GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Never apoligize for who you are,
or how you choose to express yourself.

There have been subtle changes in my life. I refer to myself as a transgender woman. I have the same feeling I did last summer when I was completely comfortable and content with who I am.

I was selected to be in a project which surveys the lives and changes in transgender women. I want to share my story because there are so many misconceptions and myths about trans people.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Being transgender has opened the door to new horizons-and new challenges.

It snowed today and it's slushy outside. I'm also battling a cold/allergy. The way the air is these days, who knows. Haven't felt much like dressing but the thrill will be back so don't worry.

I'm looking to improve my looks quite a bit. Practicing on my make-up and will be getting my ears peirced. Need more shoes, too. So many things a tgirl has to get. Have to look pretty.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Be positive; work on areas that need improvement;
seek help. Share your suceeses with others.



Tonight I will let Gennee out. I'm trying to decide if I should wear a long skirt. It's been cold here all week. Decisions! Decisions!

I was scouring the internet looking for information about transgender veterans. I feel so privileged to be a member of this wonderful group of people.

Life as a transgender and transvestite sure isn't boring. It's a never ending journey that takes you to heights never experienced. My dressing up has improved. I have the desire to be out more and have taken steps to do so.

One of my sisters on a forum that I'm a member gave me the webstie of women clothing store where plus sizes are available.

Website: www.jessicalondon.com

I will be getting my ears pierced this weekend. It's about time. Also looking for breasforms and another wig.


KATE BORNSTEIN @NYU
February 13th @6pm
NYU Kimmel Center
60 Washington Square south
Room 905
New York, NY Free

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Life as a transwoman is getting better. It is evolving every day.

With each passing day, I feel so in tune with my spirit. I have mentioned that I am completely comfortable as a transgender. This is my desire for all transgender persons.

I took part in a survey about my life as a transgender person. It was enjoyable and I was happy to be a part of it. I would love to tell my story so as to encourage others.

I was wearing a blue skirt, blue flats, red three-quarter sleeve pullover, and an off white sweater. I have been going out during the days and feel more confident. I was out there strutting my stuff and enjoying it immensely. I didn't care what people thought or said.

I hope to attend a TG party in a couple of weeks. I am looking forward to meeting other TG's and socialize more.

Just want to say hello. My trans experience is getting better every day. Love where I'm headed. Will add more in my next blog.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

The valleys in life help us to realize that we need to look up.



I have been reading and writing about my experiences as a transgender. It's amazing how many changes I have gone through. We change every day whether or not we know it.

I have read many stories of those who have suffered much just because they are trans. I don't know why I discovered my transness just a couple of years ago but I guess the time had come. I'm comfortable being a transgnder. I guess that has to do with me being comfortable with myself as a person. I've never had gender issues in my life but, thus far, it has been a positive experience for me.

This past Saturday, I was wearing a white peasant top. My wife remarked that she wants to borrow it when the weather gets warm. On Sunday, I wore a red three-quarter sleeve pullover. We share skirts, blouses, and tops. Never dreamed we would be sharing clothes. I couldn't be happier.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

I love women because I am one.

I have nothing in particular to say. I'm just happy to be alive and continuing on my journey to self-discovery.

I'm feeling quite feminine today. The gender may be fluid again. It's gotten to the point that I feel more feminine than masculine much of the time whether or not I dress. The androgyne side of me may be more femme now than several months ago. I certainly feel that way since I have more interest in feminine things.

The transgender spectrum is so diverse that I wonder if there will ever be any commonality among us. However I choose to be identified, it doesn't define who I am. I try to meet a person where they are at that particular time. I may not agree with something but I have gained a clearer understanding about the individual. To me that's more important than clothes, clubbing, and what group I belong to.

I was out dressed last Friday evening. It was the first time in a while that I've been out. I love the sound of my low heels clacking on the sidewalk. I was another lady out for a stroll. A young lady asked me for directions. I got a little nervous but gave them to her. She looked at me strange because of my heavy male voice but she thanked me. It was the best night out for me. I never worried who was around or who looked at me. It was great!

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Everyone counts for something.


I will be out tonight dressed and I can't wait. It's been a while but I have made Friday evenings 'Genevieve's Night On The Town'. I would like to do this more often but I have classes 3 times a week.

