Monday, December 29, 2008

Essays in 2009

One of my goals for 2009 is to write at least ten essays related to transgender issues. I became somewhat of an activist last year. I was tired of people trashing us. I wasn't about to sit idly by while we are being murdered, denied our rights, and spat upon with hateful vitriole from the religious and social institutions.

I read quite a bit about things which affect us. I have related my experience as a transgender individual on this blog. There are so many stories out there that I would love to glean and comment about. The one criteria I have is to present gender variant people in a positive light. I see how much education of the public is greatly needed.

Friday, December 26, 2008

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Remember those who are lonely. Call them. Visit them. Help them. Above all, tell them that you love them.

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Christmas Wish



MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!





GENEVIEVE

Monday, December 22, 2008

Yesterday, I loaded a picture of a lighthouse which you see on the right. I have a small collection of lighthouses from all around the country. The first lighthouse built in America was constructed on Little Brewster Island off the coast of Massachusetts in 1716.

I chose this particular photo over a more genteel scene. This scene may describe what some of us have gone through as gender variant people. Life can toss us around like the rough waves in the photo. The beacon warns seafaring vessels of rock jetties and shallow shoals. That beacon shining out in the dark and rough seas have saved many a vessel from a watery abyss.

God has been a beacon of light for me during those dark times in life. It doesn't have to be gender concerns only. It can be illness, financial difficulties, numerous decisions that have to be made. So many things can swarm around me, threatening to drown me in confusion. When I stop and see that beacon of light in Jesus, I keep my eyes on him until I arrive in safe port.

I can think of the many times when gender confuson threatened to swallow everything dear to me. I'll never forget the day when God confirmed to me so intimately that he accepted me as I am. I have a number of highlights and goals achieved this year, but this by far was tops.

My transgender and gender variant friend, when life is topsy-turvy threatening to drown you, look up! The beacon from the lighthouse is shining, guiding you to safe and calm port.

Friday, December 19, 2008

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

An encouraging word can strengthen a discouraged spirit.

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Fringe Benefits

I have achieved many of the goals that set this past January. I also acheived some things I never expected. One of those benefits was to realize how intertwined my life is with the whole LGBT community. Five years ago, there was no way I could have envisioned that I would be a part of this diverse community.

During these days of reflection, I realize what things are really important to me. Coming out only three plus years ago, I feel that I have a pulse on many sides of the gender divide. Transgender people have a rich history that's always existed but was either hidden or ignored. I also have spoken out more about the mistreatment transgender people receive from social and religious institutions.

These benefits are something I never sought or thought of. It just was presented to me and I decided to meet the challenges. It been said that crisis can bring out attributes you never knew you possessed. That's certainly been the case with me. I have Native-American ancestry, so it's very possible that a Native-American prophecy is beng fulfilled in my life. I'm not afraid about where my journey will carry me. I just pray that other people will benefit from my example.

I find it odd that society says that we're an abomination and yet we've contributed more to the betterment of humanity than given credit for. It's very possible that we are debunking a lot of myths about gender and sexuality. I've said a lot here in this particular blog but encouragement and love are needed in great supply during this time of year.

Friday, December 12, 2008

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Reflection can illuminate the many blessings that have been showered on us.


The holiday season has been a time of reflection for me for fifteen or twenty years now. I remember as a young person I looked forward to receiving gifts, go to parties, and a festive atmosphere. Now I just reflect on what has happened in the past year.

This year I thought quite a bit about my mom. I thought about how I was raised and the lessons that were taught to me and my younger siblings. There's the saying that no one ever really strays away from their roots and that's very true. I realize how my feminine inclinations were formulated. I enjoyed learning fashion and color schemes because I wanted to be coordinated. Some of the chores associated with women I learned to do. Cleaning house, cooking, sewing (a little bit) were chores that never phased me as a male.

I am a transgender individual today and I suspect that I was always trans. This year I was out in public quite a bit. Wearing women's clothing feels natural to me. My parents were not around when I came out as trans but I have no doubt that they would have loved me regardless. My mom respected other people's opinions even if she didn't agree with them. I remember most when she would invite people over to her home who were alone during the holidays. Many times they expressed their deep appreciation for her hospitality. This is what I'll always remember about her.

Upon reflection this is what I wish to emulate; a hospitable and friendly spirit. I think about many of my transgender brothers and sisters who may be lonely or depressed during this time. I pray that they will be reminded that they are special and appreciated. I appreciate all of you who came before me. Most of all, I thank my parents for instilling in me the values that I follow today.

