Journey To The Promised Land

Life is filled with trials and tribulations. Some are pleasant, other not so pleasant. Whatever lessons we glean from this trials will serve us in the future.

I listened to a sermon yesterday touching on this subject. Trials are like studies in school; they are the basic training that we receive before going on our own in the world. Afterwards that training is put to the test. We all travel on our own roads in life. Sometimes we may have to go it alone. My road to self-discovery was one that no one else could travel for me.

There may be detours along the way that serve us and help us to embrace new things in our lives. We may discover that there are some things that we can do without. People who mock and ridicule us because we're different, who desire to keep us from being the people we know that we are and need to be. We wrestle through seasons of doubt. Are we on the right path? Are we what people say we are? Can I be a Christian and transgender? There are so many other doubts that we may need to wrestle with.

It is alright to have trails and tribulations. It is alright to have doubts. This is a part of our growth and education. There have been times in life I needed to research, to pray, and question my belief system. 

We do not have to receive and accept other people's negativity no matter how well meaning others claim to be. Being what God created you to be makes life worth living in contentment and happiness despite what others think or say. That feeling is priceless. 

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

LIFE'S MANY ROADS

I have traveled along many roads.
Some were smooth and straight;
Others were crooked and rocky.
Some roads were winding and wooded;
Others were barren and empty.
Each road brought me somewhere.

RETIREMENT DINNER

Last night my wife and I attended a retirement dinner honoring the senior minister of our church. Many people came to pay their homage to a man whom they loved and cherished. We dined at an Italian restaurant in the Bronx. There were coctails, a five course dinner, music, a skit, and words of praise.

When we arrived at the church nearly two years ago, we felt at home when we walked through the door. That has never happened to me personally. I learned much later that Pastor Charlie was instrumental in the congregation being opening and accepting a few years earlier. What he did took courage and coviction. Some folk left while many stayed. I have noticed that more young people and families have filled the pews and become members.

When I shared with him that I was transgender, he welcomed me with open arms. Later, I came out to the whole congregation as Gennee. At the end of the affair, I shared with him how much I appreciated him and making my wife and I feel welcomed.

Transgender Day Of Remembrance

With the murder of Islan Nettles last month I am thinking what to say at Transgender Day of Remembrance in November. Recently transgender women were murdered in Los Angeles and Baton Rouge. Islan's murder happened a mile or so from my residence. While I'm not afraid I am wary.

There have been a number of transgender women of color killed this year. With transgender visibility on the uptick, I'm not surprised by all the transphobic vitriol being spewed out. I also see transgender people standing up, not going to take all this junk anymore.  I'm not taking any of it either. I am out in my neighborhood and in other parts of New York City. Been so for over eight years now.

 I encouragetrans people to be who they are and be bold. We are on the right side of history. I have dedicated TDOR to Islan.  

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

DREAMS
by Langston Hughes

Hold fast to dreams
for if dreams die
Life is a broken-winged bird
That cannot fly.

Hold fast to dreams
For when dreams go
Life is a barren field
Frozen with snow.

My First Gay Wedding

This past Saturday I attended the marriage of two gay friends. It was a grand affair with families from both sides present. At the reception the mood was festive with great food, drink, conversation, and plenty of music and dancing.

What I was impressed with was the hearfelt love everyone had for Thos and Joe. One of the best men confessed that he had received quite an education and understanding about his gay relative. To me,that made everything worthwhile. I paid for my festive time the following day with sore legs and tired body. I never danced so much in my life. I have to remind myself that my 60+ body isn't as young as it used to be.

TOUGH LOSS

It was a tough grinding game. The Jets had opportunities to win the game but were sabotaged by dropped balls and Geno Smith's three interceptions in crunch time. The Jets lost a tough 13-10 game. He made some rookie mistakes and made some plays. Smith looks like a promising quarterback.

 My Jets were supposed to be blown out but the defense stuffed Tom Brady and stood their ground. Special teams, ususally a Jets strength,was nonexistent. The offense didn't do its part, either. The Jets have 10 days  until the next game against the Buffalo Bills.    

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

When you rise in the morning, give thanks for the light, for your life, for your strength. Give thanks for your food and for the joy of living. If you see no reason to give thanks, the fault lies in yourself.

~Tecumseh

J-E-T-S JETS! JETS! JETS!

I am a rabid fan of the New York Jets. I was happy when they beatthe Tampa Bay Buccaneers 18-17. Tonight they are playing the New England Patriots, a whole nother animal. As I post, the Jets are trailing 13-3. Don't think they'll win this game but I hope that it's not a blowout.

Pemaquid Point Lighthouse

Located in Bristol, Maine,this structure went into service in 1827. A second structure was built in 1835 because of poor workmanship on the original structure.

Pemaquid was Maine's first land based lighthouse opened to the public and draws over 100,000 visitors annually.

Remembering 9/11

I viewed the 9/11 memorial service on tv this morning. I listened to all the names being read and kept thinking of all the folks lost that fateful day. After twelve years the feelings still resonates with many people.

