Saturday, December 19, 2020
2020 has been a tough year in many ways. A number of people I know have lost loved ones. This was the bloodiest year for transgender and non-conforming people with over forty reported deaths here in the US.
I am mindful of how precious friendships are. Life is fragile as I can personally attest. Wearing a mask, not being able to dine in a restaurant, or go to a movie is minuscule in comparison to not being able to see my friends.
This year after the Transgender Day of Remembrance vigil in November, I was emotionally drained like never before. Perhaps it was the combination of the loss of life and the way we go about our daily lives. It may have been the disappearance of the many places I used to frequent, some permanently. Perhaps it is the time to support each other like never before. In the end, this is more valuable than what any pandemic can serve up.
Monday, December 14, 2020
Democratic wanna-be Tulsi Gabbard recently filed an anti-transgender bill that attempts to limit trans athletes from participating on sports teams. This has been a tough year for transgender and gender non-conforming people. We keep moving forward though. If we are being attacked, mocked, and ridiculed like we are, it means that we are having an impact.
Tuesday, December 08, 2020
Usually from Thanksgiving to New Years' is my time of reflection. This year I had even more time. I have written more, read in greater depth, and discover the need to be challenged.
I have numerous points in my life where I will pass from one threshold to another. Last year I embraced my queerness though I always believed that I was. Here I am, a 72-year-old trans woman who still thirsts for more from life. If there's one positive from the covid pandemic. it is the willingness to break down more barriers.
I believe as I get older I need to do new activities. I'm thankful for many things but I need to cross new roads. I know that I will in 2021.
Friday, December 04, 2020
I am reading some of Robert Hayden's poetry. Like a number of authors, he was criticized because he referred to himself as an American author rather than a black author. What I didn't know about Hayden is that though he was married, he struggled privately with his own bisexuality. Whether he acted upon it I haven't found out. I will do more research on his life.
Wednesday, December 02, 2020
The year 1968 was touched on during a discussion last night. It was the year I believe a big change was coming to America. Reverend Martin Luther King was bringing together diverse groups of people in an effort to change the course of the country. April, Dr. King was assassinated. Two months later, Democratic presidential hopeful Robert Kennedy met the same fate. All hell broke loose during the Democratic National Convention. America had lost its innocence and its way.
Some may think 1968 doesn't affect us today but I beg to differ. Are there any great leaders with some kind of spiritual or moral values? Is there anyone who is concerned about the poor and middle class and have solutions to the problems that ails them? I left the Democratic Party over a dozen years because they weren't listening to me. The Republican party never listened to me.
Today I sat in Washington Square Park in Greenwich Village. I first went there in 1968 where it became a regular hangout. The ideas were free-flowing. People could speak their minds without the threat of being silenced. At times I wish '68 could happen again. There needs to be a BIG change because as I see it if the course isn't changed, then our way of life is headed down the crapper.
Friday, November 27, 2020
Saturday, November 21, 2020
Transgender Awareness Week has concluded. Forty-one transgender and non-conforming sisters and brothers murdered in the United States. This year's Transgender Day Of Remembrance vigil was emotionally draining for me.
Friday, November 20, 2020
Today is Transgender Day of Remembrance. Forty-one transgender people were reported murdered in the United States. Over 350 have been murdered worldwide. There are many more who go unreported or are misgendered. Most were women of color. There were four transgender men. At least five were 21 years of age and younger. I was emotionally drained later in the evening after attending a vigil.
I want to pay special tribute to Monica Roberts, a transgender activist and advocate who lived in Houston, Texas. Ms. Roberts passed away on October 5th of natural causes at 58. She was instrumental in my education about transgender people of color when I came out. Her blog, Trans Griot, which she created, was chock full of information about how trans people of color were an integral part of past and present LGBTQ movements.
Ms. Roberts was very vocal about the racial discrimination of transgender people in the criminal justice system. She made sure that who died were properly represented in their chosen gender. Ms. Roberts was instrumental in many changes which improved the lives of transgender people in the Houston area and beyond.
