GENEVIEVE'S GEMS
I need to make sure my slip isn't showing.
Friday, March 28, 2008
Saturday, March 15, 2008
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
Last night, I met with my bible study group. I usually dress at the community center then head out to dinner before the meeting. This time I was going home dressed. I informed my spouse the day before that I was coming home as 'Gennee'. She said okay. She has never seen me fully dressed up. I was wearing blue flats, blue skirt and a blue and yellow print blouse.
When I arrived home her eyes widened. "How do you like?" I inquired.
"You look good." she replied. Her attitude about my dressing is more open since we disccussed it at length a few weeks ago. We share skirts, blouses, and jewelry. She said that I have more jewelry than she's ever owned in her life. Wow, did I feel good!
During the summer I will be leaving the house as 'Gennee' when my son moves out in June. I can't wait. I am much freer and so want to express my feminine side more. Having a wife who lets me be myself is a blessing.
Gennee (Genevieve)
When I arrived home her eyes widened. "How do you like?" I inquired.
"You look good." she replied. Her attitude about my dressing is more open since we disccussed it at length a few weeks ago. We share skirts, blouses, and jewelry. She said that I have more jewelry than she's ever owned in her life. Wow, did I feel good!
During the summer I will be leaving the house as 'Gennee' when my son moves out in June. I can't wait. I am much freer and so want to express my feminine side more. Having a wife who lets me be myself is a blessing.
Gennee (Genevieve)
Sunday, March 09, 2008
I was looking over some old short stories I had written several years ago. I fancied myself being a stripper, a leather enthusiast,and a connoisseur of the alternative lifestyle. I never actually participated in these things because they didn't really fit me.
As I think about it now, my gender questioning started around this time and I didn't know it. I was writing about something that I did not understand. This was around 2001 or 2002. I have long believed that people are a dichotomy of two people, the feminine and the masculine. Many people won't admit that they have both for fear of being labeled weird, soft, or not manly or feminine. The feeling that I was different was strong at this time.
Finding where one fits in can be a long and arduous task. When I found out that I was transgender, the next task was to feel comfortable in my new identity. I was over a year before I felt comfortable and content with my identity.
Maybe this was God's way of leading me to the place to where I am today. I'm still exploring my identity and seeing where the journey will take me. Perhaps my successes will encourage others who are struggling.
Genevieve
As I think about it now, my gender questioning started around this time and I didn't know it. I was writing about something that I did not understand. This was around 2001 or 2002. I have long believed that people are a dichotomy of two people, the feminine and the masculine. Many people won't admit that they have both for fear of being labeled weird, soft, or not manly or feminine. The feeling that I was different was strong at this time.
Finding where one fits in can be a long and arduous task. When I found out that I was transgender, the next task was to feel comfortable in my new identity. I was over a year before I felt comfortable and content with my identity.
Maybe this was God's way of leading me to the place to where I am today. I'm still exploring my identity and seeing where the journey will take me. Perhaps my successes will encourage others who are struggling.
Genevieve
Friday, March 07, 2008
Thursday, March 06, 2008
I purchased another item today for my wardrobe. It was a blue and green print blouse. I can't wait until the weather gets warmer. I feel freer to be 'Gennee' ever since I shared more of her to my wife. The fact that she wants to borrow my stuff is exciting. Easier on the pocket book. We have been married 28 years (May) and it has been wonderful.
When I first told her about my crossdressing she was shocked at first. She has come to accept this part of me, though she thinks I'm weird ( a fact I own up to). I wish that partners were more accepting of their mates dressing because they desire to express another side to them. To me that's what life is about.Exploring, challenging, and creating. I came to CDing late in life but I'm very happy that I did.
When I first told her about my crossdressing she was shocked at first. She has come to accept this part of me, though she thinks I'm weird ( a fact I own up to). I wish that partners were more accepting of their mates dressing because they desire to express another side to them. To me that's what life is about.Exploring, challenging, and creating. I came to CDing late in life but I'm very happy that I did.
Thursday, February 28, 2008
Over the past few weeks I have shared much with my wife about my cross dressing. She is more accepting of it. Now she wants to wear some of my clothing. I showed her some of my jewelry and she likes them. My wife has never prevented me from dressing but now I feel freer to be Gennee. I never hid anything from her but now I can tell about Gennee because she understands that this is a part of me.
Friday, February 22, 2008
Friday, February 15, 2008
Thursday, February 14, 2008
In Funk and Wagnalls standard dictionary, 'normal' is defined as conforming to or consisting of a pattern regarded as typical of a specific group. The words 'conforming piqued my interest because conformity can be a natural occurence or forced upon people. LGBTQI people know this all too well.
How many gender variant men and women have been vilified, prejudged, and even killed because they do not fit the so-called norm that society demands? What's normal is America may be something else to an indigenous tribe in South America. What the ex-gay ministries has done to countless gays and lesbians is deplorable. Lives are ruined, faith is destroyed, and many have committed suicide because of the erroneous idea that they can be made straight.