I am going shopping this weekend for a skirt or a dress, possibly a blouse and some shoes. I need to get the wardrobe built up. Now I have to figure out where I'm going to keep all my clothes.

It seems like the better clothing styles come out in January than in December. They're hold back on us. I'm going to be out more this year so I need to purchase more clothes. My problem is where am I going to put all these clothes.

I saw a lovely wrap around dress that I like on me. I've made up my mind to be out more often. I've designated Friday evening as my time to be my femme self.

I will be getting my computer repaired this week. Meanwhile, I'm using one at work or at the Center nearby.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

LET YOUR INNER BEAUTY SHINE FORTH

The more that I think about it, the more that I need to be out in public as Genevieve. If 2006 is any indication, 2007 promises to be more eventful. I think a major discovery or change will happen in my life. I don't know what it is at this time.

I have Native-American blood and I am quite interest in this part of my heritage. For some reason, I feel that the change will have something to do with this part of me. I want to know if I am two spirited and if there is an ancestral prophecy to be fulfilled.

Happy New Year to one and all. I pray that 2007 will be a good year for all. It's a clean slate, so to speak. I have set a few goals that I will accomplish duirng the year. Last year was a bonanza for me with numerous goals achieved. My goals are 2007 are:

1. Attend more TG events.

2. Improve my make-up skills.

3. Become involved with TG organizations.

4. Become knowledgeable about two tg issues.

5. March in New York City pride parade in June.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Each person is where they are
because there is a greater good to be achieved.

Christmas was good. A quite day for us. I just relaxed and watched tv.

I'm thinking about my year-end blog. There has been a number of goals reached personally and in the transgender community. I will highlight some things that I would like to see happen in 2007.

I have to work today and tomorrow, then I have five days off. I'll have to get my computer fixed, also. I'm trying to see if I can be dressed all day Friday or Saturday.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Every girl needs a black dress-and I'm still looking for one.





MERRY CHRISTMAS!

I purchased a gray wool skirt yesterday at a thrift shop. Now I can purchase any color top to go with it. That's the beauty of having a lot of gray, black, or white skirts.

I have been reflective of the year past and am looking forward to 2007. It's been a great year for me and I have grown much since I came out to myself as a transgender. I will blog about this after Christmas. There are things that I would like to see happen for transgender men and women.

I'm finished with classes for this semester. When I came home early last evening, it felt weird. I miss class already.

My computer at home is down so I'm using a couple of available resources. I have so much to blog and write.

I'm still working on a play. Now that classes are over, I'll have more time to work on it. Also have a short story in the works. What's important to me is that transgender people are represented in a positive way.

I don't know if I have posted these websites here, but here are some that are informative.

www.crossdressers.com
www.averny.tripod.com
www.glbtq.com
www.tavausa.org
www.lauras-playground.com

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Some of the most revealing moments have come
when I was the most fearful.

Tomorrow is my last class for the semester. I'm so glad. I need a break.

I'm wanting to attend a TG event before the year is out but I don't know if I'll have the time. I will attend more events in 2007.

I'm looking for a gray skirt for my wardrobe. I also need a couple of dresses. I am somewhat of a conservative dresser. I would rather wear skirts in femme mode rather than pants. I guess it's that I feel more feminine when I wear a skirt.

This is my last week of classes for this semester. Have a final exam tonight and a class on Thursday. I need a break.

I haven't dressed much in the past couple of weeks but to do so this weekend. This past Sunday I attended the GLBT veterans meeting. I'm going to become a member of the group. I feel comfortable with them and look to understand some of the issues the group is tackling.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Find out what is comfortable for you,then go with it.

I have been feeling very good the past couple of days. I think my gender may be fluid again. I have a wonderful sense of contentment with who I am as a transgender. It's a beautiful feeling to have.

I will be finished with classes next week. Thank gooodness. I'm also shopping for Christmas. I hope my spouse will buy something feminine for me. If not, I'll treat myself.

Weather is finally normal. I was getting spoiled (and sick) by the unusually mild temperatures. I like the cold weather at times as long as it isn't too windy.

I have been feeling very good the past couple of days. I think my gender may be fluid again. I have a wonderful sense of contentment with who I am as a transgender. It's a beautiful feeling to have.