I can remember that day as if it just happened. I was supposed to be in the north tower at precisely the time the first plane hit but was delayed.  While lives were affected negatively there were many positive aspects also. One is to settle any issues you may have with others. Be a positive influence on another person. Live life with passion and joy.

This day we honor those who were lost on 9/11. Say thank you to the police/firemen/EMS personnel.Their jobs are thankless, dangerous at times, and stressful but where would we be without them.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

What we need is people who specialize in the impossible.


~Theodore Roethke

Active Start to September

Well, September is here! Today is a cool day but I prefer cool days. I have been out since last Friday. My wife and I took my sister out for her birthday. It was a surprise fo her and she realy had a great time. My little granddaughter also came along.

On Saturday, I went to see a documentary about the 2008 economic collapse. THe reporter doing the interview really turned up the heat on the players responsible for it. Some of the other players refused to be interviewed (surprise!). Alan Greenspan, Paul Voelker, Timothy Geitner, Obama, the Bushes, Clinton and others were all responsible for the collapse. ALL should be brought up on charges and prosecuted.

On Sunday, we attended services at our church. Later, we ate dinner at a Dallas BBQ, a popular rib joint here in New York. I was a little buzzed by the pineapple dacquari I ordered (I neglected to tell them no alcohol).  

We went to a local shopping district downtown on Labor Day. It rained much of the time but it didn't deter us.We purchased a few things then ate dinner out.

Can't remember the last time we were out this much but we enjoyed it.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Writing is an exploration. You start from nothing and learn as you go.

~E.L. Doctorow

Summer's Unofficial End

This summer has really flown by. The blistering heat in July has been replaced by mild comfortable weather in August. Come Saturday the month will be history. How was your summer,by the way?

Everyone's getting in the last fling before the end of Labor Day (unofficial end of summer). I wonder who coined the term because I've experienced some pretty hot Septembers. Some good things happened to me this summer. More finances, wathcing my granddaughter grow up, meeting new people, and the reopening of a bookstore in my neighborhood.

As autumn approaches we can reminisce the good times we had. The good times don't have to end though. Summer is just one season. Autumn is a time of reaping the harvest that has been produced.

Old Harbor Light

Looking at this structure, you wouldn't thinking that it's a lighthouse. The design coincided with the structures of that time. Old Harbor Light was built in 1858 as a rear range light to the front range light on nearby Fig Island to guide ships safely into Savannah Harbor.THe light was reburished in 2000 and re-erected and relit on January 11, 2001.

Also known as Beacon Range Light and Savanah Harbor Light.

65!

I turned 65 on the 4th of this month. I guess you can say that I've hit another milestone. I'm not oficially retired because I'm seekig part-time work. Things are looking up financially, so my spouse and I will be able to live comfortably.

I look forward to the future with my spouse. Travel, social activity, exploring new activities and living life is something we both anticipate. At the same time, if one of us gets seriosly ill or disabled, will there be avenues for us to get the help that we need? I'm exploring many options presently. I'm loosely invloved with SAGE, an advocacy organization that has senior TGLB people in mind. Over the past few years I have thought about this because TGLB seniors are sometimes forgotten in te decision making and innovations that may be needed. I know that medical care is a huge concern.

I read an article today which struck a chord with me. The site is posted below.

http://www.elderbranch.com/blog/lgbt-senior-living-nursing-home-settings/ 

www.sageusa.org

Week In Review

The need for more education about the difference between gender and sexuality is still needed. I'm amazed that even in GLB circles this is still a problem. I also see that transgender people need to have a clear understanding of what it is to be transgender. We need not be ashamed of who we are nor do we need to justify our existence.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

If you are happy with who you are,
what others say against you doesn't matter.

Holland Harbor Lighthouse

I saw this lighthouse during some research a couple of years back and fell in love with it. The Holland Harbor Lighthouse is affably known as Big Red to the residents of Holland, Michigan. This structure reminds me of  the Little Red Lighthouse here in New York City.

www.lighthousefriends.com

Confusion Between Gender and Sexuality

Gender discrimination is still a problem here in New York State. Passing the Gender Employment Non Discrimination Act (GENDA) has been on the docket for over a decade. It has been passed in the asembly numerous times only to be stalled in the senate numerous times.

Twice, transgender people have been thrown under the bus. Once, in 2007 and in 2011 when marriage equality was passed and the transgender bill ignored or forgotten. I read an article the other day that there is still the perception that gender and sexuality are the same. Even some in the GLB community confuse the two. As I see it, there's still some education that's needed.

What I'm happy to see is transgender people are taking control of their own matters and that's good. It's important that discrimination be dealt with. One of the faults that I see is that shortly after Stonewall Riots, the GL faction pushed trans and queer people to the margins. Subsequent actions led to these two groups causing more harm to transgender people than outsiders. This is just my own feelings. 