I have Native Amarican ancestry in my family genealogy and I am sure that there were gender fluidity men and women. I'm sure that my being transgender may be the fulfillment of some ancestral prophecy.
Reading the words of Jesus in Matthew 19:11-12, he echoed his understanding of eunuchs. Some are born to be eunuchs, some are made that way by man, and others choose to be eunuchs to better serve God. I have embraced my life as a transgender person and view it as a gift. I wonder if transgender people are modern day eunuchs? though there is no mention of gender variant people in scripture, a study of the societies of those times reveal that it was normal in many of the pagan nations.
Unfortunately there are those who do not accept us because we choose to be who we are. It's a shame because society can learn much from us. Jesus understand that. Wouldn't if be nice if people actually do. It will be a benefit to them and society as a whole.
How many gender variant men and women have been vilified, prejudged, and even killed because they do not fit the so-called norm that society demands? What's normal is America may be something else to an indigenous tribe in South America. What the ex-gay ministries has done to countless gays and lesbians is deplorable. Lives are ruined, faith is destroyed, and many have committed suicide because of the erroneous idea that they can be made straight.
I have Native Amarican ancestry in my family genealogy and I am sure that there were gender fluidity men and women. I'm sure that my being transgender may be the fulfillment of some ancestral prophecy.
Reading the words of Jesus in Matthew 19:11-12, he echoed his understanding of eunuchs. Some are born to be eunuchs, some are made that way by man, and others choose to be eunuchs to better serve God. I have embraced my life as a transgender person and view it as a gift. I wonder if transgender people are modern day eunuchs? though there is no mention of gender variant people in scripture, a study of the societies of those times reveal that it was normal in many of the pagan nations.
Unfortunately there are those who do not accept us because we choose to be who we are. It's a shame because society can learn much from us. Jesus understand that. Wouldn't if be nice if people actually do. It will be a benefit to them and society as a whole.
Sunday, February 10, 2008
Every Friday I post some words of wisdom in 'Genevieve's Gems'. I have never shared how this came about and will attempt to do so. Shortly before I accepted my transvestism, I read much about cross dressing and transgender. I started this blog because I needed to record my inner struggles and thoughts.
When I came out to myself as TG/TV, my whole life changed. My eyes were opened up to a new world. I read postings from other cross dressers. Many were enjoying their femininty but others were struggling with shame and guilt. They were told that what they were doing was sinful, wrong, perverted, disgusting, etc. I wanted to encourage my fellow cross dressers so I started the weekly posting. It's not only for cross dressers and transgender folks but for every body in the LGBT community. We need all the encouragement we can get because society for the most part won't.
I go by the name of Gennee or Genevieve. I created the former because there were other ladies named Genevieve on the forum that I subscribed to. When I attend meetings at the community center I'm known as Gennee. I dress up for most of them because I enjoy who I am and hopefully will encouraged others. I thought that encouraging words would be a pearl to others and that's how I came up with 'gems'.
I hope that 'Genevieve's Gems' will encourage and strengthened you. We have the right to be who we are. I am not going to let anyone tell me who or who not to be and neither should you. Be happy with who you are, be proud, and stay strong.
When I came out to myself as TG/TV, my whole life changed. My eyes were opened up to a new world. I read postings from other cross dressers. Many were enjoying their femininty but others were struggling with shame and guilt. They were told that what they were doing was sinful, wrong, perverted, disgusting, etc. I wanted to encourage my fellow cross dressers so I started the weekly posting. It's not only for cross dressers and transgender folks but for every body in the LGBT community. We need all the encouragement we can get because society for the most part won't.
I go by the name of Gennee or Genevieve. I created the former because there were other ladies named Genevieve on the forum that I subscribed to. When I attend meetings at the community center I'm known as Gennee. I dress up for most of them because I enjoy who I am and hopefully will encouraged others. I thought that encouraging words would be a pearl to others and that's how I came up with 'gems'.
I hope that 'Genevieve's Gems' will encourage and strengthened you. We have the right to be who we are. I am not going to let anyone tell me who or who not to be and neither should you. Be happy with who you are, be proud, and stay strong.
Friday, February 08, 2008
Wednesday, February 06, 2008
continued from 2/3
Gender fluidity is accepted in many cultures. I have Native American ancestry in my genealogy. Cross dressing, gender fluidity, and transgenderism is a part of many Native American tribes. It is also common in tribes in Africa, Asia, and South America. It was evident in biblical times where eunuchs were eventually included in the assembly of God.
I am comfortable with my transgender identity. It isn't someone that I chose but it is something that was inside of me. When it became evident to me that I was transgender, I embraced it. Many GLBTQI folks knew that they were different as children. There is no crime in being different.
Jesus acknowledged that some people were born to be eunuchs while others were made that way by man or chose to be eunuchs (Matt. 19:11-12). Jesus also mentioned to there are some who could not accept this. Those who try to make someone into what they are not does much harm and damage to the people (see ex-gay ministries).