Gennee

Tuesday, December 09, 2008

RESOURCES

There are many resources available to those of us who are gender varient. Below is a few recommendations of mine which believe are helpful. Some of the sites are already posted on the sidebar. I will add more gradually.

Recommended Books
Transgender History-Susan Stryker
Gender Outlaw-Kate Bornstein
Transgender Warrior-Leslie Feinberg

Recommend Sites
www.lauras-playground.com a wealth of information about all things transgender.
www.crossdressers.com - some wonderful info here.
www.crossdresserclub.com
www.transgendershopping.com

Friday, December 05, 2008

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Having a positive influence goes a long way toward gaining acceptance.

Monday, December 01, 2008

WORLD AIDS DAY

Today is World Aids Day. There will be memorials to those lost to the disease. It affects every strata of society. Gay, lesbian, bi, transgender, and heterosexual. You don't hear much about how AIDS affects transgender people but the rates of infection are worse than in the gay and lesbian populace.

In the past year, I have been moved from indifference to great concern. I have read much about people who lives are affected by AIDS. What really grabbed me was that the grieving process can still go on many years after the individual's passing. How anyone can spew out hatred towards those afflicted is cruel and callous.

I salute those who are on the front lines and working behind the scenes to find a cure. As I am writing this blog at this very moment, strong feelings of sorrow are ruminating within my spirit. I've never lost anyone to AIDS but I do feel for those who have.

Friday, November 28, 2008

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

During this holiday season let us bring joy to someone's life.

Thursday, November 27, 2008

Thanksgiving

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!

Sunday, November 23, 2008

TDOR

On Thursday, I attended the annual Transgender Day of Remembrance ceremonies at the community center here in New York. About 200 people marched around the block carrying candles in honor of those lost to violence. Back at the center, there were speakers and comments from people in the audience. Many related their experiences as transpeople and what the day meant to them. One trans man shared that he is still recovering from being attacked and raped.

I have ambivalent feelings about TDOR; I mourn for my brothers and sisters lost to violence and yet I am encouraged by the progress we have made. There were many young people present so I am confident that the future will be bright for transgender people. They are open about who they are and will not go into the closet.

On reflection, it is my duty that I attend TDOR. It's time for transgender people to stand up and make our presence felt. TDOR encourages me to keep pressing on in the march to transgender equality. I had the chance to read reports of TDORs in other parts of the country ad the world. Some places such as Africa have it worse tan we do here in the states. I am in full supports of my brothers and sisters all around the world. I pray that in the next year equality will be closer to reality.

Genevieve

Friday, November 21, 2008

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

LET'S LOOK OUT FOR ONE ANOTHER.

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Changes

"Changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another."

I posted this quote by Anatole France on another site that I maintain. I ruminated on this quote for a few days and concluded that these words speak to everyone. It is true to those of us who are gender variant. As a transgender and cross dresser, my perspective about life has changed. These changes needed to be made if life was to be joyous; not tension-filled.

For a year I was learning who I was. Gender was now part of my own personal well being where before it was never an issue. I was apprehensive and yet I continued on my journey. Changes were more on the emotional level. I discovered the feminine side of my personality. To deny it was to succumb to the wishes and desires of those who say that I'm suppose to do male things. I needed to leave some thought patterns behind and develop new ones that were untapped and undeveloped. I realized that I may incur the wrath of some people but change can do that.

During the presidential election, a recurring theme was 'We need change!'. The question I ask is that are we willing to change? Am I willing to make the changes in me that are necessary? I cannot ask others to do something that wouldn't do myself. My heart goes out to my transsexual brothers and sisters because the changes with much sacrifice. Some have lost many of the things that were dear to them. I'm sure transitioning wasn't easy, but the change was for their well being.

I lost some things from the old life; but I have gained a new perspective about gender and sexuality. I have fallen in love with people who society has scorned and ridiculed. As a gender variant person, I better understand that change helps me to grow and see life from another point of view. I know more changes will be in store. If my changing will benefit someone else's life, in the battle cry I heard during this current administration; 'Bring It On!'

Friday, November 14, 2008

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

To perservere is to stay the course inspite of obstacles or opposition.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Veterans Day

Yesterday was Veterans Day. I am a veteran of the U S Army. I am also a transgender veteran. Like my straight brethren, LGBT men and women serve their country with dignity. It's sad that the military doesn't recognize that. 'Dont' Ask, Don't Tell' has forced thousands of intelligent people out of the service just because of who they are.

It's belated but I salute ALL veterans. I especially salute LGBT veterans for your service under sometimes difficult circumstances.


Genevieve

Friday, November 07, 2008

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Love is desiring the best for my neighbor, whether or not we see eye to eye on everything.

