra:
Rita Hester and Tyra Hunter,
I never knew you,
nor had I met you,
but I grieve for you.
I love you
and promise you
that your passing will not be in vain.

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

This past Sunday, I marched in the Veteran's Day parade. It was the second consecutive year of doing so. I wore a blue skirt, red pullover, and blue flats. I had to bundle up because of the cold.

I was interviewed by graduate students from local colleges about what it means to be transgender and a veteran. I stressed that transpeople should be allowed to serve. I also mentioned that throughout history transpeople answered their country's call. Younger people seem to be more open LGBT people.

One reason that I march is that there are transgender veterans who, for their own reasons, cannot. I believe that by my marching I represent transpeople.

When we marched up the avenue the crowds of people cheered us, thanking us for our service. It didn't matter what sexual/gender orientation we are. I am happy that people still feel strongly about our servicemen and servicewomen.I helped carry the banner for our group, American Veterans for Equal Rights. I kept blowing in my hand to keep from getting frostbite. If it's this cold next year, I'll remember to wear gloves.

Friday, November 09, 2007


There should be contentment and inner peace in my heart
before I can accept others as they are.

Thursday, November 08, 2007

As I attend more trans events the more change that I see in myself. This journey is subtle yet ongoing. Recently I watched a film called 'Transgender Basics' . It discussed the difference between sex and gender. It also talked about various expressions of gender such as genderqueer, transgender woman and trans man. While labels are useful for helping a person find a group they fit in, it should not define who we are. We are more than just the gender we express.

Thursday, November 01, 2007

My next project is an in-depth study about transgender, crossdressing and the bible. A bible verse that stirs up much controversy on this issue is Deuteronomy 22:5 in the Old Testament. As a follower of Jesus Christ , my desire is to clear up as best as I can with God's help the myths and misconceptions about transgender people. This is one of the more ambitious projects that I'm doing.

Monday, October 29, 2007

Yesterday, I was in Greenwich Village walking in the gay district. I went looking for some stickers representing transgender people. I found one store but they were all out of them. As I strolled along the street, I recognized how happy I am to be transgendered. I am also a crossdresser who prefers transvestite.

When I was at home later in the evening, I thought about how transgender and gender variant people are unwelcome even in the GLB community. We're laughed at, scorned, an eyesore to so called respectable people. Being in the minority is nothing new with me. I am African-American, part Native American, a born again Christian ( the genuine followers of Christ are severely persecuted in many countries), and transgender.

I maintain that we put into question society's idea of male and female. It makes people question what it is to be masculine and feminine. In the GLB community it is, in my opinion, it throws ice cold water on the super male and super female phenomena so often put forth. I am not against GLB at all. It is a fact in some circles. As a minority, I know what prjudice and discrimination is first hand.

The fact that I am a crossdresser throws another angle into this debate. We're labeled as confused and not being able to decide which way we wished to go. We're ' tweeners so to speak. To some transsexuals, crossdressers are 'fake' women who can't decide whether or not to transition. Each person has their own reasons for doing what they do. I feel a kinship to those who are or have transtioned. My only concern is that the person is very, very sure that this what they want to do.

Another reason I believe that transgender and gender variant people are reviled is that we transgress the gender binary of male and female. One does not have to reveal their sexuality but gender identity is something that is out there in public. As an African-American, I wear my identity. When I go out in public as a woman, I am presenting my feminine side. I am not ashamed of my ethnicity or my gender status.

A second point to remember that it was transgender people who got the modern gay rights movement rolling. Trangsender and crossdressers have been at the forefront of many social movements. Leslie Feinberg's book Transgender Warriors states that historical fact. The Compton Cafeteria riots and the Stonewall Rebellion were begun when transgender, crossdressers and drag queens rebelled against police harassment. They had nothing to lose by do this. Sadly one of my heroes, Sylvia Rivera, is given scant mention of her role in the Stonewall Rebellion. To her dying day she chastised GLB for their unfair treatment of transgender people.

Seeing things now, I and others like myself will continue to work for transgender equality. I will continue to be proud of my ethnic and transgender heritage. In the end, I pray that the GLB communities who dislike us will see that we need each other.

Friday, October 26, 2007


Keep working for the things that you believe in.

Thursday, October 25, 2007

I will be adding some new things to the blog. Poetry, articles, essays, news, and places to go are some things I am considering. I will still be posting about my journey and 'Genevieve's Gems'. There's so much happening regarding transgender and gender variant people and I want to keep you informed.

I attended a meeting on Tuesday wearing a black skirt, heels, and purple sweater. One person did not recognize me. He said that I looked wonderful. I felt good and buoyed by the fact that my appearance is gettting better. My make up and and nail polishing have improved. I purchased two necklace sets and threee bottles of nail polish (black, gray sparkle and grape). I have the grape on now.

