Thursday, September 30, 2010


I have been feeling much better about where I am in regards to gender. This past Sunday i came out to myself as a transsexual. It was effortless and with quiet contentment. My coming out has been a series of discoveries. I suppose that there will be more in the future. I have been able to share more things gender with my spouse. I haven't share this lates t coming out yet but I will.


Friday, September 24, 2010


Autumn is not the end of one season but the beginning of another.

Second Autumn

Here it is the first official day of autumn and it's suppose to be 90 degrees. Maybe it's summer getting in its last bit of warmth before the chilly winds of October move in. Fall is my favorite time of year, anyway.

I am reminded that the collage of the landscape changes in hues of red, yellow, orange, and brown. It doesn't mean that everything is dying; it's just like a second birth. I think of warm apple cider, pumpkins, kites flying, football, and the feeling of contentedness. Autumn summons up the creativity in me that can last throughout the cold months of winter ( I will write about winter in a later post).

Autumn reminds me of those of us who are middle age and older. Society says that we should just retire and enjoy what years we may have remaining. It's as if we have nothing further to contribute. A great treasure is being ignored by shunting us middle agers and seniors to the side. I believe that many young people miss out on some valuable experiences we have to share. I thank God for the the time he has given me but I know that he has more for me to do.

There have been warm summer days where I have basked in the glow of sunshine and activity. Autumn signifies change and there has been much change in my life. It's the same me, just wiser and more experienced as to what it means to be transgender. These autmns will always be a part of me.


Monday, September 20, 2010

Old Haunts

My wife and I talked about the people we knew and places we lived when we were kids. She talked of hanging out with friends in the park. The guys she knew made beleive that they were rock and roll singers, singing doo wap and other genres. She expressed a desire to visit the old neighborhood to reminisce those days. I encouraged her to do so.

In past posts, I posted my forays into my old haunts. My wife and I agreed that those influences affects us today so many years later. I remarked that while many things have changed what is inside of us hasn't. I'm not a nostalgic person, longing for those past days but they remind me of where I've been. In a unique way it reminds me of where I may be heading.

I see much of the same concerns now that I did in the late 1960s and early 1970s. Hunger, drugs, alcohol, disillusionment (plenty of that), and hopelessness. I also see the hope that could be brought when people see that they can still make a difference. A holisitic approach is needed to help folks find solutions to their concerns. I am a optimistic person who tries to see the potential in others. Sharing that they are of value can lift many a dispirited person.


Saturday, September 18, 2010


Autumn is my favorite season.

~Johnny Kelly

Friday, September 10, 2010

Interesting Article

Yesterday, I read this particle that may be pertinent to us in the transgender



As the autumn season approaches, let's not forget the summer and the
warmth it it brought. Let's remember the good things that happened.


Wednesday, September 08, 2010


Denial is just a way of putting off the inevitable. I made this discovery
when I was coming out as a trangender woman. For six weeks I denied
that I was a crossdresser. I kept saying to myself that this was going to
pass, that it was just a phase in my life. Needless, to say, those urges
grew stronger. Relief came when I admitted that I was a crossdresser.
All the stress and tension dissipated.

Why I'm bringing this subject up is that in recent months, a number of
high profile individuals have revealed their true sexuality/gender identity.
What is disturbing is that these same people have done much to deny other
GLBT people their rights. Many gay, lesbian, and transgender people have
committed suicide or have been murdered because of these self-loathing

What galls me is that they have a chance to be an hero to many GLBT people.
Instead money, power, political, and social standing trump being who they truly
are. Even if they didn't have all this, they would still be the same people. I have
weighed the idea that maybe we need to embrace them but I do have some
trepidation about that. Can a tiger change its stripes? As long as they defend the
very binary system and anti-glbt initiatives they have imparted, I doubt if they can
or will.


Friday, September 03, 2010


With each passing day, try to discover something
that you may not have been aware of before.


Last Weekend of Summer

Everybody enjoy the weekend. Drive safely.