Wednesday, November 05, 2008

Obama Wins; Propositions Lose

I was riveted to the tv while I watched Barack Obama deliver his speech to an enthusiastic crowd of supporters in Chicago. My parents never had the chance to see this historic day. People want to see that they have a future in which THEY can help shape and create. Obama gives them that hope.

When I read my e-mails today I saw that the propositions in California, Arizona, Arkansas, and Florida had passed. This was a blow to gays and lesbians. It's true that Obama was opposed to gay marriage but he was against Prop 8 in California; something that was not brought out to those trying decide which way to vote. Looking ahead, I see how this could affect transgender people and their families. We catch enough hell as it is and this defeat demonstrates that there's still much work ahead.

Just as I encourage my GLB bretheren to stay the course, it behooves my transgender family to work unceasingly for the legislation that will affect us. ENDA is a start. Education is still needed in the black community and in the white community. What rattles around in my brain is did some of these people really understand what these propositions were about? Sadly, many rely on what others say about something rather than doing their own homework.

I applaud Equality California, Equality Arizona and Equality Florida for their efforts. I applaud the many volunteers who were out canvassing households to educate them. Don't feel discouraged; you no doubt have gained some allies. You have gained one in me.

Saturday, November 01, 2008

Speaking for Transgender People


I was asked by the leader of our bimonthly fellowship if I would like to teach a lesson. I said that I would. I am the only transgender person in the group so this is a welcome opportunity share what it is to be a gender variant individual. Transgender basics about the different expressions of gender and the role transgender people have played in history are a couple of topics that I have in mind. There are probably other topics that could be discussed. I'll have to think about it.

I welcome the opportunity to share what it is to be transgender and a cross dresser. I love to share my experiences in hope that others will be encouraged.

Gennee

Friday, October 31, 2008

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

By being open and honest about who you are will relieve the stress of denying your true self.

Thursday, October 30, 2008

Unconditional Love

This past Tuesday at our bimonthly fellowship, I expressed to my lesbian friend how I began my transition. I related how events lead up to me coming out as a cross dresser and transgender. She shared with me that this is where God wanted me all along.

I reflected about what she said. My spouse and son accept that I love wearing women's clothing. I was in denial for about seven weeks before I embraced who I was. I felt no guilt or shame whatsoever. Two years ago, while strolling through the park, a feeling of contentment and wholeness swept over me. This night I felt it even more.

God has given me a love for a group of people who are scorned and ridiculed by society. I visit churches midday to pray and rest. They are open to the public and on occasion I sit in on a midday service. On one day in late August, I prayed for LGBT men and women. Tears streamed down my cheeks as I lifted them up to the Lord. I felt his embrace like a long lost child. He accepted me as I was. It didn't matter that I am transgender and I wear women's clothing. He loves me unconditionally. My heart's desire is share with transgender, gay, lesbian, and bisexual people that God doesn't hate us.

I relish times when I can be alone with God. I want to present a positive image of being transgender. From time to time I receive complements from total strangers. Maybe the barriers are breaking down. What's important is that I am accepted and loved by the Creator.

Friday, October 24, 2008

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Contented people know who they are-and are comfortable in their own skin.