I will be out again Saturday afternoon. I have been participating in an on going survey. I really love to tell about my experience as a male to female crossdresser and transgender. I just pray that others will be encouraged.

Friday, October 19, 2007


There is nothing on this earth more to be prized than true friendship.

-Saint Thomas Aquinas, Italian Theologian (1225-1274)

Thursday, October 18, 2007

Friday, October 12, 2007


Just because something is never discussed or talked about
does not mean that it never happened or does not exist.

Monday, October 08, 2007

I have been writing in my journals about life as a transgender and some thoughts about what is happening with transgenders a a whole. I am considering for the future a book of essays about what life as a transgender is and the many changes that happen. I look at many things from a transgender perspective, though I am interested in many things.

To me, transgender is more than wearing the opposite sex's clothing and adopting the mannerisms. This is just me. Everybody has their own reasons and I do respect that. I sensed that my being transgender and a transvestite would take me deeper and deeper into the forest. I always want to learn something new and different and sometimes one has to be willing to take the plunge. Life doesn't stand still because we think it should. I take each day and each experience as it comes. I learn more about fellow sisters and brothers and about myself.

My desire is to contribute to the LGBT community. Transgender and gender variant people need to feel that they are valued and appreciated. As a senior (if you consider 59 to be senior), I want to add more to those of us who are aging. Haven't figure it out yet but I'm looking in a few things. One goal I have is to write a play or short about transgender and gender variant people who are in their sixties and older.

Saturday, October 06, 2007

There is a fine movie playing the Quad Cinema called 'The Bible Tells Me So'.

Friday, October 05, 2007


Unconditional love means that! Unconditonal, no strings attached.

Friday, September 28, 2007



-Oscar Wilde, Irish Dramatist (1854-1900)

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

Last night I wore a new wig for the first time. I guess I must have passed pretty well because
a man started talking with me while I browsed through some books at the center. He complimented me on how nice my hands looked and that I was a lovely woman. He was the second person that said that about me. He asked if I was headed anywhere? I replied that I had a dinner date with friends (which I did). I believe that this man wanted to date me. While I'm not interested in sex, I am appreciative of the compliments. I have worked hard to make myself presentable as a crossdresser and I have had no trouble so far.

Monday, September 24, 2007

Now that fall has come, I can now work on my fall wardrobe. Purple and grey are the colors for the season. I recently purchased a new wig and I need another pair of shoes.

Hopefully, I can go out to more social events. I just have to pick my spots. I have a full load of classes and have had to organize my time. I have to have a little fun.

Friday, September 21, 2007



Wednesday, September 19, 2007

Understanding what another group of people are about takes courage and discernment. Dropping all preconceived notions can be stumbling block for any positive communication. Last Tuesday, I attended the bi monthly LGBT Christian fellowship. My love for gay and lesbian people bloomed.

Friday, September 14, 2007



Wednesday, September 12, 2007

Last night, I attend our bi monthly bible study. We had ten people in attendance. It was great seeing some new faces. I met for the first time someone who has attended in the past. It's amazing the love for God that my gay friends have. I am the only transgender among the group but I have a much better understanding of gay and lesbian people and issues involved. A young lesbian lady was in attendance, also.

In the past months my love for the gay and lesbian communities has grown along with my heart for transgender people. It's not so much for the issues that we know about, but they are loving and caring people who have come to terms with their sexuality. Just as I have come to terms with my gender expression and identity, they need to be respected and loved and accepted. Gay and transgender issues are closely tied to each other though there are some who think that they are not.

I have seen some changes in some of our social institutions regarding LGBT people. It's happening in the workforce, businesses, schools, prisons, churches, colleges,universtites, and in the political arena. People are asking questions and seeking answers because LGBT people are a visible force to be dealt with. My hope is that non LGBT people can be more educated and less phobic about us. I would love to sit down with someone and share with them why I crossdress. I would love to share with others that I am comfortable with who I am.

A question I often ask is what would non LGBT people do if they discovered that a relative or family member is gay, or lesbian, or transgender, or bisexual. What would they do if a member of their family likes to crossdress? Would they still love that person? It's something to think about.

Friday, September 07, 2007


Stand up and be proud of who you are.

Thursday, September 06, 2007

I was able to share my crossdressing life with my son. He knew anyway but I still wanted to share it with him. He's pretty cool about it. He's says tht it's my thing and he's okay with it.

Now that summer is officially over, I can plan my fall wardrobe. Autumn is my favorite season because I like to wear skirts, sweaters. long blouse blouses, suits, and dresses. I enjoy the summer but the fall is my time to shine.

I'm hoping to add more insightful articles to the blogsite. Much is happening with transgenders and the gender variant and it's important to stay informed.

Friday, August 31, 2007


Progressive people are able to acknowledge and learn

from their mistakes, then move forward.

