Hello, again. Very hot and muggy today. Put up my ac and it feels so much better. This morning, I put on a couple of gowns. Looking for the right style and length. Tomorrow,I'll be out in Williamsburg to check out some stores and to relax. I love the way the neighborhood has grown. I'll scout around for the latest women's fashions to see what will be my style.

Life is more interesting since coming out as a crossdresser. I'm planning my wardrobe now. Blue, gray, and black are my favorite colors. Wouldn't mind having a red suit. The main thing is coordinating everything. I have a slutty side,too. I wear just short-shorts and imagine myself a woman going topless. Another time, I will wear only a tank top. I love being barefoot.

It was a quiet day. Spent some time chatting with friends on a chat line. They are from all over the world. I'm making a few good friends. I, Genevieve, am looking forward to the day when I am a complete woman.

Today, I wore panties underneath my jeans for the first time. It was great! Genevieve is breaking out! Decided to be bold. My transformation from Leo to Genevieve is going great! This blog will reflect that in the coming days. Genevieve is exploring, learning, gaining confidence in herself and her looks. I consider my self a transgendered man who is a crossdresser. It's doesn't bother to be called either. Though 'transgender' takes in a number of gender orientations, it really boils down to how you feel about yourself. Some people won't be satisfied with the decisions you make, or don't make, but just count your blessings and move on. I feel I'm a part of the transgender community. I keep up on happenings that affect transgendered men and women. Coming out (to myself, at least), was a liberating experience. Don't know if I'll ever tell my spouse and friends because it would affect a lot of people. I'm comfortable with my situation. Each crossdresser has their own reasons for coming or not coming out, and that should be respected. I have always like different and unusual things. I admire people who do what's not expected of them. I guess you could say I'm eccentric. I have discovered numerous other things about myself that has colored and brightened my world.

I was asked what triggers my crossdressing desire? With me it's walked lovely women walking in the street. It is also seeing beautiful women's clothing in store windows. I visualize myself as a full blown woman wearing a beautiful red or marigold dress. I saw these two items this morning and it gave me a thrill. Crossdressing has given another dimension to my life. It's interesting to think from a female perspective as well as a man's perspective. Somehow, I think it's different in some respects but different in others. It's a learning process.

I'm trying to develop my wardrobe. Shoes will be a challenge because I have a wide foot. I visited a couple of thrift shops today. I saw some nice shorts and skirts. I'm more into dresses and suits. I like short shorts, too. Right now, I'm developing and coordinating my colors for the look and style I want.

I have been thinking how my life has been enhanced (not that it wasn't before) since admitting I am a cross dresser. There are times when I go to sleep at night feeling like a man (which I am). When I wake up in the morning I feel I am a woman. I believe there are more people who feel like me but won't admit to themselves, at least. I am developing friendships with others like me and I look forward to hearing their thoughts, ideas, fears, and how it has added to their lives. Six months ago, this kind of thing was not in my mind. Now, it's a part of me. I am amazed at how large and varied the transgender community is. Reading some exerpts and snippets of transgendered people, I have a greater understanding of their concerns, dreams, fears, and hopes. Since I came out as a transgendered man, I am part of this varied and unique group of men and women. Their concerns are my concerns.

I'm sitting here, thinking about what I've discovered in my life as crossdresser. One side of me is a heterosexual, married man; the other side of a me is a woman who wants to dress up and have fun and friends like me. It's a great feeling exploring my female nature. I learned so much and am learning more each day. I'm working on my wardrobe, picking what colors and styles suit me.

Hello, again. I subscribed to a chat line for crossdressers the other night. I chatted with Rexy, a crossdresser in the midwest. There are a lot of male to female crossdressers out there. So far, it has been fun.

I was viewing a couple of interesting websites today. I marveled at how lovely the crossdressers featured looked. I hope, one day, to emulate them. The two websites are: www.susans.org and www.cdinyc.org. Since coming out last week, I have gone through a wide range of emotions. I'm glad I came out, though. The feminine side of me is nothing to be ashamed of.

I have settled into my new transgendered life. I limit my crossdressing to home (when my spouse isn't around). I'm satisfied with things right now and can fantasize many things. I have been reading much about crossdressing and transgendered people the past few weeks. I have a better understanding about what they have to go through.

I went out for a walk last night after dinner. I wound up riding the bus uptown to another neighborhood. I was gazing at women's clothes again. Will have to get some more shorts before the summer is over. Can't believe it's August already.

I feel complete since I came out the other day. I feel for others in my situation and pray for them. I'm comfortable remaining closeted to my family and friends, but those who do come out I pray everything will work out. Most important, no one can live your life so enjoy and celebrate life as who you are.

Today, I'm coming out as a transgendered man (cross dresser). No else knows except me. Since this blog site was created, I've discovered my female side. I have never denied it exists nor am I ashamed of it. Cross dressing has improved some other areas of my life. I haven't broken it to my family and friends but perhaps, some day I will.

I have reminisced the feelings that have been going on within me. Having discovered my woman side, it's been interesting. My emotions have run the gamut of relief, excitement, and exploration. I have become more in tune with my body, especially my G spot. When stimulated, it really brings out the woman in me. I feel so much like the fairer gender.

This new discovery has opened my eyes to the people in the gay community. I know of some things; now I know more. I have been reading gay publications, books, and articles by and about the gay community.

I am asking many questions about my own sexuality. I'm not gay, but wonder if I am bi curious.
I've never had sex with a man, but have entertained the thought in my mind. There must be a lot of people in my situation.

It was a quiet weekend. Genevieve is tired from a weekend of singing and is resting. My male side is becoming more in tune with my female. I settled some internal issues and I feel better about myself.

Loving one self is contentment with who we are. It is being comfortable in our own skin. Self love is not egotistical or conceited; it is the love we have for our uniquesness and discoveries made. I have discovered all this within the past few weeks. I love who I am as a man- and as a newly discovered woman. This blog opened up doors that I never knew existed. One event or one move can do that. I'm exploring, searching and moving forward.

I woke up this morning feeling as womanly as I did yesterday. Genevieve is just as much a part of me as me, Leo. My body tingles all over when I think about it. Having discovered so many new things, I'm trying to put it all together and made sense of it. Each day, it gets more clear. I have explored myself physically, spiritually, and emotionally. We (Genevieve and me) have many things we want to do. We are pursuing ours dreams and desires.

I was thinking this morning what it would be like if I was a woman. I surfed the 'net last night, looking for information on transgender people. There are many descriptions as what transgender is. I thought I might be bisexual, but I identify as transgender MTF (male to female). I wouldn't be offended if I was looked upon as transgendered. I found out what the meaning of the colors on the rainbow flag. Also, I found the meanings of the other symbols in the lgbt community. I wasn't able to go to the center suggested to me. I will try to go next week.

I met with a counselor at the center yesterday to discuss my gender identity concerns. He recommended another center not far from my job. I checked the place out on the internet. and I will stop by tomorrow.

I was observing the way women walk. Their walk is so graceful and natural because of the way they're built. I need to work on my walk. I own a pair of short shorts at home where my cheeks stick out. Women look cute in them, so I wouldn't mind if someone was looking at my butt.