Seeing that GENDA is passed is one of the goal I had for 2013. While that's not going to happen, maybe the bill needs to be reworked. It's amazing how many people still confuse gender and sexuality, even the TGLB conundrum. More work needs to be done.

WEEK IN REVIEW

The anti gay law passed in Russia is an all out attack on TGLB people in that country. Here in America, many'religious' people believe that granting transgender people their equality is a danger on religous freedom I pose the question how? 
 
It is time to answer the latter because I am a person of faith who is also transgender. It has made me pause and think why people are so interested in what we do. What are we, monsters? No! We are people who work, pay taxes, love, help others, and productive.

Keeping an eye and ear on happenings around the world has helped to remind me that what affects my TGLB people in Russia affects me here in New York. We must support one another because we are all in this struggle together.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Justice will overtake fabricators of lies and false witnesses.

~Heraclitus

A Question

I have asked the question: how does giving the TGLB community their right hurt religious freedom? I have researched some of the bogus reasons how it does. There's  no excuse for discrimination and bias just because someone doesn't look, act, or think like you. I will be expounding on this subject infuture posts because I'm tired of the opposition saying that transgender are against religious freedom, and THAT is not true at all. 

Cape Agulhas Lighthouse

Located on the southernmost part of Africa, Cape Agulhas Lighthouse began operating in March, 1849. The lighthouse was greatly needed because of the numerous shipwrecks in the treacherous waters around Cape Agulhas. Cape Agulhas is also the point where the Indian and Atlantic Oceans meet.

http://www.sahistory.org.za/

Russia's Anti-Gay Law

Russia's new anti-gay law could put a crimp into the upcoming winter Olympics. What it is that Russia is saying that they don't want 'gay propaganda' shared with people under eighteen years of age. Mr. Putin, Russia's leader, signed this draconian law. Any athlete or person, citizen or foreign, risks arrest if caught sharing anything about TGLB.

There have been calls to boycott the Olympics by some, others say a boycott would not have any benefit to anybody. What I see is that Russia is cracking down on the impact of TGLB people and organizations. When your leader is an ex-KGB agent I'm not all that surprised by the move. I wouldn't be surprised if some groups in the US are involved, but I'm not sure about this.     

What I'm concerned about is that my TGLB brothers and sisters are being harassed on a par in places like Africa, parts of eastern Europe, Turkey, and some Asian countries. Personally, I haven't decided if we should go to the Olympics or boycott it.

Struggle

Struggle is a part of everyday life. The struggle to making a living, to work for peace, or just to make sense of what is happening in the world can be taxing and troubling. Struggle doesn't need to overwhelm us.

I have found that struggle can develop perseverance and stick-to itness. It can help to discover talents in us that were either dormant or may never known we possess. When you start a new job, you're not going to know everything about it. You're going to have some setbacks and failures. Eventually you will be able to handle the tasks assigned to you. The idea that one will not struggle to is pollyannish and short sighted.  

When I was an athlete I believed that practice was part of the struggle to become a better athlete. There were weakness pointed out and corrected. There were some changes that may have been needed to be made. Come the competiton, when what you learned turns into victory, it is a most satisfying feeling.  

Look at struggle a part of the process to become the sperson that you desire to be. Ask what can I learn from all this struggling. Act on the areas that need developing.  Above all keep pushing ahead.

WEEK IN REVIEW

My wife and I celebrated our birthdays last Sunday. Last night I attend a open mic venue as Gennee. Another hurdle has been overcome though it really isn't one. It's more like another coming out.

Femininity was on my mind this week. Some discover it early, others late but it is dscovered nevertheless. People see as a woman and I'm pleased about this. How a person carries themselves, gender variant or not, can be picked up by others. Being positive and confident is important.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Every year on your birthday, you get the chance to start new.

~Sammy Hagar

Open Mic

Tomorrow my wife and I will attending an open mic at the local bookstore near our home. I will be going as Genevieve. I have been there as Gennee before. My trans friend has been to the bookstore before and loves it. Maybe some day Genevieve will read some of her poetry.

Coquille River Lighthouse

Located on the Coquille River near Bandon, Oregon. I find this particular structure fascinating  along with its easy accessibility. Coquille was once inhabited by the Coquille Indians. Built in 1896, the lighthouse provided warnings to vessels during storms and fog. It was abandoned in 1939. In 1976 the US Army Corps and Oregon State Parks renovated the structure. 

Located in Bullard's Beach State Park the exterior is accesible to the public. Whenever I visit the west coast I will make a visit here.

For more info:
http://nwcoast.com/lighthouses/oregon/coquilleriver.asp
www.lighthousefriends.com

Seen More As Feminine

Over the past several weeks I notice people view me as a woman. When I'm with my wife, people call us ladies. I've had doors opened for me, called 'ma'a m, and treated with respect. I think that it's that I'm comfortable with myself and it shows in my countenance.

I'm really pleased about this development. I encourage others to go out in public and enjoy life.  