Monday, August 27, 2007

I was laid off from my job last Friday. I will get severance pay plus my last check. I expected it because there is no work. It was time for me to move on. I am applying for unemployment benefits. I start classes on Wednesday and I am able to take some courses in the daytime. The time off allows me to do some of the things that I really want to do.

I know that there's a job out there for me in God's time. I'm not stressed at all. I was unemployed once before twelve years ago and God saw us through. He willdo so once again.

I have been doing much writing and reading about a number of subjects. Presently, I'm reading about the Christian mystics and how they sought to be in tune with God. I am also reading much about transgender issues and how I can best serve the community. I see a parallell between what the Christian mystics were seeking and what transgender and gender variant people go through. I'm certainly not comparing our situation to these wonderful, blessed men and women, but the parallel is there. They were misunderstood, hated by the authorities for the most part (particularly in the Dark Ages), and the victims of society's mission to control what a person is suppose to be. Somewhere there is something bubbling within me that will come out on the written page.

I will have the opportunity to be with the family, and explore my gender expression in greater depth. There's something about to happen there pretty soon.

Friday, August 24, 2007


It's not how long we live, it's what we accomplish while living.

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

As you can see writing is one of my passions. Lately I have been writing more from observation and personal experience. I have been sharing more about myself experience as a transgender in depth. Granted I don't have much experience or background as a transgender but there have certainly been numerous emotional changes which I'm sure many transgenders have experienced.

I am a latecomer to transgender and I'm sure there are many others who've had experiences similar to mine. I find that this journey is continual and far reaching. It touches everthing about us; our emotions, families, sense of being, and how we perceive ourselves,how greater society view us, and how we are to live our lives.

I look at life and see all the possibilities we all have. As transgender and gender variant people we offer much to society with our talents, skills, and unique perspectives about life. Life is more than living in some neat compartment because as we know it is not that way at all. To tell you the truth, I'm happy it's not that way at all.

Part of creative living is being willing and able to take risks. To take a chance on something or someone few think is worth the effort. Out of such efforts have sprung the Martin Luther Kings, Henry Fords, Jesus, Joan of Arcs, and others who saw beyond where they were living. That's the kind of life I desire to live.

Thursday, August 16, 2007

I have been doing some writing over the past several days. I am a member of different forums on the internet. There is a very wide range of opinions and experiences about being transgender. Some is good, some not so good, and others the struggle to understand what they are going through. The best thing that I can do is try and understand and share in their triumphs and trials.

I never experienced some of the things that many have. Abuse, bigotry, being shamed and disparaged for being who I am and yet I am transgender. I never struggled with gender nor had the desire to crossdress but I am a crossdresser. I haven't been hurt, or disparaged, or in the wrong body, and yet I am a member of the transgender umbrella. Life has many twists and turns. It's what we do then those unexpected changes happen.

I don't regret anything that has happened. I embrace it. There are so many ways to minister to my transgender sisters and brothers. I'm concerned with their spiritual lives. Many have been hurt and need inner healing. They need to know that God loves them and cares what happens to them.

I was reading Saint Paul's epistle to the Corinthians how he became one of them in order to win them to Jesus. He didn't partake in a lot of their activities but he became part of them. In a sense that may be my mission; to win some over to Christ. I pray that many will be drawn to Jesus' healing and saving grace and mercy.

Friday, August 10, 2007


We are not second-class citizens! We are created by God, beautifully and wonderfully made.

Thursday, August 09, 2007

Today's another lovely day. With each passing day the thought of being able to express both sides of me is exhilerating and liberating.

Lately, I have been wondering that in the future I would like to live at least part time as a woman. I have mentioned this in the past, but now this is something that I'm seriously considering. I would love to live full time but I have family obligations. No, I'm not going to transition but being a transvestite is something I believe is inheritant in my nature now.

Monday, August 06, 2007

My wife and I celebrated our birthdays this past Saturday (Aug. 4th). The same day! We went out to dinner and enjoy a luscous meal of onions, chicken, yellow rice, steak, and ribs. We washed it down with pina coladas (non-alcoholic). I gave Louise a couple of pullovers (pink, white). She gave me a journal which I love. She knows I love to write.

I finished reading a book called Coming Out In Christianity. There is much debate on whether the Christian should embrace LGBT people in their congregations and pastorates. I have my thoughts on the subject which I will write about in another blog. It's has been running through my brain the past few days.

I didn't dress at all last week (too hot nad very humid). I did get to do it indoors though. There's plenty of sales going on and I hope to take advantage of them.

Friday, August 03, 2007


You must love and accept yourself first before you expect others to love and accept you.

Tuesday, July 31, 2007

It's a beautiful day. A lot less humid. Enjoying writing and reading about crossdressing and transgender issues. I see myself being even more involved in the future. I also see myself making some life style changes though, at this point, I dont know what they will be.