I corresponded with her for over a decade. I will miss her insight, honesty, and passion. RIP, MONICA!
Thursday, November 19, 2020
The members of SAGE held its 8th annual Transgender Day of Remembrance vigil this evening. We celebrated the lives of the 41 transgender men and women murdered in the United States and Puerto. The vast majority were people of color. At least five people were 21 years old and under, the youngest being seventeen.
I read a spoken word piece titled '41' in honor of the folks who were murdered. It has been suggested that the day be renamed 'Transgender Day of Remembrance and Resilience.' I like the idea. In spite of everything we are a resilient group.
SAGE celebrated TDOR today (actual day is November 20th) so we wouldn't be in conflict other vigils.
Sunday, November 15, 2020
This week homage will be paid to all the transgender people who lose their lives through violence. It is also a time where people can learn more about who we are and what we are about.
There will be day of remembrance ceremonies all over the world. I will be participating in one here locally with a monologue piece. The actual day of Transgender Day of Remembrance is November 20th. The ceremony I will attend is on the 19th. There were thirty-four reported transgender deaths, the vast majority are women of color. There are probably more however many people are misgendered or not reported. This has been the bloodiest year for transgender and gender non-conforming people.
Friday, November 13, 2020
It's really great to see the queer landscape really change to include everybody and make the rest of the world understand that we're not just one or two things. There's so much about the queer community that needs to be represented.
~Nico Santos, Actor (b. 1979)
Thursday, November 12, 2020
The COVID pandemic has forever changed how we live our lives. On a personal level, this time has revealed some deep yearning and feelings about what it is to be transgender and queer. The lens of how I view life When I was going through my gender questioning phase it was a matter of time that I discovered that was transgender. Now I'm bicurious and wonder where this will lead.
Wednesday, November 11, 2020
Saturday, November 07, 2020
Today former Vice-president Joe Biden has been declared the winner of the 2020 presidential election. The absentee and military ballots are being counted but it looks like Biden will win.
I did not vote for Biden ( I voted third party) as I view him as a safe but mediocre candidate. Biden supported issues in the past that I was opposed to. He supported the Patriot Act. He also supported the invasion of Iraq.
I was offended when he said if I am black and don't vote for him, then I'm not black. I am black and I had to deal with this stuff from some of the black students when I was in junior college (many of my friends were white). I wish we were past all this but when Donald Trump was elected he brought all the racists out of the closet.
I pray that people will be brought back together for the sake of the country. I've never experienced the polarization palpable like I have the past four years. What will happen next only time will tell. I believe there were better candidates than Joe Biden. Today, the Democratic and Republican parties are two sides of the same coin. In conclusion, I believe people picked the lesser of two evils.
Tuesday, November 03, 2020
Thursday, October 29, 2020
Friday, October 23, 2020
Friday, October 16, 2020
Thursday, October 15, 2020
Sunday, October 11, 2020
Friday, October 09, 2020
Thursday, October 08, 2020
Monday, October 05, 2020
Friday, September 25, 2020
Monday, September 21, 2020
Friday, September 18, 2020
Saturday, September 12, 2020
The way transgender and gender non conforming people are sometimes treated led me to write this commentary. We are called demonic, perverts, and not worthy of living. What happened to Layleen Polanco in 2019 at Rikers Island as a result of neglect and, in my mind, bias. When someone claims to love God but hates someone because they are different, then they go against the God they claim to love and worship.
I'm willing to learn something new if I don't know anything about the subject. To take a position on something one knows little or nothing about does nothing for anyone. Comments such as 'it goes against my religious beliefs' or 'I don't believe in science' or 'you are a racist' does nothing to explain why one believes what they believe.
Friday, September 04, 2020
Wednesday, September 02, 2020
Monday, August 31, 2020
I'm a huge Mets fan as you can see. in this weird baseball season, there have been some surprises and disappointments.