Contrary to what some religious institutions might think, there were LGBTQI people throughout the bible. They may not be identified but I firmly believe that we were plentiful in the early Christian church. We were loved by God and accepted as we were. Today, God still loves and accepts us. We are everywhere and making our mark in spite of great odds against us.
Gender fluidity is accepted in many cultures. I have Native American ancestry in my genealogy. Cross dressing, gender fluidity, and transgenderism is a part of many Native American tribes. It is also common in tribes in Africa, Asia, and South America. It was evident in biblical times where eunuchs were eventually included in the assembly of God.
I am comfortable with my transgender identity. It isn't someone that I chose but it is something that was inside of me. When it became evident to me that I was transgender, I embraced it. Many GLBTQI folks knew that they were different as children. There is no crime in being different.
Jesus acknowledged that some people were born to be eunuchs while others were made that way by man or chose to be eunuchs (Matt. 19:11-12). Jesus also mentioned to there are some who could not accept this. Those who try to make someone into what they are not does much harm and damage to the people (see ex-gay ministries).
Contrary to what some religious institutions might think, there were LGBTQI people throughout the bible. They may not be identified but I firmly believe that we were plentiful in the early Christian church. We were loved by God and accepted as we were. Today, God still loves and accepts us. We are everywhere and making our mark in spite of great odds against us.
Sunday, February 03, 2008
This blog is in response to Friday's 'Genevieve's Gems'. The word 'normal' in Funk and Wagnalls' standard dictionary is defined as ' comforming to or consisting of a pattern regarded as typical of a specific group. Conforming piqued my interest because conforming can come naturally or be forced upon its subjects. This is done when stronger cultures take over other cultures. The slave trade, the Inqusition, homophobia and transphobia are examples of this.
There are countless LGBTQI men and women who are harrassed, vilified, and even killed because they do not conform to the gender binary construct of what male and female are supposed to be. What things ought to be and what they actually are is two different matters....
to be continued
There are countless LGBTQI men and women who are harrassed, vilified, and even killed because they do not conform to the gender binary construct of what male and female are supposed to be. What things ought to be and what they actually are is two different matters....
to be continued
Friday, February 01, 2008
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
The Florida elections have been interesting to say the least. I'm happy that Rudy Guiliani is out. I will comment about this and my thoughts in a future blog. I still believe it will be a dogfight between John McCain and Milt Romney for the Republicans and Hillary and Obama for the Democrats. In my opinion some more things about the candidates will come out that may influence some voters.
Friday, January 25, 2008
Thursday, January 24, 2008
I'm following the debates as much as possible and I still am not sure who I will vote for. There are a number of issues that are of concern to me. Education, morality and family values, the economy to name of a few.
One of the dangers of selecting a candidate is to focus on only one issue. Yes, the candidate may be strong on one issue but weak on others. I have read where some folks are just focused on trans issues or the war or the economy. We need to remember is that the president has to deal with a number of issues. Our local politicians have more influence that the president does so maybe a little heat has to be put under their feet.
I also conclude that we have to become involved in the issues that concern us. We have to be willing to work, share with others, and voice our concerns. We must become so self absorbed that we don't see the needs of others. There's plenty to do. I'm sure there are those who would welcome our input and support.
One of the dangers of selecting a candidate is to focus on only one issue. Yes, the candidate may be strong on one issue but weak on others. I have read where some folks are just focused on trans issues or the war or the economy. We need to remember is that the president has to deal with a number of issues. Our local politicians have more influence that the president does so maybe a little heat has to be put under their feet.
I also conclude that we have to become involved in the issues that concern us. We have to be willing to work, share with others, and voice our concerns. We must become so self absorbed that we don't see the needs of others. There's plenty to do. I'm sure there are those who would welcome our input and support.
Friday, January 18, 2008
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
Yesterday, I watched the documentary 'Southern Comfort' on LOGO tv. It is about the journey of Robert Eads, a female to male transsexual who eventually dies of ovarian cancer. Twenty refused to treat Roberts Eads because there feared that it would upset their clients. Question: why are these people in the medical profession? As a African-American I'm not surprised by this lack of compassion. It was a short time ago in America that black people were not admitted into a white hospital or clinic. Charles Drew, the inventor of the modern day blood bank, died of injuries suffered in a car accident in the 1950 south because hospitals would not admit him. People of color, immigrants, and the poor still receive inferior medical treatment in some places.
Transgender people face the same daunting fears. The community center here held a Trans health fair this past June, the first of its kind. It is a positive step toward the medical establishment understanding what transgender face. Watching the documentary inspired me to write this blog because it reminds me that there is still so much to do. Fighting for equality takes courage, skill, and perserverance.
Transgender people face the same daunting fears. The community center here held a Trans health fair this past June, the first of its kind. It is a positive step toward the medical establishment understanding what transgender face. Watching the documentary inspired me to write this blog because it reminds me that there is still so much to do. Fighting for equality takes courage, skill, and perserverance.
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