Saturday, July 28, 2007


There comes a time when you have to stand up for what you believe.
Never let anybody put back in the closet you worked so hard to come
out of.

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

The past few days have been busy. I working on starting a business. Jewelry will be the specialty. I sold much of it when I was a street vender. I gained valuable knowledge about jewelry from other vendors and from Home Shopping Network.

I dressed this past Saturday and Sunday. I will be out again on Saturday perhaps. I will dress again when I attend my bible study group fellowship in August. I have been daring and want to be out more to people.

Friday, July 20, 2007


Three advanages of being a CD:

1. My spouse and I can share clothing.

2. Can be a male in the morning and a female in the evening.

3. I can go about the city without any one knowing who I am.

Thursday, July 19, 2007

Who figured that I would be a part of the transgender and and crossdressing communities? If some one had told me that three years ago, I would have told them no way. Now that I am transgender and a transvestite, it has been a journey.

My idea about sexuality and gender has been affected to the point that I am willing to do some suffering for some of the causes involved. I have also come to love people that society would rather do away with. While I have not gone through some of the things that many have suffered, I feel that I am kin to those who have.

If those who know me found out about my transgender/transvestite status, it would draw shock, awe, and maybe some disappointment. That's because it's not becoming of me. I'm as straight arrow as one can be. Inside of me I have always had a quirky side to me. Other may ask 'Why are you hanging around with these people?' It's because I love them and care what happens to them.

Was this in the plan for my life? Why was it so late in my life? I don't know but whatever it is, I want to help make the lives of other better. One cannot put a price tag on seeing another trans brother or sister progress in their lives.

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

I have been trying to write some stories about transgenders. Have a few ideas but nothing to sink my teeth in yet. I'm writing for an online magazine fromm the perspective of a transgender and transvestite. I don't minimize the problems TGs face but I also believe that being positive goes a long way to living a productive and happy life.

I have bee thinking of adding some new things to the blog. Pictures, articles, etc. Just in the initial stages right now.

Friday, July 13, 2007



Wednesday, July 11, 2007

The Christian LGBT fellowship met last evening. Had four new people come. One was a new in town from Spain. A young woman named Claudia came for the first time. They found out about the group over the internet. If you wish to know more about the fellowship, the website is After singing and intros, we prayed for needs and requests.There is much to pray for, especially for the poor, immigrants, the culture of war, and the next Presidential election.


GENDER DROP-IN: Feminine Spectrum
@LGBT Center
208 West 13 Street 7:30PM
Those would identify as transsexual, cross dresser gender queer, trans-femme, trans-women, trans-female, drag queen, femme queen, exploring, and other gender variant folks are welcome.

Monday, July 09, 2007

I was out and about on Friday evening. I was wearing a pink pullover, blue skirt, and flats. The longer that I was out the more comfortable I got. This was the most comfortable that I have felt being out. I just through caution to the wind and just enjoyed myself. Just another girl out for a stroll on a July evening.

Friday, July 06, 2007


Maybe blue is for boys and pink is for girls,

but I wear both colors .

Tuesday, July 03, 2007

Independence Day is tomorrow. Everybody enjoy your day. Also take pause to think about our servicemen and women serving overseas and the sacrifices they are making to keep us free.

There have been numerous gains in the transgender community. A number of states have incorporated gender expression in their hate crime laws. The LGBT center here in New York held its first annual Trans Health Fair last month. Yes, there have been gains but more work lies ahead.

I have achieved some of the goals I set at the beginning of the year. I have attended some TG events, gotten more involved with the community, and improved my make up work. I wasn't able to attend the New York City pride march, so that's one I did not accomplish. Maybe next year.

Friday, June 29, 2007


Show real pride by rejoicing with our brothers and sisters in their victories.

Thursday, June 28, 2007

I have been transgender and a transvestite for two years. There have been numerous changes, especially on the emotional level. I am much more comfortable being transgender. I have a much better understanding of gay and lesbians issues. I have a different attitude about the AIDS epidemic. I am involved with trans issues.

I love where I am and wouldn't trade the experience for anything. The journey has been interesting but I look forward to whatever comes my way.

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

I was unable to attend the pride festivities. I had a matter that I had to take care of. Maybe next year. I'm considering volunteering for something. At least I have attended a pride event. I have another on scheduled for last August. Some day I would love to take in a pride event in another city or country.

I have been following the presedential candidates, though not closely, and I am disappointed. None of them are speaking to issues that are dear to me. A number of them won't reply to a question with a straight answer. To me it's way too early to be campaigning. Media overkill.

Friday, June 22, 2007


Summer's here, gurls! Now let's get out and show the world who we are!