I will be finished with classes next week. Thank gooodness. I'm also shopping for Christmas. I hope my spouse will buy something feminine for me. If not, I'll treat myself.

Weather is finally normal. I was getting spoiled (and sick) by the unusually mild temperatures. I like the cold weather at times as long as it isn't too windy.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Being a TV/TG has allowed me to experience life
from two gender perspectives.

I feel much better today. This weather is really strange. I'm looking for wool skirts anf long sleeves blouses. I'm wanting to dress more because I want to go out to various functions.

I have been making progress on a story about an out crossdresser. It's possible it could be a vehicle for a play.

I haven't been feeling good the past couple of weeks. This crazy weather has gotten a lot of people sick. Still trying to shake something.

Thanksgiving was good. My computer is down so I'm using this one at work. Hope to be up again soon.

Thanksgiving was very good. Spent the day with the family eating turkey and all the trimmings. It rained all day.

I watched the documentary 'Transgeneration' in its entirety. It was quite interesting how the families handled the transitioning these college students were going through. When I think about it's really crossed many barriers, not just gender. I admire these young people for the courage to follow their convictions.

I went into the city on Saturday. It was mild for late November. I went into a few bookstores and browsed through the fiction and literature sections. Plays have been the focus lately and I'm attempting to write one. I also thumbed through some women's magazines. I want to improve my make up skill and add shades of color to my appearance.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Inner peace and contentment far outweigh
whether or not I will pass.

Today is the best I have felt in several days. I have been battling a cold and the flu.

I attended a transgender Day of Remembrance celebration yesterday. It felt good to be around my trans brothers and sisters. One of my goals for the coming year is to attend more trans events.

This year has been one of firsts. I am so comfortable with being a transgender person. It has made a difference in my life.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Diversity is accepting people who may have differing views,
but are a piece to the puzzle of life.

REMEMBER!

TRANSGENDER DAY OF REMEMBRANCE
MONDAY NOVEMBER 20TH
@HOUSING WORKS
320 WEST 13TH STREET NEAR 8TH AVE.
NEW YORK, NY @3PM

I marched in the Veteran's Day parade dressed as Genevieve. It was a great day for everyone. I marched under the banner of the American Veterans for Equality. Young and old cheered, waved, and said "Thank you". I was truly humbled by it. There were many veterans in the parade. The comraderie among them is still after many years.

There were a number of WWII and Korean War vets. Not each homage is paid to these brave men and women and we should thank them for what they did to preserve our freedom.

I was dressed the whole day. It was the longest that I spent dressed and I want to do it more often.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

The people who have impacted mankind the most
were those who were willing to step outside the box.

It's official! I will march in the Veteran's Day parade on Saturday. I'm both excited and honored. I want to get to know more LGBT veterans.

The elections are over and I have some mixed vibes about what transpired. Partisan politics and political correctness seem more important than issues of the people. Also, IMO, there are too 'empty suits'.

I got dressed up last Friday evening and wow, it was great to be out there again! I walked along the bust streets without a care in the world. I strolled through the nearly empty park, save several joggers, by the river. It was chilly but I dreesed warm. The feel of the wind on my bare legs was exhilerating. Gazing out into the harbor, I felt so comfortable being me. I am so happy that I am a transgender and a transvestite.

People laughs and scorns at us. We're called perverts, mentally ill, and faggots. Society says we aren't fit to be considered normal. My insides bubbling, I said to no one in particular "My name is Gennee! I'm a transgender and a transvestite and I'm proud of it!" That felt sooo good to get off my chest.

Yesterday, I attended a meeting of LGBT veterans. AVER, American Veterans for Equal Rights, will be marching in the Veterans Day Parade this Saturday. I will be marching as a transgender. I can't waith because this is something I have wanted to do for a while.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Change happens because there a greater purpose that lies ahead.

Tomorrow I will be out dressed for the first time in two months. I can't wait to get out and about again. There's so much happening and trying to decide which place to go is a challenge.

I have so much to write about my life as aTG/TV. Each day it gets better and I am comfortable with my life. I'm still developing a play but I haven't worked it as much as I would like.

I have been feeling good the past several days. I have been reading, writing, enjoying my life as a transgender. I haven't dressed in two months but I feel feminine just the same.