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Hate Crimes

I read this article among the e-mails I received. Thought I'd pass it on


Police look into possible hate crimes
In a little more than a week, there have been two attacks on transgendered students.
Andy Jones
- email the author
The Daily Evergreen
Published: 10/23/2008
Three cases of alleged hate crimes occurred on, or around, the WSU campus during the past eight days.
On Monday, Jackson Hogan, a transgendered person, was heading to a meeting in the CUE parking lot when another man came out of the third-floor elevator. Hogan, a junior French and Spanish major, said he didn’t recognize the man, but the man recognized him from an event sponsored by the GLBTQ community. The man allegedly made a comment, which Hogan did not want to disclose, and proceeded to knock Hogan to the ground and kick him.
“He had bloody lips and swelling in the cheeks,” WSU Police Lt. Steve Hansen said. Hogan said the suspect, who fled the scene, was wearing a sweatshirt and light-colored jeans. He is blond and between 6- foot and 6-foot-2. Hansen said there are a few leads on the case.
“It’s perfectly clear that his actions were transphobic,” Hogan said.
On Saturday, another WSU student was allegedly beaten up outside Munchy’z in the early morning.
The student said he was attacked by three men wearing masks resembling those from the movie “Scream,” hooded WSU jackets and blue jeans, Pullman Police Cmdr. Chris Tennant said. The alleged victim was transported to Pullman Regional Hospital, where he was diagnosed with a collapsed lung, though the incident was not life-threatening.
“According to the officers, he was in obvious pain,” Tennant said. The case was reported at 2:36 a.m. Tennant said there are no leads in the case.
On Oct. 15, Kristopher Shultz, a transgendered person, was walking past the Scott-Coman Soccer Fields between midnight and 1 a.m., when someone allegedly shouted hate speech. Shultz, a junior women’s studies major, said when he turned around, he was punched in the face and knocked unconscious. “All I saw was a flash of gray,” Shultz said, referring to a piece of possibly a sweatshirt or shirt.
The next thing Shultz remembered, he said, was being at home at 4:30 a.m., though he doesn’t remember walking home. He has a bruise on his right side but doesn’t remember being kicked.
Shultz said he was targeted because of his sexual orientation. The previous day, Shultz was wearing a skirt, though he said he’d heard no comments about his appearance. As a transfer student, Schultz has been at WSU less than two months. He said he’d experienced discrimination at his previous school as well.
“The whole transphobic thing ... I don’t understand,” Shultz said.
GLBTA President Nikki Hahn said there was also a case of hate speech outside a residence hall Oct. 12.
Hahn said the university has been slow to respond to the alleged incidents.
“There’s a general feeling of a lack of support from the university administration and the university system in general,” she said. “On a personal level, I’m scared. There’s been nothing coming out of the university and that’s not acceptable.” She said the university should have quickly come out with a comment and awareness campaign to educate people on issues regarding the GLBTQ community.
“This is a reality on the WSU campus,” she said. “I think there’s a lot of people who don’t think there’s homophobia, heterosexism and even racism happening on the WSU campus, but we’ve had three incidents in the last week.” Campus Climate Response, a committee of about 10 WSU administrators that meets regularly, met Tuesday and Wednesday to discuss the incident, Dean of Students Lucila Loera said.
At the Tuesday meeting, the administrators and the WSU and Pullman Police shared information on the incidents, ASWSU President Brandon Scheller said. He attended the meeting. A few members of the committee also went to the GLBTA meeting that evening. President Elson S. Floyd met with Hahn, Scheller and multiple administrators Wednesday.
Scheller said Floyd and the administration responded promptly to the events.
“The tough part is that the third incident didn’t happen until Monday evening,” he said. Loera said the administration works hard to do preventive action.
“We are disturbed and saddened by the recent events,” she said. “Of course we want all our students to feel safe, secure and respected.” The CUB is planning to work with the GLBTA on creating an awareness campaign, possibly with a guest speaker, Scheller said.
He said the incidents come as a shock.
“I would never have thought this would happen on our campus and I think it shocks the overwhelming majority of campus,” Scheller said. “But the reality is it happened and we need to be aware that it still exists.”

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Still Exploring and Growing

I looked up the definition of explore in Webster's dictionary. It means to range over (area) for the purpose of discovery. Another meaning is to look into closely: investigate or examine. I like the second definition better because gender is something that I looked into closely.

Explorers are people who will look into something that is new. They will discover new ideas, lands, or concepts. If it were not their willingness to take risks, this country would be far different than it is at the present time. I think if people were allowed to freely explore gender, many of the misconceptions about it would come into focus. Young people are coming out at early ages about gender/sexuality. It's a great thing because now the greater society has to examine and investigate gender and sexuality closely. It cannot be pushed to the fringes any longer, no matter how hard they try.

When I discovered my own trangenderism, I could have pushed it to the fringes of my mind or investigate more closely. Fortunately I chose the latter, and I'm thankful I did. Too many parents shield their children from any kind of struggle or risk. Struggle is good because it strengthens resolve and stretches the mind. Life is not static and neither is gender expression. I have embraced the feminine side of me with gratitude. As a young boy I was always curious about many things. It was put aside in my mid twenties and resumed again a few years ago in my fifties. Now I feel complete and liberated.

I'm still exploring gender, having discovered many more parts of my being. People should be allowed to explore who they are and where they fit in. Life is too short and I don't wanted to be limited by so-called binary systems or even my own doubts. There's still many roads to cross and tred.

Genevieve

Friday, October 17, 2008

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Whatever we learn in our lives never goes for naught.

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Education Is Not Static

I'm always seeking ways to improve myself. I need to be challenged, to be stretched, to move out of my comfort zone. I have started a business and am working on my master's degree. I am also seeking ways to improve the lot of my transgender brothers and sisters. Each day I hear of some great news or some tragic loss. There are triumphs, losses, and struggles. Much of what I learn is not in the classroom or the internet. It is just being open to life as it happens.