Celebrated Our Birthday Yesterday

Yesterday my wife and I celebrated our birthday. Our birthday is on the same day. We celebrated with cake and coffee at fellowship hour at church. Later, we went on to dinner. Many people ask how we get along? We get along great. I tease my wife telling her that we have no excuse to forget each other's birthday.

WEEK IN REVIEW

Taking advantage of the opportunities we have and pursuing our dreams was the focus this week. It's very nice to have dreams. It takes courage and perseverence to achieve them.

Every day each one of us has the chance to do something different that they didn't do before. The joy we may feel from helping someone else or achieving a goal gives us confidence and courage. This is something we should do every day. Unfulfilled dreams can leave a person frustrated, defeated, and bitter. It's never too late to do the things we have put off for so long. Delay no longer! Get going and pursue your dreams.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined.


~Henry David Thoreau

AUGUST IS HERE ALREADY

July went by very fast. Had two heatwaves to boot. Can't remember the last time that happened. August has started off rainy. Oh, well.

I was talking with my wife about composing a book of short stories together. I have written a few short stories with transgender people as the main characters.Writing positive and uplifting stories is what I aim to do.

My wife will be ot of town this Saturday so I'll be out and about. Don't know what I'll do but I will enjoy myself. There are some protests upcoming and I'm looking to see which ones I will be participating in.

Minot's Ledge Light

Located off Scituate, Massachusetts, Minot's Ledge was one of the first lighthouses built in the area. First constructed in 1850, the current structure was built in 1855 and complete in 1860s were lost . Previous to a lighthouse being built here many ships, property and lives were lost along the rocky coasts.  

For more on the history of Minot's Ledge, go to http://www.lighthouse.cc/minots/history.html

OPPORTUNITIES

Over the past couple of days I have thought about the opportunties each of us have. Each day we wake up there's a new chance to do something that we want to do. The main point is to take advantage of those opportunities. 

When my son was young, I encouraged him to do something that he is passionate about. He designs video games and is into web design. Now that I'm near retirement, I have the opportunity to the things that I really love. Writing is one of my passions, however I didn't have the confidence that I could be a success at it when I was younger. Well, later this year I will have a chapbook of some of my poems published. An opportunity deferred is now an opportunity to be realized.

Opportunity can be anything. It can be creating a recipe, traveling to a foreign country, building a piece of furniture, learning how to use a computer, and many other activities. Regardless of age or status people are taking advantage of the opportunity to do something that could change their lives.

WEEK IN REVIEW

I discussed everything from eunuchs to lighthouses to an anniversary. It was a very varied week in that life seems to be that way. I enjoy weeks like this because I'm usually out and about anyway. My sister had a heart operation this week (she's doing better). This kept things in perspective. Never tak anytingfo grante because before you know it something can be lost and never retrieved.

ANNIVERSARY

It was eight years ago today that I came out to myself as a crossdresser and transgender person. My life went in nother direction and it get better. the journey has been interesting and challenging at times. I wouldn't change anything that has happened.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

All our dreams can come true, if we have the courage to pursue them.

~Walt Disney

A Young Sixty Five

I will be sixty five years young in ten days. Sometimes I have trouble convincing some that I'm my age. I see it as a compliment. Some might its a time for me to relax but I have no such notions. I will be aactive mre than ever.

I believe that learning is a lifetime endeavor. New experiences and thoughts can help shape our lives and make life worth living. I had a friend who was active and productive until he passed. I know a number of people who are the same way. Now I can do the things that I really enjoy and have a passion for.

My issue is that I have so many interests that sometmes I don't know where to star. It's a nice 'problem' to have, though. One of my goals is to get a master's degree in creative writing.  I will have a chapbook of poems published later this year. I will be going to support group meetings where I can help others with their gender issues. As you see there's much on my plate.

Many will be retiring soon however it's not the end of your life. New skills can be learned. New discoveries can be made. You have the skills and the experience to influence the younger generation. I may have retired from a job but not life.

My Love Of Lighthouses

One of my passions is reading the history of lighthouses. To me there's a mystical allure of an angel bringing light and illumination in dire situations. I can only image how many seafaring vessels were saved from a watery grave. Each week I will feature one lighthouse and a brief overview of its history.

The structure above is a mile from my home. It is simply known as the Little Red Lighthouse. Situated under the George Washington Bridge, it provided a warning to vessels on the Hudon River of treacherous currents and rocky shores. It stands at the crook of Fort Washington Park (formerly known as Jeffrey's Hook). Constructed in 1889, it has been at its current location since 1921. When the bridge was opened in 1931, the little red lighthouse was rendered obsolete.

There was a proposal of dismantling the lighthouse in 1951, but a public outcry stopped any such plans. Today, the light is a historical landmark and the only lighthouse in the New York City proper. 

A book about the lighthouse was written in 1942 by Hildegard H. Swift called The Little Red Lighthouse and the Great Grey Bridge.