I will be going out dressed Friday evening . I'm checking out a couple of films to see if they are worth seeing.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

It's not about where we come from;
it is about where we are now, and where
do we want to go.

My gender has been fluid the past few days. I'm am my most content when it happens. I am happy to be transgender because so many beautiful things have been revealed to me.

I purchased a cream color sweater and wine, long sleeve blouse yesterday. I am going out dressed tomorrow for the first time since early September. I feel feminine whether or not I dress.

I will be marching in the Veterans Day parade. I contacted the local chapter of the American Veterans for Equal Rights and will march under their banner. I spoke with the president of the chapter and he is pleased that a transgender person like myself will participate. He has been hoping that more trans folk will march. It is something that I have wanted to do for awhile.

Gennee

I went out shopping today. I only purchased a belt. I saw so many lovely clothes. I concentrated on finding blouses, a sweater, and a skirt. Probably go out again tomorrow and purchase something.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Five things I can't do without: panties, lipstick, my denim skirt,
make-up, and purse ( have to remnd mysel that I'm a lady now).

I'm feeling much better today. I'm finally over the flu symptoms.

I am writing quite a bit because there's so much on my heart that I want to say. This transgender journey is taking me to new horizons. I have a very positive feeling about where I'm going. It's exciting as a matter of fact.

Life never stands still for anyone. Changes can lead to new challenges. It can stretch us to points that we wonder if we can make it through. I want to experience the things that are waiting for me. I don't know what they are but I'll be equipped to handle them when they come.

I am a wanderer traveling along a narrow winding path. I never look back. I keep looking ahead.

I didn't feel that great over the weekend. Coming down with a cold. I have been drinking fluids and taking some medicine. I feel a little better today.

I hope to go out dressed this weekend. Going no where in particular; just walk around. Veteran's Day is coming up and I plan on going and marching as a transgender. I'm apprehensive but I look forward to it.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Happy is the T-girl who enjoys being herself.

It's been rather busy in my life. School work, unpacking, reading, writing. i'm not complaining, though.

I'm reading the Complete Stories and Poems of Edgar Allan Poe. He is one author that I admire. He was brilliant, eccentric, laconic, and accurate in his descriptions of places and events. Some day I will write a murder mystery or detective story featuring a transvestite.

I'm hopeful my financial situation will get better this month because I want to attend some TG events. Yesterday was National Coming Out Day. Next month is the Day of Rememberance and the Veterans Day Parade. I'm definitely going to attend both of these events because they are near and dear in my heart.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

All we T-girls need is a place where we can party, laugh, and enjoy who we are.

I looked for more skirts and blouses today. I'm going to hit it hard on Friday for clothes because the weather will be getting cooler. I saw some nice sweaters and a couple of dresses. My wife suggestedm that I purchase more nail polish.

As you know, I am a avid reader. The writings of Edgar Allan Poe has always intrigued me. His work is brilliant. I also like Herman Melville. I gravitate to authors who may fly under the radar. I'm also looking for more books written by transgenders.

I purchased a navy blue skirt and a red pullover. This is the start of me building up my winter wardrobe. I love wool but it's too warm and it doesn't really get that cold here. A sweater and dress is next.

I remember how I confused gender with sexuality when I was in my gender questioning stage. Now, I understand how both are part of me though different entities. I'm a heterosexual and transgender. I realized the day that I came out as a transvestite I wasn't straight. I believe that it's one reason that I don't have any stress over this issue, because it isn't an issue.

I was able to wear something femme other than panties. I wore my favorite pink top after almost a month without dressing up. I still felt femme though I didn't dress.

It was cool today so it's time to look for some sweaters and skirts. My support group is starting again this Wednesday. I hope to be out dressed more because I need to be. Right now I'm organizing my time because there's so much to do. Schoolwork, writing, job, homework, There's so much that I have to say so I'm putting things in order.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Each person has to find their own comfort zone.
When it is no longer comfortable,
it signals that a new journey lay ahead.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Unless a person is willing to make a lifestyle change, nothing will really improve their well being.