I reflect on my life and see how blessed I am. I see what others may not see. I long to touch someone's life in a meaningful way. Many of the lessons taught to me in years past have become more genuine to me. I long to be genuine, loving, and an encourager. There's always something to learn. I never want to close my heart and mind. If my suffering pain will benefit someone else, then my life will have counted for something.

Genevieve

Friday, October 10, 2008

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

SEEK NEW WAYS TO IMPROVE YOURSELF!

Tuesday, October 07, 2008

ARTICLE

I read this article today. I thought I would pass it on and get some feedback.

http://awashingtond ccatholic. blogspot. com/2008/ 10/montgomery- county-voters. html


FOOD FOR THOUGHT
Just because someone says something doen't exist doesn't mean that it doesn't.


Genevieve

Friday, October 03, 2008

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

From the equality of rights springs identity of our highest interests;
you cannot subvert your neighbor's rights without striking a dangerous
blow at your own.

-Carl Schurz, German Revolutionary (1829-1906)

Thursday, October 02, 2008

Ever Changing Experience

Transgender is an ever changing experience. I have crossed many roads, each one different from the one I crossed the last time. In all the traveling, I have noticed a yearning for spirituality and how it relates to being transgender. I am a born again Christian but I believe that God is moving me in a new direction.

I have been stopping at churches during the day. I stop to rest and to pray for many needs. The LGBT community is near and dear to me, especially the transgender community. I have felt so secure and at peace because God accepts me as I am. I have been dressed during these visits. Perhaps, I am honoring him by doing so.

I go out in public because there are those who for various reasons cannot. During these communes with God, it is impressed that he is looking at my heart and not what I have on. I am reminded that we don't have to doing anything in order to come to Him. I am appalled when I hear about LGBT people having to 'get right' before they can come to church. This is NOT the way Jesus did it. He met people where they were.

I believe that God made me this way I am for a purpose. Maybe the world doesn't understand but then God's ways are not man's ways (Isa.55:8,9). God uses and blesses people regardless of gender, race, socioeconomic status, sexuality, culture, etc. This is my heart's prayer for every person. I want Him to change me. I want other transgender people to see the Jesus that lives in me. I want everyone to know that thye are loved by God- and by me.

Genevieve

Friday, September 26, 2008

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Being open to new ideas and adventures makes the journey worth traveling.

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Journey into the woods


When I was a boy I loved to venture out into the woods near my home. My mom would tell me not to go in the woods but I usually did. Like any boy, I was curious as to what was in the thick shrubbbery and tree lined paths? Were there rabbits, frogs, or chipmunks? Were there more trees and bushes? What was more curious to me is where would the path I was on take me?


In my journey as a transgender person, that same curiosity compels me to continue forward. I ask myself if this journey will ever end? A more important question is will what I discover stop me from moving forward or cause to turn back? There are some decisions one makes that the consequences cannot be undone. I'm sure there are many folks who decided to transition has asked themselves this question. The day I decided that I was going to live life openly, I knew that there would be ridicule, comments, and comtempt on some people's part.


When you choose to live differently, it does open a can of worms. It's my life and no one else can live it for me. Creative living will stir up jealousy from some people but isn't being happy with ourselves part of living? In my opinion, transgender folks are often targeted because we choose to express who we are publicly. Is it easy? Not always? Are there risks? Definitely. Is being true to ourselves worth taking those risks? A resounding YES!


As a born again Christian I asked myself if my being transgender would affect my relationship with God? The answer He gave me was that he loved me as I was. He knew that I was transgender long before I was born. I think about the two greatest commandments Jesus gave: to love God with all my heart and to love my neighbor. My neighbor may hate my guts, may want to harm me but I am still to love him and to pray for him. Jesus loved the people who nailed him to the cross. I have no doubt that some became Christians because of His witness.


As my journey continues, I'm still that curious little boy who wonders where the road will lead. I don't know what I may find but I pray that I never turn back. I'll my walking stick and just keep moving forward.

Friday, September 19, 2008

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

The further I travel along this road, the more I feel the heartaches of others less fortunate.

Thursday, September 18, 2008

Transgender children

It's rare that I post websites here but after reading this article, I thought that I may be a good read.


http://www.sfgate.com/cgi-bin/article.cgi?f=/c/a/2008/09/17/NSQR125MBC.DTL

Friday, September 12, 2008

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

SHAME AND GUILT SHOULD NOT BE PART OF LIVING AN OPEN LIFE.

Tuesday, September 09, 2008

LIVING OPENLY

Ever since I have declared myself a transgender woman, my life has become an open book. It's not that it wasn't before, its that now I am out in public much more. I don't feel that being out is not necessarily the number of people that you tell. It's that I have chosen to live my life openly and without reservation. I'm not naive to believe that I can do this all the time but I can do it as much as is allowable.