EUNUCHS

At the present time, I'm working on a project for my radio show in August. I'm doing research on eunuchs in the bible and throughout history. I reminds of the project I did on crosdressing and the bible which was insightful. This should prove equally as challenging.

Change Right Before My Eyes

The heatwave finally broke this weekend. It was the second one we've had this month and there's still August to contend with.

I can't remember the last time so much is happening our world in July. The economy is really bad and people are standing up and protesting. I'm also happy that there are grass roots organizations that are implementing paradigms which empower and give folks life sustaining skills.  I've grown herbs on my fire escape. I wish I had a garden where I can grow fruits and vegetables.

Protests

Since the acquittal of George Zimmerman in the Trayvon Martin case, people all over the country have made their voices heard. On Tuesday evening my wife and I were going to a restaurant when we ran to groupof people protesting the verdict in the Martin case. About 100 or so people carried signs and listened to some speakers. Different areas of the city had similar protests. What's needed now is some action against the 'Stand Your Ground' law in Florida and the stop and frisk laws here in NYC.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

NEVER ACT YOUR AGE.

~GARY NULL

JULY

It seems that after the 4th of July, life is less hectic. June is pride month and usually full of activities cultimating with the big pride parade. I don't mind the slower pace because me time to reflect on the successes and analyze the areas that failed.

I like July because I can explore nature in the parks and places outside the city. You can keep the heat, though. Give me 80 degrees yearround I'm happy. There's many film festivals, outdoor performances in the park, picnics, street festivals, etc. This begs the question; does life really slow down as the summer progresses? I guess it depends upon one's perspective.

TGLB and celibacy

Below is an article that I read today.

http://www.religiondispatches.org/archive/sexandgender/7157/christian_colleges__gay_faculty_and_the_boy_scouts__/

My gripe is why does the gay or lesbian have to remain celibate? Celibacy is not a hard and fast rule in scripture. What is implied is that gay and lesbian couples cannot have the same happiness as hetero coples. To me this reeks of elitism and bias. I'm a married transgender person and I can only imagine some of the flak I and my spouse would get.

I graduated from a Christian college and it counsels gay and lesbian students in the hopes that they will 'repent'. I'm disappointed with the position of the president of Calvin College but he's entitled to his position.   

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Journey with me to a true commitment to our environment. Journey with me
to the serenity of leaving our children a planet in equilibrium.

~Paul Tsongas

Happy July 4th

As Independence Day is celebrated tomorrow, let us celebrate our independence as trans people. The day I decided to live as my true and authentic self was the day I declared my independence. No longer was I held down by the gender binary construct society said that I had to maintain. I never felt shame or guilt about who I was back then and I sure don't now. More of my transpeople have declared their independence, so let's celebrate.

Pride March

My wife and I went to the New York City pride march on Sunday. With the Marble Collegiate Church, we helped serve water to the marchers. It was a very humid warm day and the marchers really appreciated it.

There were more participants this year. More churches were represented in the march, which seems to be growing each year. I was happy to see this. This was my fifth parade, my wife's second. It was a fitting climax to a year of progress and victory.

Stonewall Riots- June 28, 1969

I watched documentaries of Marsha P. Johnson and Sylvia Rivera. I was really moved by their stories and of the people they influenced. People who knew them spoke of their love, activism, and their spirit. Marsha is given credit for firing the first salvo that June 28th morning at Stonewall by her gay friends. Like Philadelphia and San Francisco previously, TLGB people in New York City stood for themselves.  

At times I remind some people that trans people, street people, and drag queens were the ignitors of a fire that still burns today. They were on the front lines, having nothing to lose. Transgender people are now beginning to stand up for themselves, having been burned by some people and groups who claim to be helping them (are you listening, HRC?).

Sylvia died in 2002 still fighting for transgender equality on her deathbed. Marsha was found in the river by the pier on Christopher Street in 1992 (the police say it was suicide, I say she was murdered). After her funeral her ashes were poured into the river by the pier. Twenty years later, I would do the same thing for a friend I had recently lost.

My transgender people, as we pause to remember this historic day, take heart that we were right there on the battle lines. Marsha and Sylvia are two of my heroines.Always remember the people who paved the way for what we have today.

The documentaries of Marsha P. Johnson and Sylvia Rivera are on youtube.

Thank you Marsha and Sylvia.

A Lot Of Activity

It seems like things are moving fast for transgender people. I wonder if it's because it is pride month in many places that there seems to be much more activity. One aspect of al of this is the bogus criticisms of why we shouldn't have the same rights as everybody else.

DOMA was a dumb bill to begin with. Why don't the proponents of DOMA worked with couples whose marriages are struggling. Maybe they can teach prospective brides and bridegrooms what makes a marriage successful. Having been married 33years, it takes a lot of work and perserverance. When I came out as trans eight years, it seems that our marriage was strengthened. TO say that we can't be happy is nonsense.