Thursday, June 21, 2007

Pride weekend will be in full swing starting tomorrow. I will be in the city on Saturday for the open house at the Center. I would like to know more about the services available to the community. I hope to meet the founder of the Metropolitan Community Church, Dr. Troy Perry also. I want to get his feedback about Church and the LGBT community.

It seems that I spent much time at the center. I wonder if there is something God wants me to do there? Many people go there and for some it is a safe haven there they feel they can be themselves without the threat of violence. It's sad that people can't live in peace.

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

The thought came to my mind as to what happens after the pride celebrations and events are over. I love the celebrations and the pagentry of the pride events but also reminds me that we haven't achieved total victory as of yet. There's work to be done. More challenges lie ahead. I have a quirky side to me because I tend to look at things after all the pomp and celebration is over. It's what is called reality. Daily living, so to speak.

I think about the confused man, woman, and youth who are struggling to figure it all out. I think about all those who have died through their own hand. It is these people that keep me humble and active. I am proud of being a crossdresser and transgender. I am reminded that I need to be out there working, encoraging, challenging, and educating others.

Friday, June 15, 2007


Pride is feeling good about who you are,
and seeing others feeling godd about themselves.

Monday, June 11, 2007

I attended Brooklyn Pride this past Saturday. It was my second pride event that I attended (the first time was last year) and I felt much more comfortable this time around. There were more vendors, plenty of food, and families.

One thing I noticed was the number of religious institutions present. Last year there were not even a handful. This time there 6 or 8 including three Jewish synagogues. It's amazing what one year can bring. Maybe they're beginning to see the light. Brooklyn has a large LGBT population but it's scattered.

I asked a number of questions to various organizations. I was particularly interested in Lambda Legal, an organization that focuses on workplace discrimination. It also is involved with schools of which I will be part of in the future. I'm querying about how I can serve LGBT students.

Friday, June 08, 2007


If there's one that I have learned as a transgender person

it is the fact that we are so misunderstood. That's why we

need to share our own stories.

Thursday, June 07, 2007

Last evening I attended a trans health fair at the community center. It was the first of its kind that deals specifically with transgnder and gender variant people. Many came out and I was glad to see a good turn out from the community. Health care can be an adventure for transgenders in that they don't always get the proper care they deserve. Couple that with the transphobia and cruel words directed at them many avoid getting the medical care they may need.

I was interviewed for a survey about medical care in the transgender community. Though I have never gone to the doctor cross dressed, a thought came to me. What kind of medical care would I receive if I arrived at a medical facility cross dressed? Would I be treated less than a human being or subjected to slurs and insults? I spoke at length with the interviewer about this concern. The passion about this concern welled up within me. I never knew that it concerned me that much. The horror stories that I have heard and read about makes me think about the matter with a critical and analytical concern.

There's so much that needs to be done regarding medical care. Perhaps this is another area that I can volunteer for.

Monday, June 04, 2007


I never dreamed that my spouse and I would be sharing clothes.

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

My weekend was spent relaxing and writing and reading. Don't remember the last time Memorial Day weekend was warm and sunny all three days.

I wrote a few essays for future postings and possibly a short story. I'm reading a fine book called 'Crossing Over' by Vanessa Sheridan. There 's a need for the church to reach out to transgender people with open arms. I will elaborate on what I have read in future postings.

Friday, May 25, 2007


Every kind deed done will not go unrewarded.

A great place to dine is CHELSEA GALLERY DINER
located at 72 7th Ave @ 15th St. The food is reasonably
priced and you are never hurried by the waiters. It is also
LGBT friendly. I have gone there after support group meetings.
Many groups go to Chelsea Diner afterwards for coffee, a late
dinner, or for one of their scrumptious desserts. One of my favorite
West Village hangouts.

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

I went to dinner last with two gay friends. We enjoyed a pleasant conversation about spiritual things. I was filled in about another transgender person who is struggling. I'm just praying for the person and that her mind would be cleared of all confusion.

We attended our fellowship at the center. We pray for the LGBT community because there's many hurting people. I wore a black print skirt, low heels, and a yellow blouse. I received compliments from everyone. It was the first that I dressed for the meeting. It won't be the last.

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

I took my wife out to dinner last Saturday. It was a cold, rainy day. Ugh. Yesterday I bought a black skirt. Now I have to get some shoes (flat preferably).

Tonight I will be dining with a couple of friends. I hope to see a transgender woman who is struggling. Maybe sharing my experience will help her. I pray so. I'm anxious to get out more often because I want to express myself more to the public. It may be that some folks are more open to transgender people since some gains have been made in the country. One would hope so, anyway.

Friday, May 18, 2007


Love in action can soften even the most hardened heart

Thursday, May 17, 2007

I attended a writing workshop at college on Tuesday evening. Later I arrived at the community center in time to sit in a meeting about workplace discrimination against transgenders. I even won a prize in the raffle. Whoopee! I personally have not experienced any discrimination but I have heard some stories by others. It happens in schools a lot from what I hear.