I'm thankful for an understanding spouse and son. I'm thankful that I am walking around in my neighborhood and haven't had an incident. Mostly, I am being myself. My declaration has opened up opportunities for me to speak out whether in print, on the internet, or in person. When first began crossdressing, I enjoyed the thrill of wearing skirts, panties, and bras. However, in the back of my mind was the thought that this will take me on roads that I have never traveled. This has certainly been the case. I never saw myself being an activist but I cannot stand idly by and watch transgender and gender variant people be discriminated against.

Summer saw me be bold and out among the public. I have been following transgender issues all over the country. I am involved in some things and long to get more involved. I want to demonstrate to people that transgender are loving, productive people who care about life. Looking ahead, I see that things will be accelerated and I cannot wait.

Genevieve

Friday, September 05, 2008

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

I would rather help some struggling soul than to receive all the honors the world
bestows upon me.

Thursday, September 04, 2008

A Promising Autumn

The summer is nearly over but the autumn looks even more promising. Putting into action the things that I profess will be the main agenda. I have been out in public much more and I plan on staying out. The colors of the foliage will change soon but I desire to be a blossom during the now and during the long cold months of winter.

I will be attending Soulforce's Seven Straight Nights events. I want to be out bringing the needs of GLBT people to the public. It is taking place in various cities across the country. I promised my spouse that I would take her to a reading/poetry session. I have one scheduled for the fourth week of this month. It is something that I will do every month, if possible.

Being out in public was one goal that I set at the beginning of the year. I have more than met it. I'm not out looking for attention. I'm just being myself. I have received compliments from a few folks mostly women. I have been out in my neighborhood quite a bit without incident. I never felt thought that this would be so enriching but it has. I'm enjoying every moment.

I have visited a few places that reminded me of my childhood and young manhood. I visited some old Catholic churches. I'm surprised that I still remember some of the tenets of the Catholic faith. I just stopped there to rest and pray. I have trolled through the East Village where social and radical activities were quite vibrant 40 years ago. I also feel home here because it is a feisty neighborhood withstanding the tenticles of gentrification.

I find it amazing that I wasn't active politically in '60s and '70s but I am now. It is a mater of choice that I am an activist. A quiet unassuming crossdresser is now involved in the battle for equality for GLBT people. I have always considered myself an outsider and I feel very comfortable doing what's not expected.

Genevieve

Friday, August 29, 2008

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Life is too short to be bickering over perceived slights. Find some common ground and say someone positive about that person.

Sunday, August 24, 2008

BEING VISIBLE AND VIBRANT

This past Friday, I was out in public dressed in a light blue flower print skirt, blue flats and light blue pullover. I was out to the public by my actions. It's second nature for me to be this way because it is who I am. Last week I was out four consecutive days (Friday thru Monday) dressed as Genevieve.

It is at the point in my life that I must be myself. I can't dress every day because of other obligations. It doesn't change who I am inside. With the many issues concerning trangender folks coming up, it is important for us to be visible to the public if they are going to take us seriously. I have been in a church service, restaurant, stores, the park, and public transportation quite visible to others.

Another concern of mine is how institutions, particularly religious institutions, will handle LGBT concerns. I am a born again Christian who is also transgender. A few denominations are wrestling with whether or not GLBT men and women should be ordained and GLBT worshippers welcomed and affirmed in their congregations. For the church and ministers to treat GLBT people with contempt and disdain is a stench in God's nostrils.

I mentioned earlier that I did attend a church service. It happened last Friday and was unexpected. I came earlier to rest and pray for friends. I noticed two candles lit on each side of the altar. Soon the pipe organ played and the priest came out (it was a Catholic church). They were a many worshippers in attendance for this noon day service. No one paid any attention to me. I acknowledged some nods during one point during acknowledgement of peace. I was very happy to have attended. God didn't reject me. He doesn't reject anyone.

I will be out much more and will talk to more folks. I'm not ashamed of who I am and don't feel guilty at all about wearing women's clothing. Transgender people are speaking up and becoming more visible. It's time.

Friday, August 22, 2008

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Take time to thank God for all good things He has bestowed upon you during the day.

Friday, August 15, 2008

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Respect each person for who they are.
Encourage them when they're down.
Rejoice with them when they succeed.
Be there when they need you.

Thursday, August 14, 2008

Creative in My Darkest Hours

It's been said that some of the greatest feats came during moments of duress. The apostle Paul wrote many of hte epistles from a prison cell. George Washington's leadership came through though his army was beaten and undermanned.