1. San Diego Padres-playing better than expected. Can mash the ball
2. Chicago White Sox- thought they could compete. Playing well after a slow start.
3. Toronto Blue Jays- were not on my radar. Have some mashers. Decent pitching.
1. Cincinnati Reds- Thought they could be a factor. Not hitting. Outside of Sonny Gray, inconsistent pitching.
2. Washington Nationals- fell off the map. When Strasburg opted out, that was it.
3. New York Mets- maddeningly inconsistent. Very streaky bats. Lousy bullpen.
Thursday, August 27, 2020
We are of all races, genders, sexualities, and political persuasions. Maybe it was a trans or non-conforming person who said the only kind word you heard all day. They may have given you directions, made your lunch, or served you coffee. We may have created some of the things you may use.
I wish I could have been at the Republican convention and shared my story. I may not change any minds but they will know that I'm a flesh and blood person who wants the best for everybody. My trans brothers and sisters should not be the target of wrath and murder and being made invisible. It says in the bible if one member hurts then everybody hurts. This is not conjecture but fact.
Friday, August 21, 2020
Wednesday, August 19, 2020
There are few constants in life and change is one of them. Social sites like Zoom have made it easier for folks to meet, work, and socialize. The downside is the lack of personal interaction with family and friends. I wonder how children are affected by this, not being able to see their friends and classmates.
With the presidential election coming in a few moments it could be the moment of truth of where we are headed. I generally don't discuss politics on my blog but we, the people will need to decide what kind of future do we want.
Sunday, August 16, 2020
I don't discuss transgenderism much because I choose to live life. When certain forces say that I have to believe or look a certain way, then I have a problem with this. We come from many different political persuasions and life experiences. This is what makes life interesting. Yes, I'm transgender and queer but it's not the only aspect of my life. Identity politics has created more problems, I believe because everyone has to believe a certain way. This is something I chafed at growing up and I get chafed about it now.
I respect each person for who they are. People will say whatever they want about me. It doesn't phase me at all. I do and will always support the LGBTQI+ community. It's important that we respect and support one another.
Thursday, August 13, 2020
Tuesday, August 11, 2020
Friday, August 07, 2020
Wednesday, August 05, 2020
The timing of my presenting Genevieve was right. So have numerous other experiences. I embrace them and enjoy the ride.
Sunday, August 02, 2020
Friday, July 31, 2020
Tuesday, July 28, 2020
Sunday, July 26, 2020
What I'm praying for is that people will tone done their anger and communicate with each other. What are the issues that are important to EVERYBODY? How can we as people resolve them? Mainstream does nothing to help clarify anything. I believe that we the people need to speak and take charge, leader, or no leader.
The elite on both sides sees this as a sideshow in which they are jerking us around with nonsense and empty promises. No more! Many of these so-called leaders are an embarrassment to the country and the constituency they allegedly represent. I'm happy I don't have power because if I did, EVERYBODY WOULD BE DISMISSED!
Friday, July 24, 2020
Thursday, July 23, 2020
From my vantage point, this is a bad idea that will hurt law-abiding citizens. I agree that the police have become militarized and this needs to stop. Peaceful protestors have treated roughly like violent criminals. Peaceful protest is a right people have. My objection is that there are over 30 thousand gangs throughout the country. What's going to stop them from wreaking havoc our neighborhoods. Here in New York, shootings have increased. Innocent people are being hurt or killed.
Bad cops need to be weeded out of the police force. If they commit a crime they should be prosecuted. I don't know what the police budget is but I believe efficient policing would serve the public better. Stop and frisk was a bad idea because of a lot of innocent people (mostly people of color) being targeted and harassed. I also believe that defunding the police to divert money to social programs seems good on the surface but it's 'robbing Peter to pay Paul', something New York politics is notorious for. Perhaps all of the cities services need to be reviewed and revamped.
Defunding the police is a bad idea because it will hurt all of us in the long run. The change will need to come from the public as well as the police department. The men and women in blue have a tough job and I pray for them and their families. I pray for all the families who have lost loved ones through violence. It's time people get serious about REAL reform. Defunding the police will hurt all of us in the long run.