Prop 8 shouldn't have come to this. Some people in major LGBT organizations blamed black folks for it passing in California and Illinois when in fact they never canvassed  black and Latino neighborhoods to begin with. 

There's till so much to be done. I will be workig to see that GENDA here in New York State is passed. We will be attaced on all sides but our presence is felt by many. I am hapy that trans activists have steped up and done their own lobbying.

Voting Rights Act Gutted

I was very disheartened when the Voting Rights Act was gutted of its protection. What galled me was some of the comments on why VRA was done away with. If someone believes that VRA is an outdated law, I wonder what was in the Kool-Aid they were drinking. States rights is the mantra being bandied about by conservatives and racists in some of these places. 

There has been much gerrymandering and redistricting all over the country. This is done to break the black and Latino voting block. I defy anyone to tell me that we are a colorblind society. Look at the prisons were the majority of prisoners are black ad Latino. Whose behind this latest assault on our rights: elitists on both sides who will do anything for a buck. Many people have died so I could vote, and I'll be damned if someone tells me that I can't vote.

SUMMER'S GETTING HOT-SO ARE TRANSGENDER TOPICS

With the recent signing of protections for transgender people in Delaware, this marked the seventeenth state to have such protections. Just a couple of days ago, a transgender woman was stabbed 40 times in  Washington DC. With the increase of visibility and recognition as people, we are being attacked on many sides.

I'm happy to be living in such a time because change is happening albeit slowly in some aspects. When I first came out many of these accomplishments were a pipe dream. Now all these things are happening before our eyes. People of color are making their voices heard fighting whitewashing, white privilege, and dismissal of their concerns by major TGLB organization. Transgender people are standing for themselves and making a huge impact. The backlash has been been vicious and the attacks brutal but we will not be stopped.

DISGUSTED

I am totally disgusted with the New York senate not willing to even discuss the Gender Employment Non Discrimination Act. It's been on the docket for over a decade now and there's absolutely no excuse for it not been passed. I wonder if they are taking their cue from the Human Rights Commission, who does not have fond feelings about transgender people. Remember when in 2007 they threw us under the bus?

I generally don't get upset about much of anything but this issue does. Marriage equality and GENDA were  on the same agenda the night the former became law. Everyone, including the organisations who are supposed to represent us, got caught up in the hoopla. The same thing happened when Don't Ask, Don't Tell was repealed. Transgender people were once again shut out. 

I'm researching places where I can become active in seeing that GENDA gets passed.  Too many people are suffering because New York State senator refuse to do the right thing. It's time for me to get busy and become an active participant.

Brighter Skies On Horizon

As children we all have an idea of what we wanted to be. Common answers were policeman. fireman, nurse, teacher, doctor or lawyer. Today it may be a star athlete, rapper, hedge fund manager, or entertainer. I have envisioned myself as a tutor, athlete, poet, world traveler, and a filmmaker. 

I related these thought to gender and conclude that there is more to each of us than we may believe. We are a dichotomy of two or more personalities. I find myself open to the challenge of discovering more about myself. I've always been curious about many things. Even now in my mid sixties,  have a child like curiosity about life. More and more people are seeking people who are authentic. 

My journey in gender expression has brought to another crossroads. At present, I've hit a dry spell but see brighter skies on the horizon. Where I will go to I don't know at the present time. 

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

When one teaches, two learn.


~Robert Half

Dry Spell

Right now I'm in one of my dry spells. Happens every now and then. I'm not depressed; just don't have much to say at this point. Don't worry, I'll be back to myself again soon.

Computer Problems Cleared

My computer is back to normal (knock on wood).

Computer Issue

I'm having an issue with my computer.  That's why I have't posted in several days. I'm at the library right now. I will be back to speed when the issues ae resolved.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Heaven is the place where
happiness is everywhere.

~Langston Hughes

Still Seeking and Exploring

About this time every year I reflect on how far my journey has come. Well, it's still ongoing. 

Prior to coming out as a cross dresser, I envisioned myself as a stripper, a porno star, or a leather man. I doubt that I would have acted on the first two. I was fascinated with the leather culture. I did much research on the lifestyle but concluded that it wasn't right for me.

Within the past few days I wonder why these thoughts all of a sudden entered my mind eight years ago? It's possible that these topics were so deep inside that I never even considered it. Now as a transgender woman,   I see that my life has so many facets. I understand that gender is rather fluid, but so are other areas. Emotions? For sure. Sexuality? I wonder. 

I chuckle sometimes when others try to put me in a box of their choosing. Labels achieve the same thing. It can be a starting point, but I understand why many reject it. Boxes and labels don't reveal the whole of a person should never define who we are. There's so much more to me that I realize. I'm still seeking and exploring.

Memorial Day

Everyone enjoy the Memorial Day weekend. Remember our men and women in uniform.

Transgenderism And The Church

These days religion and the TLGB community is a hot topic. It's because many churches and denominations are having to deal with the fact there are in fact TLGB members in their ranks. It's funny what denial will do until your confronted with it. 