I just finished reading My Husband Betty by Helen Boyd. It's a very good read and I recommend it highly. One highpoint for me is the need for transvestites to get to know and understand the rest of the community. I have learned so much from transsexuals. I want to know about FTMs, genderqueer, leather, BDSM, and others.

I try to read at least one book per month. I'm always browsing the bookstores. St. Mark's Bookshop is one of my favorite places for out of the ordinary books and magazine. Located in the East Village, it has served the community for over thirty years. Lambda Rising is another good source. Another favorite is Ebookslib.com, an internet source that I have a quirky appeal to.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

If' you recognize a calling on your life, seek it, gather all the information you can, then follow the promptings.

I haven't posted in severals days because I moved to a new apartment. Finally got done yesterday but still have a lot of unpacking to do. I haven't dressed for several days but I'm not stressed by it. I'm still TG whether or not I'm dressed.

Once I get settled I will post more things of substance.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

LET'S LEARN ABOUT ALL THE GROUPS UNDER THE TRANSGENDER UMBRELLA

It's been a few days since I last posted. I will be moving to a new apartment on Saturday. Classes have started so I don't how frequent I will be able to blog but I'll try.

I will be dressing more after we get settled. I'm at the point now that I need to be involved with the community. Transvestites need to get their voices heard. I'm looking at the other communities for ideas and direction.

Labor Day weekend was quiet. I have been looking for more long sleeve blouses, skirts, dresses, and sweaters. Plenty of nice colors, too. There willbe plenty of places to go so i have to plan the wardrobe accordingly.

I saw the movie 'World Trade Center' today. It was a decent movie which reminded me of the events of that infamous day five years ago. Whatever your feelings about it, let's not forget those who died.

I started classes this week and I'm happy to be back. I graduate in a year. I have been writing a lot and it seems that I have much to say. It just comes out of me. It's possible that some life changing event will happen to me. What it is I don't know.

I haven't dressed all week but I will tomorrow. I take that back. I wear panties every day. I wore a bra, panties, a cami today. So I did dress. My bad. When the fall and winter sets in I will dress in primarily sweaters and skirts. For some reasons I prefer skirts over ladies pants (for now). Maybe its because I wear them as a male.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Tribulations serve to strengthen our character.

A long weekend coming up and I can't wait. I'm trying to decide how many times that I will dress up. I'm looking for clothes for the fall which is my favorite season of the year. I'm a sweater and skirt gurl. I saw some lovely long sleeve blouses and skirts at a thrift store. A winter coat is also in order. I may try some boots, too.

The summer has come and gone so fast. It was a great summer for me personally. I went out dressed many times, witnessed others transformation and maturity, and I found my comfort level as a transgender. I start class tomorrow in British literature. I have written much this year and more writing is in order. There's so much within me that needs to get out.

My nieces came up from Virginia to visit my wife and me. They stayed overnight. We ate fried chicken and macaroni and cheese, played games, and watched TV. It was fun.

On Friday evening I was out on the street dressed. I passed by a man panhandling for money. I dug into my purse and retrieved a few coins. I walked up to him and deposited them in his coffee cup.
"Thank you very much, Ma'am." I am still euphoric today about the comment. It's amazing how people perceive and react to you when I change my persona.

I will be starting classes on a few days. I can't wait. I was shopping for my fall and winter wardrobe. Saw some nice long sleeve blouses and some skirts. My first winter coat is in order, too.

I am going to see the movie 'World Trade Center' tomorrow. I'm curious to see how the people and the events are portrayed. I'm looking at the fall fashions. I'm a sweater and skirt gurl and I'm still searching that elusive black dress.



GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

TGURLS HAVE MORE FUN.

It was a muggy day today. I'm packing more stuff for the move we will make in a few weeks.

My spouse likes a lime green blouse that I purchased a month ago. It goes with my light green floral and black skirts. I'm looking for brown shoes now. I love shopping now and look at as an event. I'm planning my fall wardrobe. I love wearing sweaters and skirts.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS


STAY POSITIVE, THINK YOUNG,
DO SOMETHING FOR OTHERS.

Things have been busy. I have been writing blogs, a short story, an essay, working on a play, and reading about famed author Edgar Allan Poe. I will be writing an essay about him.

I am searching for a transgender group that I want to become involved with. There's so many of them so I'm researching some of them on the internet. I registered for three classes this fall. Two of them are writing courses. I'm looking forward to taking those classes. I have a pretty full schedule this year. I graduate next year.