Thinking about it now, I will be confronted with these issues when I start teaching. As a transgender and crossdresser, I want to be prepared so I can handle these situations without incident. LGBT students have a hard time as it is. We have a right to enjoy our school experiences without harassment and bullying.

I have been involved with a couple of groups but I would like to do more in the transgender community. I don't want to overextend myself because of other responsibilities. One of my future goals is get a degree in gender studies.

Monday, May 14, 2007

I dressed this weekend. Wore my favorite outfit; blue skirt and white peasant pullover. I had to get som camisoles soon. I have to get my ears pierced-again. I took my studs out too soon and the holes closed up. Ugh!

Friday, May 11, 2007


Few things move me more than the love that I have
for my trans brothers and trans sisters.


MAY 31-JUNE 10,2007
New York LGBT Film Festival

June 3, 2007
Queens Pride March

June 9, 2007
Brooklyn Pride

June 24, 2007
New York City Pride March

Thursday, May 10, 2007

There are many events coming up in the weeks ahead. I will list a few now and more as the time for theses events draw close. Be sure to support transgender events and express yourself.

Go to for details

National Day of Action to End Workplace Discrimination
@ the LGBT Community Center
218 West 13 Street
New York

The C Word: Translating Cancer Risks and Recommendations
Tuesday May 15th 6:30pm
@ Callen-Lorde Health Center
356 West 18th Street bet. 8th and 9th Avenues FREE
Refreshments served

Monday, May 07, 2007

Finally! I got my ears pierced! They're a little sore but they be okay. Today is the last day of classes. I never read so much in my life. This is from someone who is an avid reader. It was a very challenging semester but I wouldn't have it any other way. I need challenges. It's keeps the mind fresh and active.


218 W. 13 STREET

Friday, May 04, 2007



Wednesday, May 02, 2007

Today was a wonderful day. I'm winding down this semster next week. I read a lot but the work got done. I'm looking into some graduate schools after I receive my bachelors degree. I'm deciding between childhood and adult education. Sometime in the future, I want to pursue a masters in gender studies.

I'm trying to chose some events to attend during the time off from school. I definitely will be attending pride events in June. A lot of writing is in store also. I have been scribbling things about a story about transgenders and crossdressers. I want it to be a positive story. One of victory, freedom, and liberation.

Tuesday, May 01, 2007

There are numerous events that will take place in the coming days. Below are listed two of them. More will be listed in the coming days.

Tuesday, May 1 6:30-8:30
Documentary Film
@ Callen-Lorde Health Center
356 West 18th Street, Auditorium. FREE

Monday, May 14
in Washington, DC details to follow very soon

Friday, April 27, 2007


Five Things that I Can't Have Enough Of:

1. pink panties

2. nail polish

3. black dresses

4. skirts

5. camis

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

I attended the LGBT Christian fellowship at the center last night. It is a wonderful activity during the midweek. I enjoy it so much, meeting with my brothers in Christ.

I will be finished classes in May. It's been a hectic semester but I learned so much in the process. The fall semester will be my last until graduation.

I'm developing my wardrobe and arranging in order the things that I'll need. Though I love to dress up, meeting other TG's is important to me. I will have more chances to be out this summer. Also, Pridefest is coming up in June. I will be there dressed and mingling with my brothers and sisters.

Monday, April 23, 2007

I took one of those gender tests last Friday. It's called the COGIATI test. I took it a year and a half ago. I score a +3 which means that I am androgyne. This time around I scored a -10. Not really a big difference but it confirms what I felt the first time I took the test-that I possess more feminine characteristics than masculine. I believe that sometime in the future I may dress as a woman part time for the most part. There's a chance that I may dress full time. Someone suggested that I take Kate Bornstein's gender test and I may do so.

Friday, April 20, 2007


Spring is the blossoming of new opportunities

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

I have been busy with term papers at school. Finished one today and the other is due tomorrow.

I have a better idea on the clothes that I want to purchase. I have to order some thing online because of the particular article or style. When summer rolls around, Gennee's gonna take on the town!

Saturday, April 14, 2007

Classes will be done in a few weeks. I'll have more opportunities to go out and mingle with other TG's. I really want to have some TG friends to hang out with. I need some new clothes, too. Funny, I never felt that way about clothes before.

Friday, April 13, 2007


Contentment is being comfortable with yourself.

Thursday, April 12, 2007

Things have been good with me the past week. Attended Easter service on Sunday. I'm looking at clothes for the spring. The feeling of contentment is so soothing. I'm not sure if coming out is suppose to do that but it has to me. And that was in July 2005! I believe inner contentment is about being comfortable in your own skin and not letting negative vibes from others throw your equilibrium off.