My darkest hours were during the summer of 2004. I recently reread some of the poetry I had written at that time. The dozen or so pieces written spoke of abandonment, darkness and despair. I felt as if I was descending into an abyss not of my choosing. I spoke of leaving everything I knew for a life of celibacy and abandonment. What was so unsettling was the fact that I did not know what I was wrestling with.

I look at these poems and see the depths of my struggle to discover what I was fighting against. I posted a poem called 'Urges' back in June which highlight a pull into a world that I knew nothing about. The bottom came when I felt that I was looking up at the bottom of my dark abyss.

Out of this dark time I learned some valuble lessons. The first is that when your down, you can quit and give up or continue to fight. Second, write down what you are feeling and experiencing. Don't hold back! I wrote for hours on end until I was emptied of all my frustrations and fears.
Third, I was able to reach deep within the depths of my soul and lay everything bare. This was barrier that I had long sought to overcome. I believe that it was the first time in years that I revealed my fears, my vulnerability, and that I needed help. This was critical in my life because a year later, I came out as a crossdresser and transgender woman.

Friday, August 08, 2008

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Instead of squawking about what is wrong,
let's sit down and figure out how to correct them.

Thursday, August 07, 2008

Busy Week


The past week has been a busy one. It started last Saturday when I attended a tea party in honor of a friend who married his partner in California (l). It was a casual affair, with drinks and finger food. I got the change to wear my new aqua blue blouse.


On Monday I celebrated my 60th birthday. My wife's birthday is the same day. She gave me a birthday mug and 4 pair of pantires. I gave her two floral skirts. We share skirts, blouses, and jewelry. The day before I took her out to dinner. On Tuesday I registered for graduate school online at Ashford University. I will be studying Education and Technology.
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I purchsed a white dress and jacket because I thought the tea party would be a formal affair. Some day I would love to attend a formal affair with hats and gloves. I also purchased a purple cami and green blouse. I have been out quite a bit, but tomorrow will be a day of rest.


Genevieve

Sunday, August 03, 2008

Completed

It was this time two years that felt totally content and complete as a transgender woman. I was walking in the park that day and an overwhelming sense of peace filled my heart.

During the first year I was getting comfortable with being transgender. There was much learning, struggle, highs, lows, and amazing discoveries about those who came before me. I wasn't alone and there were many others who walked the path I did. The day was a victory for me in that I could be myself without shame or reservation. This is a period in my life I will always remember.

Friday, August 01, 2008

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS


When you feel a gentle hand nudging you to continue the journey,
keep going because there's more to see and to experience.

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

SEEKER

I have been reading and writing a lot. I am presently reading an excellent book 'Thomas Merton: My Brother'. I have fallen in love with this man's work. His books have expanded my horizons because I'm a seeker. Merton (1915-1968) was a seeker. He was a man who was in tune with the issues of his day. Some may dismiss Thomas Merton because of his religious zeal. His was a quest for God and a deep concern for his fellow man.

I am seeking to integrate what I am learning with the transgender issues that concern me. Merton 's thoughts and ideas are relative today. In my opinion, Thomas Merton would be grieved by the bigotry and prejudice by society against transgender and gender variant people.I go through those periods where I come upon another road and decide whether or not to cross it. It seems that I'm gently nudged in this direction. There's no fear or trepidation because I have an inner peace about where things are headed. At this point I'm wondering if the future involves working with transgender people wihich I would certainly love to do.

I have been out more as a transgender woman. It has nothing to do with telling everyone I'm trans but my being out in public expressing who I am. Action does speak louder and this is something that I believe I need to do. I crossed a huge threshhold two weeks ago walking through my neighborhood wearing women's clothing. Two years ago I was apprehensive. Now it's no sweat. I have shared some of what is happening in my life. There's so much going on inside that it would take many blogs to comment. The journey will continue.

Genevieve

Sunday, July 27, 2008

ANNIVERSARY


Yesterday was the third anniversary of coming out to myself as a crossdresser and transgender. The past year has been wonderful. I marched in the gay pride parade. I declared myself a transgender woman publicly. I have never been happier.


The most important aspect of life is being comfortable in my own skin. Without that, nothing will seem to be right. Life would be misery. My wife and son support me and that is a blessing. I am involved with trans issues and have been more vocal about some comments others make against us. I cannot stand idly by while some transphobe heaps trash on us about how bad we are.


If anyone is celebrating an anniversary, HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!


Genevieve

Friday, July 25, 2008

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

In moving forward we sometimes discover those little nooks we may have passed over.

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

COMTEMPLATIVE

It has been three years that I have been a crossdresser and transgender woman. The experience has been wonderful. Having come out in my fifties I'm still discovering much about what it is to be a transgender woman. I am also gaining the understanding that there are many issues that will affect all my transgender brothers and sisters. It is why I am seeking to become more involved with transgender issues.