Today, I'm going to pick some earrings for myself. Clip-ons will have to do until I get my ears pierced.

I really feel good today. Life has been moving along rather well. I will start college again soon, move to a new apartment, and do more writing.

I was browsing the thrift shops and department stores for a nice black blouse or top. I didn't find one that I liked. Later, I found a black button down blouse in my spouse's wardrobe. I'm going to borrow it one day soon. We share our skirts and tops. Such is the wonderful life of a transvestite.

I am happy to see more films about transgendered men and women. I would love to see a play written, produced, directed, and acted by transgenders and crossdressers.

I was out dressed in the park yesterday afternoon and early evening. I was read by a few people. Two young women in particular chatted to themselves but I know they read me. I kept on going expressing and enjoying myself.

The park is by the water and it is so serene and peaceful. Joggers, bladers, joggers, and strollers convene in the park but I felt so peaceful and content. I just sat on a bench admiring the sunset and the activity. I thought that I was going to be hit upon by a couple of gents but nothing came of it. It was a wonderful evening. I didn't feel like I dressed my best but I needed to be out there.

My urge to dress has gotten stronger as I go further on this journey. I enjoy my life as a transgender and I wonder where this journey will take me? I imagine some people will come my way because, perhaps, some one needs the encouragement to go on and be their true selves.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS


IN MY ACCEPTANCE AS A TRANSGENDER, I FOUND COMPLETENESS

I posted numerous threads on the forums that I subscribe to. I'm very happy that many of my friends are moving ahead in their lives. they, in turn, have encouraged me in my journey.

I will be moving soon (not one of my favorite activities). It's a one bedroom apartment and gas and electric are included in the rent. It's amazing how much junk you accumulate over time. My wife and I will be putting a lot of stuff in the trash.

My love for shopping has increased. I need to think about my fall wardrobe. I'm a sweater and skirt gurl so i'm seeing which are the hot fall colors this year. I'm trying to decide if I will wear boots this year. A nice car coat is a must.

THE NEW YORK INTERNATIONAL FRINGE FESTIVAL

AUGUST 11-27, 2006

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

I don't know if I will ever be a full time transvestite,
but I wonder if I could?

It was very hot today. It rained while I was at the laundry this evening. It has cooled off significantly. I have been writing much on my blogs, notebooks, and pads. I'm developing a character for the play I am writing. I am writing about a transvestite living openly in society.

I need to slow down my thoughts because I need to get them on paper. There's so much inside me that I want to say. I get those spells from time to time.

I will have information about the Fringe Festival tomorrow.

I have been a great mood the past few days. I am comfortable in my transgender status. I have been shopping and planning my winter wardrobe. My wife thinks I'm nuts but she let's me dress at home.

I'm making it a point to dress up and be out in public at least twice a week. I just have the feeling that there is some one out there that wants to dress up but may need some prodding. I would never force any one to do something against their wishes.

There are some events coming up that I hope I can attend. There's a CD club that I have attended in the past plus I have a couple of invites at a club. I have to attend to some of my personal affairs first.

I will make a few announcements of some upcoming events at a later date.

It's been warm the past few days. Suppose to be 100+ degrees tomorrow and Wednesday. Ugggh! Too hot for me.

Today, I realized how much I enjoy shopping. Perhaps its because of my transgender status that I appreciate why women like to shop. I purchased some jewelry yesterday and a green v-neck today. Tomorrow? Who knows.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

I have an easier time passing than I do
convincing others about my age.

I have been writing a lot of late. I do this when I have much inside of me that needs to be released. Much of my thinking has been from the perspective of a transgender and transvestite.

I am looking for some TG friendly establishments where I can meet other TGs. There's more out there than I thought. I have a couple of invites from some Tgirls. I'm going to get my ears pierced too.

I have always tried to dress well. Coordinating my clothing is important to being well groomed. Now I can really put to work as a transvestite. Women have it good because they have so many styles and colors to choose from.

I am looking for a black dress because I want to attend some formal events with a crossdressing I know of. I also need a new wig. I'm interested in wearing a hat, too. I have also loved hats as part of a woman's wardrobe. Some of the young women should consider wearing a hat because they would look great.