It's bad enough that society ridicules people who are perceived to be different from the the majority. When you throw religion and the bible into the mix then you have a recipe for disaster. What gets me is that bible passages are thrown in our faces saying that we are sinners. Well, from my understanding of scripture so are the people who accuse us. Pulling scripture out to prove someone's own biases is a dangerous game in which many people have been harmed emotionally and spiritually.

I'm pleased that some denominations are taking this topic because it is great needed.  I have long advocated that the church and Christians need to be at the forefront of social change. I'm happy to be in a church which believes the same thing. Being active in the community and having an impact is a witness to those who may feel marginalized and isolated. There's much to be done and I want to be a part of that change.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Develop an attitude of gratitude, and give thanks for everything that happens to you, knowing that ever step forward is a step toward achieving something bigger and better than your current situation.


~Brian Tracy

Pursuing Your Passion.

Today, I encouraged someone on one of the forums tom pursue her passion for writing. It has taken me may years to believe that I could make an impact writing. Now I'm working on a chapbook of poems.  

I always told my son to find someone that he really loves then pursue it as a life work. He loves video games and wants to design them. How many people are really doing something that they love? Everything isn't about money, prestige or power. It is about making an impact on others around you. I have been writing since I was sixteen. I have read my work before audiences. If my work impacts one person, I'm happy. 

Pursue something that you really love. I am a radio show host on the internet and a poet. Nearing retirement I am at the point of doing activities that I love. This is a message I share with people, especially the young. Chinese philosopher Confucius stated: Choose a job you love, and you will never have to work a day in your life. 

This is so true.

Pause For Thought

Many opponents label the passage of bills for transgender rights as a 'bathroom bill'. They stoke fear into uninformed people that allowing transgender people to use public accommodations will endanger the children and women. Well,  these people shouldn't talk.

How come the military is sweeping over 20,000 rape cases under the rug? How come lawmakers have a hard time protecting women from discrimination, abuse, and exploitation?  Recently, a transgender woman was denied the use of a dressing room because the owner felt the customers would be uncomfortable. I saw through that ruse! SHE was the one who was uncomfortable. 

I'm not about changing people's perceptions because that up to the individual. I have and will speak out about their hypocrisy and lies. I wish that I could stand in front of these people and have them tell me why we are not worthy of the same rights as everyone else. I wouldn't tolerate the smug arrogance some of them have. People who know me know when push comes to shove, I'll tangle with anybody-and I don't care who they are. 

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Homage To Mother

As we pay homage to the mothers and the women who have influenced our lives, I have been reflecting on where life has brought me thus far. Mom had a big  influence on my direction in life. 

With her encouragement I was able to have the confidence to tackle difficult tasks. In times of difficulty she handled things with a grace that amazed me. It was this example that helped shaped for me the struggles I would encounter. What I remember most is the hospitality she showed to those who were lonely, depressed, or needed encouragement. It's probably the reason that encouraging others is one mission I have in life.     

My wife shared with me of a conversation she and mom had about my love of flowers and the color pink. I sometimes wonder if she knew that I would transition to Gennee? As we honor all mothers, let's remember that they brought us into the world. Maybe some of you didn't have the best upbringing or relationship with your mothers but remember you wouldn't be here either. Let Mothers Day be a day of rejoicing, remembrance and reflection.

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY! 

The Beginning

It was about this time eight years that I first began to question my gender. It was the beginning of a quest that would lead me in a totally different direction. I would later discover how different.

I have been of the belief that life can take us into directions we didn't plan or seek. My emotional site was one of confusion. Here I was in my mid fifties and questioning if I was the person that I was supposed to me. The troubles began a few years earlier when I had this desire to 'break out'. The question was break out to what? I had no idea I had no clue what was trouble. That answer would be forthcoming in a few weeks.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has exceeded our humanity.


~Albert Einstein

Losing The Soul

Yesterday I was out with a friend at a flea market. We During one of our conversations we discussed how many neighborhoods are changing. Gentrification is surely changing the way the city looks.Condos, upscale restaurants with overpriced food., banks and drugstores on every corner. Being lost is the mom-and-pop businesses that gave life and personality to a neighborhood.

Everywhere I go, rows of store fronts sitting like empty sepulchers. I am for improving the neighborhood but does everything have to be so sterile? Neighborhoods are becoming less diverse and much more expensive. Everybody looks the same, thinks the same, and live in the same shallow environment. I have not lived in certain places because of this. I like personality and diversity, something that's being lost every day.

I am a lover of the arts, theater, film, and museums. I have long lamented that the average person cannot see a Broadway play because it is cost prohibitive. Seems that the almighty dollar by the greed landlords and developers trump whatever the community has in mind. Kind of sad.  Yes, the neighborhood may look shiny and slick but what does it mean if there is no soul there? If I want to find empty shells, I'll go to the seashore. At least they are beautiful and unique.