Friday, April 06, 2007


If it were my choice, I would be en femme all the time.

Thursday, April 05, 2007

One thing I love is wearing hats when I'm in drab. I like them on women, too. I am going to incorporate them in my femme wardrobe, also. I generally wear skirts, blouses, and dresses. I don't wear pants because I wear them when in male mode.

School will be finished in another month. Can't wait. I'll be able to attend some TG events. I have class three nights during the week and it's hard for me to go to these events. I am involved with a couple of groups at the center. I want to help my transgender brothers and sisters and improve the lives of transgender people. I admit to not being an activist, but feel responsible in helping others.

I'm thinking about writing stories and articles from a transgender perspective. It's amazing how life is so different when I discover my own transgenderism. I wish to convey the positive because there's so much negativity about us already. There are many happy and productive transgenders out there.

Monday, April 02, 2007

I was dressed again this past Friday. I wore a blue skirt, blue flats, and a red three-quarter sleeve top. I stayed in the community center because I was a little tired and had some reading to catch up on. It's amazing how people can or cannot read you. One thing I do notice is that people respect you for expressing yourself.

I was thumbing through a Lane Bryant catalog looking for dresses. Still looking for that elusive black dress. It's a matter of finding a style that I like. Need more shoes and camis also.

My life as a CD has evolved. It has moved from just wanting to dress up to contributing and helping others in the TG community. I believe that is what my mission is.

Friday, March 30, 2007


Five things I feel when dressed en femme:

1. Completeness

2. Contentment

3. Relaxed

4. Naughty

5. Commonality

Monday, March 26, 2007

Now that the weather is getting warmer, I can concentrate on my spring wardrobe. I will be out more this year and dresses are in order. I'm looking for breastforms and hip pads. With each passing day, I feel so feminine that I want to dress as much as possible. If I had my druthers, I would dress 24/7.

Friday, March 23, 2007


Love is an act of the will as much as it a feeling in my heart.

Friday, March 16, 2007


How one feels inside has much to do with their life view
at a given moment.

This week was busier than usual. A meeting with the GLBT veterans group, a Tuesday fellowship with LGBT Christians, a midterm exam, and keeping up with events in the community. I have been surfing the'net articles about crossdressing, transgender, transvestism and Christianity. There's not much posted on the community board about crossdressing so I'm trying to fill that void by posting interesting articles and features. I guess that's my contribution to the community.

Friday, March 09, 2007



Wednesday, March 07, 2007

I have settled in to my new place. The move wasn't near as hectic as the last one. Still, moving is one of my least favorite activities
I will have a chance to dress this weekend. I enjoy hanging around the center more observing the people going about. Last Tuesday, a gay man commented on how nice my hands were. He wished that he could date me but I'm spoken for.

I have found a couple of things that I will be involved in at the center. The Christian LGBT group and the GLBT veterans are the groups I am presently involved with. My love for the transgender community grows each day. I'm happy that I am transgender and will work to see that we are treated like first class citizens.

Friday, March 02, 2007



Monday, February 26, 2007

I moved to a new place this weekend. Was a lot less hectic than the last move. It's a bigger place. I needed it.

I purchased the book Transgender Rights. I started reading it and am taking lots of notes. I really want to understand what's at stake and what needs to be done.

I will be out tomorrow night attending a worship service. It will be my first time dressed. I'm looking forward to it.

I said that 2007 would be a better year and it has been. I have been going through some changes in my life both emotionally and spiritually. I can't say that I have all the answers but my trans journey is moving me to reach out and seek more of God and what He has for me.

Friday, February 23, 2007


Never apoligize for who you are,
or how you choose to express yourself.

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

There have been subtle changes in my life. I refer to myself as a transgender woman. I have the same feeling I did last summer when I was completely comfortable and content with who I am.

I was selected to be in a project which surveys the lives and changes in transgender women. I want to share my story because there are so many misconceptions and myths about trans people.

Friday, February 16, 2007


Being transgender has opened the door to new horizons-and new challenges.

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

It snowed today and it's slushy outside. I'm also battling a cold/allergy. The way the air is these days, who knows. Haven't felt much like dressing but the thrill will be back so don't worry.

I'm looking to improve my looks quite a bit. Practicing on my make-up and will be getting my ears peirced. Need more shoes, too. So many things a tgirl has to get. Have to look pretty.

Friday, February 09, 2007


Be positive; work on areas that need improvement;
seek help. Share your suceeses with others.

Tonight I will let Gennee out. I'm trying to decide if I should wear a long skirt. It's been cold here all week. Decisions! Decisions!

I was scouring the internet looking for information about transgender veterans. I feel so privileged to be a member of this wonderful group of people.