Tuesday, July 21, 2020
As a queer person, I'm challenged to keep exploring and keep seeking. Say and write the things that are deep inside me. Not all of these thoughts are related to gender and sexuality. I do take life from the perspective of a queer trans person and have, in some instances, turned my world upside down. The complexity of my feelings is both exhilarating and challenging.
I'm not at liberty to share much at this time because the process is ongoing. This reminds me of the early days of my transition. While this is challenging it is not stressful. Something wonderful will be coming out in my future writings.
Friday, July 17, 2020
Tuesday, July 14, 2020
It's nothing new. Minorities are always targeted as scapegoats for the lousy decisions made by elected officials. Many of the ills in the country did not happen overnight. We have always been here and we are not going anywhere. Transgender women are women. Transgender men are men. Period.
Tuesday, July 07, 2020
Friday, July 03, 2020
~Henri Nouwen, Clergyman (1932-1996)
Monday, June 29, 2020
The march was peaceful until two marchers were arrested near Washington Square Park for writing graffiti. Some people tried to prevent the arrests when the police became aggressive. They also had their badge number covered with tape. The Queer Liberation Front does not the police there at all. A friend of mine was hurt.
The police are militarized even against peaceful protestors. Our sorry mayor is trying to save his career and sides with the cops. I always found him to be ambiguous in his decisions.
I don't know what the future holds but transgender and non-conforming people are the targets. There have been a number of trans deaths around the country. Last year a transwoman died in Rikers Island from a seizure. People are seeking answers about this and I want to be involved in this.
Right now my emotions are amped. I'm keeping things in perspective. I'm not going to shrink now when my trans sisters and brothers are being attacked from all sides.
Sunday, June 28, 2020
Saturday, June 27, 2020
Wednesday, June 24, 2020
It's come to a point of these zealots are telling you what to believe, how to think, and what to say. I do NOT subscribe to this! My parents taught me and my siblings to think for ourselves. People are entitled to their own thoughts and opinions. It's called free speech. I'm appalled that conservatives' voices are being censored. I like to hear different viewpoints and maybe come to a resolution of an issue. This is what learning is.
Every person that has a statue has flaws as well as strengths. Theodore Roosevelt was independent, created the conservation laws we have today protecting our lands. He was also an imperialist and militarist. Winston Churchill is looked upon as a hero and statesman. He was also an unapologetic racist. Gandhi was a great leader but was abusive with his own family. Yes, Georg Washington was a slaveholder but he was also one of the founding fathers of America. Yes, they all had faults. One can learn from them and not go in the same direction.
Tuesday, June 23, 2020
Friday, June 19, 2020
Monday, June 15, 2020
Saturday, June 13, 2020
Transgender people are being denied participation in school athletics, service in the military, access to public accommodations in some cases, and denial of employment and housing. Roger Severino, head of the Hospital and Health Services states that transgender people are protected by other statutes that bar discrimination in health care. What I would ask Mr. Severino is why does he assert that transgender people are protected under existing statutes when transgender people, legitimately so, fear mistreatment. I know people who have been mistreated.
I would also ask how my being transgender affects your religious convictions. Am I one of God's creations? Does God love me any less? I have been a born again Christian much longer than I've been out as transgender. Treating someone different because they aren't like them is showing partiality which is clearly spoken against in scripture.
I am disappointed with this but not defeated. There will be lawsuits. I'm concerned about my trans brothers and sisters. Yet, I will be in the fight to see this action defeated.
Friday, June 12, 2020
Saturday, June 06, 2020
There are some really troubling problems in the country. It's high time people not only begin a dialogue but figure out how these issues can be resolved. What gets me is that neither the right or the left will talk with each other. I find the left so married to their ideology that they believe that they cannot learn some things from the other side. The same goes for the right. This is a shame.
I believe everyone is entitled to their own opinions and I respect that. It's time now that both the left and the right put aside their egos and listen to each other. Much has happened in the country. the pandemic, the protests, the anger and disgust people feel. If that anger and disgust don't lead to action, actively and personally, then all this means nothing.