Being Authentic

One of the aspects of my life is to be as authentic as I can. When I made the the decision to be open about being transgender, in took into consideration that there would be opposition to the visibility transgender people are getting. I'm pleased that transgender people are taking more control of their situations.

While I haven't encountered any physical attacks, I'm aware that it could happen. I'm not afraid, just aware. The risk one takes by being who they are many. Then again that's what makes life worth living. Over two years ago, I started writing poetry. I started not to prove myself to others but to challenge myself. I have a much better understanding of this genre and the people who write poetry. I have written over a hundred poems. 

Being vulnerable can bring rewards as well as risks. One of the rewards is discovering that you can do things that you never thought you could. It was like that with poetry and now it's advocating for justice causes. I enjoy the moment that I'm in. Stopping to smell the roses keeps me in tune with life.

ENDA Will Be ReIntroduced On Thursday

The Employment Non-Discrimination Act is set to be introduced in both chambers of Congress on Thursday, according to multiple sources, but without major changes that were previously under consideration.

The bill will be reintroduced in the House by Rep. Jared Polis (D-Colo.), the most senior openly gay member of the chamber, who’s taking over the legislation now that former Rep. Barney Frank has retired. In the Senate, the legislation will be reintroduced by Sen. Jeff Merkley (D-Ore.). The lawmakers’ offices confirmed they would introduce ENDA concurrently on Thursday.

The Senate version of the bill will have five original sponsors: Merkley and lesbian Sen. Tammy Baldwin (D-Wis.) will be two Democrats, Sens. Mark Kirk (R-Ill.) and Susan Collins (R-Maine) will be two Republicans and Senate Health, Education, Labor and Pensions Committee Chair Tom Harkin (D-Iowa) will round out the quintet.-washingtonblade.com

http://www.washingtonblade.com/2013/04/23/enda-introduction-set-for-thursday/

This should be interesting, especially if progress is made. 

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

There comes a time when we have to put aside our egos and fears and proceed with doing what we know is right.

Protesting, Writing, and Educating

There is a slowdown after all the festivities of Easter. As late April approaches, life is picking up again. It seems that the older I get, the busier I am. I don't mind at all. If I can help someone I will. 

I will be out protesting about some issues important to me. I'm against all these wars. With what happened in Boston, it eerily reminds me of 9/11. The drum beat of war by media pundits and politicians are beginning to sound. I was in the service during the Vietnam War. I just missed going but I saw a fellow soldier a year later who was in my basic training unit. He was really messed up. what's really angering is that there are nearly a million homeless vets that the VA is doing nothing for. People need to be out there protesting.

I'm working on my first chapbook of poems which I may self publish. I already have a title for a future chapbook. I was surprised because thinking of titles has always been difficult for me. Go figure. There are some writing projects that I'm considering. 

With all the events happening I really have to do my homework. Thee's so much misinformation being put out there about everything that I can't take anything for granted. I guess this is part of my unconventional teaching. I do enjoy it. Well, time to get back to it now  

Milestone

I didn't realize that I made 1100 posts. Wow! I never realized that there was a lot to say or comment on. It's been quite a ride. I just pray that others were helped and encouraged.

Week In Review

I experienced two wonderfully warm days on Monday and Tuesday. A taste of summer in early April. By yesterday it was forty degrees cooler. Like I told everyone, that was just a tease.  I finished reading Selected Poems of Thomas Merton. I began reading the last poems of Robinson Jeffers. I'm amazed at the wide variety of styles and viewpoints about a number of topics by the authors.   

I began preparing a manuscript for my first chapbook. I have decided to self publish this one then get a publishing company for the next one. On Friday I moved my radio program to Friday night's at 6 PM. The program, Genevieve's Gems, talks about Godly things from the transgender perspective. I increased it from a half hour to a full hour. The hour went so fast! My wife and I attended a poetry reading event.


Reflecting on some personal aspects, I saw some positive changes in my life. The desire to be more open tops the list.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

A friend is someone who understands your past, believes in your future, and accepts you just the way you are.


~Author Unknown

Summer Tease

I just have been enjoying the unusually warm weather the past couple of days. Yesterday, it reached 82 degrees.  I was out and about in the city. I arrived at the South Ferry subway station which reopened over a week ago. It was badly damaged during Hurricane Sandy.

It was the first time that I was in the financial district as Gennee. I got some looks but nothing happened. I visited a few of my old haunts. A couple of them have closed due to the economy. It was just great being out and being myself. 
  

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

In a time of universal deceit-telling the truth is a revolutionary act.

~George Orwell

I'M BACK

I took some time off from posting but now I'm back. I hae been reading, writing, and preparing to participate in upcoming protests. I will be attending a couple of upcoming book fairs, a poetry reading, and an investment seminar. As you can see, I will be pretty busy.

My radio program, Genevieve's Gems, is going well. Tomorrow, I will discuss the whole transgender spectrum. Someone made the suggestion to speak about this. I've been broadcasting for a couple of months now. I've always loved radio and now I have my own program.