Thursday, February 08, 2007

Life as a transgender and transvestite sure isn't boring. It's a never ending journey that takes you to heights never experienced. My dressing up has improved. I have the desire to be out more and have taken steps to do so.

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

One of my sisters on a forum that I'm a member gave me the webstie of women clothing store where plus sizes are available.


I will be getting my ears pierced this weekend. It's about time. Also looking for breasforms and another wig.

February 13th @6pm
NYU Kimmel Center
60 Washington Square south
Room 905
New York, NY Free

Friday, February 02, 2007


Life as a transwoman is getting better. It is evolving every day.

Thursday, February 01, 2007

With each passing day, I feel so in tune with my spirit. I have mentioned that I am completely comfortable as a transgender. This is my desire for all transgender persons.

Wednesday, January 31, 2007

I took part in a survey about my life as a transgender person. It was enjoyable and I was happy to be a part of it. I would love to tell my story so as to encourage others.

I was wearing a blue skirt, blue flats, red three-quarter sleeve pullover, and an off white sweater. I have been going out during the days and feel more confident. I was out there strutting my stuff and enjoying it immensely. I didn't care what people thought or said.

I hope to attend a TG party in a couple of weeks. I am looking forward to meeting other TG's and socialize more.

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

Just want to say hello. My trans experience is getting better every day. Love where I'm headed. Will add more in my next blog.

Friday, January 26, 2007


The valleys in life help us to realize that we need to look up.

I have been reading and writing about my experiences as a transgender. It's amazing how many changes I have gone through. We change every day whether or not we know it.

I have read many stories of those who have suffered much just because they are trans. I don't know why I discovered my transness just a couple of years ago but I guess the time had come. I'm comfortable being a transgnder. I guess that has to do with me being comfortable with myself as a person. I've never had gender issues in my life but, thus far, it has been a positive experience for me.

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

This past Saturday, I was wearing a white peasant top. My wife remarked that she wants to borrow it when the weather gets warm. On Sunday, I wore a red three-quarter sleeve pullover. We share skirts, blouses, and tops. Never dreamed we would be sharing clothes. I couldn't be happier.

Friday, January 19, 2007


I love women because I am one.

Thursday, January 18, 2007

I have nothing in particular to say. I'm just happy to be alive and continuing on my journey to self-discovery.

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

I'm feeling quite feminine today. The gender may be fluid again. It's gotten to the point that I feel more feminine than masculine much of the time whether or not I dress. The androgyne side of me may be more femme now than several months ago. I certainly feel that way since I have more interest in feminine things.

The transgender spectrum is so diverse that I wonder if there will ever be any commonality among us. However I choose to be identified, it doesn't define who I am. I try to meet a person where they are at that particular time. I may not agree with something but I have gained a clearer understanding about the individual. To me that's more important than clothes, clubbing, and what group I belong to.

Monday, January 15, 2007

I was out dressed last Friday evening. It was the first time in a while that I've been out. I love the sound of my low heels clacking on the sidewalk. I was another lady out for a stroll. A young lady asked me for directions. I got a little nervous but gave them to her. She looked at me strange because of my heavy male voice but she thanked me. It was the best night out for me. I never worried who was around or who looked at me. It was great!

Friday, January 12, 2007


Everyone counts for something.

I will be out tonight dressed and I can't wait. It's been a while but I have made Friday evenings 'Genevieve's Night On The Town'. I would like to do this more often but I have classes 3 times a week.

I am going shopping this weekend for a skirt or a dress, possibly a blouse and some shoes. I need to get the wardrobe built up. Now I have to figure out where I'm going to keep all my clothes.

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

It seems like the better clothing styles come out in January than in December. They're hold back on us. I'm going to be out more this year so I need to purchase more clothes. My problem is where am I going to put all these clothes.

I saw a lovely wrap around dress that I like on me. I've made up my mind to be out more often. I've designated Friday evening as my time to be my femme self.

I will be getting my computer repaired this week. Meanwhile, I'm using one at work or at the Center nearby.

Friday, January 05, 2007



Thursday, January 04, 2007

The more that I think about it, the more that I need to be out in public as Genevieve. If 2006 is any indication, 2007 promises to be more eventful. I think a major discovery or change will happen in my life. I don't know what it is at this time.

I have Native-American blood and I am quite interest in this part of my heritage. For some reason, I feel that the change will have something to do with this part of me. I want to know if I am two spirited and if there is an ancestral prophecy to be fulfilled.

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

Happy New Year to one and all. I pray that 2007 will be a good year for all. It's a clean slate, so to speak. I have set a few goals that I will accomplish duirng the year. Last year was a bonanza for me with numerous goals achieved. My goals are 2007 are:

1. Attend more TG events.

2. Improve my make-up skills.

3. Become involved with TG organizations.

4. Become knowledgeable about two tg issues.

5. March in New York City pride parade in June.