A quiet today today. Spent a few hours dressed up. I wore a turquoise top, blue foral print skirt, and blue flats. My make-up work has improved but still needs some refining. I've been battling an allergy over the past few days.

I hope to be out again this Wednesday and over the weekend. Being a transvestite seems to have made me bolder. It has carried over into other areas of my life. My wife still shakes her head. I guess she's got an unusual mate.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

There are times in our journey
when we must go by ourselves.

Only 3 days left in the FRESH FRUIT FESTIVAL!


Today I kept thinking about what I need to add to my wardrobe. I'm still in the market for a black dress. I saw three black dresses at a thrift shop yesterday. I think I'll order a new one online. Also saw some blouses and skirts that I liked.

There's so many gender expressions that I don't see how people can narrow the landscape to two genders. Just like there are many different learning styles, there are many gender expressions. Could it be that people are jealous of us?

We were in the middle of a heat wave. It's much cooler today. The other day I purchased a turquoise top at a thrift shop for two dollars. A new thrift shop opened up in my neighborhood. They have some good stuff and the prices aen't bad either.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

IF TWO OF YOU DISAGREE, TRY TO FIND
SOME COMMON GROUND.

Tomorrow I will be dressed again. It's suppose to be hot and humid so I'll dress light and cool. I will be out pretty much the whole weekend. I have to look for some tops for my wife (and me) and a pair of flats. There are a number of sales now, so I'm going to take advantage of them.

Remember the FRESH FRUIT FESTIVAL now through July 23.

I am currently reading 'My Husband Betty' by Helen Boyd. This book is written from the perspective of the wife of a crossdresser. I will give a critique of this book when I finished.

The previous book I read was Leslie Feinberg's Stone Butch Blues. I have read three of his books and this one is the best. It is packed with emotions, struggles, searching, and friendship. A very good read.

As I move ahead in my journey, no day is stagnant and neither is time. I'm making the most of my time by doing the things I must do. While the transgender experience is challenging, I choose not to wallow in the negative because it takes away the energy needed to resolve them. Obstacles will be thrown our way but it shouldn't deter from the course set for us.

Yesterday I was dressed for a few hours. I want to go clothes shopping with my wife some day. She still shakes her head but she understands why I dress.

This coming Saturday, we are spending the afternoon in the quaint north Brooklyn neighborhood of Williamsburg. The once decaying neighborhood is one of the hip spots in the city. I'd love to go there at night because there's music, shows and restaurants. We will be going to Coney Island later this summer plus attend some poetry readings and some movies.


STARTING TOMORROW

FRESH FRUIT

INTERNATIONAL FESTIVAL OF LGBT ARTS AND CULTURE

JULY 11-23, 2006

For Info: Website- www.freshfruitfestival.com

I went out dressed again last night. I wore a pink top, denim skirt and blue flats. Some people looked or stared at me but most walked by me. I just enjoyed the warm July evening and going about my business.

The Fresh Fruit Festival starts next week. It will be my first one and I look forward to attending. I love the summer because of the festivals, flea markets, and outdoor concerts and theater.

My wife knows the extent of my dressing. She purchased two bottles of nail polish for me. I going out dressed more and loving it. We need to be out there more if people are going to understand us.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

The best way to overcome fear is to face it head on.

Last night I walked around dressed as Gennee. I felt sooo empowered as I was my femme self. I wasn't afraid or fearful. It felt so natural and my feminine qualitites came out. I have to do this more often.

My spouse and I spoke at length about my dressing. I shared much with her about it and why I do it. I even showed her some of my outfits. She likes some of my articles so much that she wants to wear them. I can wear some of hers, too. I put on one of my wigs and she says that I look different.

It was a great week for me. Now that every thing is in the open, I'm free to dress up and go out without all the secrets. She can't see me dressed as a woman but she understands that it's part of me.

Enjoyed a great day in the city yesterday. It was a pleasant day to enjoy the pulse and people walking about. I even got a compliment on the blue polish on my toenails.

The deeper that I go into transgenderism, the more I wonder if there were transgenders and crossdressers in my ancestral lineage. So far, I'm the only transgendered person in my immediate family. I am currently doing some research on this.