Over the past few weeks I have been comtemplative as to where all this will lead. I am convinced that much of things done against transgender people are wrong. It doesn't matter if it's a company, church or landlord. I have been following events all over the country as much as possible and there's certainly much that needs to be done. I already belong to two groups and am looking to be even more involved.

I love dressing and I love where I am personally so far. Deep inside I knew that there would come the day that I would begin to see that this journey is much more than pleasure and social events. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy them and hope to be out more. I also see that lives are at stake because the battle will not be easy. Ther's been too many lives lost to suicide and violence. There's too many of us who suffer discrimination and bigotry. Society will try to make us feel ashamed or guilty about who we are. I refuse to be ashamed of my transgender status.

I have been reading a book by Thomas Merton, a monk who finally saw the way God saw him-as His child. He was a seeker and so am I. Sometimes one has to go through things in order to be a vessel for God. I am willing to do this for transgender people. I'm seeking what the next move will be. One thing is certain- I can't go back.

Friday, July 18, 2008

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

A community is like a ship-everyone ought to be prepared
to take the helm.

-Henrik Ibsen

Friday, July 11, 2008

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

I feel as if I'm back in my twenties, when nature and life
filled me with awe and wonder.

Thursday, July 03, 2008

marched in pride parade

This past Sunday, I marched in my first New York City pride parade. It was a warm day to start. I wore a black skirt, pink pullover and sneakers. The contingent I marched with was the American Veterans for Equal Rights.

It was about a three mile march down 5th Avenue. Thousand of people lined the barricades cheering each contingent that passed by. I was very proud of being out and participating. Someone I know recognized me and told me so in an email I received from him. I knew that there were many LGBT people in New York but not this many. I was reaaly with family! I was also happy to see many transgender people out because we need to be more visible.

With less than a mile left the rains came. It seemed to pick people's spirits up. I could feel the electricity in the rain soaked air. I truly enjoyed the experience.

Friday, June 27, 2008

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

PROPHECY CAN OPEN UP DEEP SEATED YEARNINGS AND THE DESIRE TO DISCOVER WHERE WE FIT IN THE UNIVERSE.

Thursday, June 26, 2008

Exploring Native American heritage

Currently, I am reading a book named 'Queering Creole Spiritual Traditions:Lesbian,Gay,Bisexual, and Transgender Participation in African-Inspired Traditions in the Americas'. I am African-American and have Native-American ancestry (Choctaw). I rememvber when my parents revealed to me as a boy that I have Native-American blood., I was very proud.

From time to time over the years, I would read about Choctaw Indians in the Americas. They are principally in the southeast section of the US. Since I am exploring my transgender identity more, I want to know if any of my relatives were transgender. I thimk that this may be a fulfilling of some Indian prphecy. I have always loved nature and the natural sounds of nature.

I have felt for many years that I was different. Coming out as transgender has completed and liberated me as a person. I seek a deeper meaning as to what this means and what my purpose is in this prophecy. I will contiinue to read this book and glean some things that may help in my discovery.

Friday, June 20, 2008

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Parents: Loving and affirming your transgender and gender variant child goes a long way toward enhancing their self-esteem.

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Make Yourself Seen and Heard

With pride events happening this month (and summer) all over the world, I hope that we attend and support them. Transgenders have made some progress this year and more needs to be done. I am meeting more transgender people in my circle. One of the volunteers who is with the same organization I'm with is a transsexual of many years. Yesterday, I saw a transgender woman near city hall. We're everywhere and the world is getting smaller.

I will be marching in the pride parade here in New York City. I will represent the American Veterans for Equal Rights. I'm excited about it. I hope that more transgender people will partake in the march because not showing ourselves at these events is often leveled at us, and rightfully so. I'm dress quite a lot these days. I'm wearing a suit now because I'm job hunting but soon as I get home, off goes the suit and tie. On goes the skirt and cami.

I am considering a lot of options for the future. Starting an online business and a non profit organization are just a couple of them. I'll be busy as ever.

Friday, June 13, 2008

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

IN DECLARING MYSELF AS A TRANSGENDER WOMAN, I AM FREE TO LIVE LIFE AS I AM. I AM ABLE TO SHARE MY JOY WITH OTHERS AND ENCOURAGE THEM TO BE WHO THEY ARE.

Friday, June 06, 2008

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS


A word of encouragement goes a long way to saying to a person "You are valued and loved".

Tuesday, June 03, 2008

Sunday, June 01, 2008

Transgender woman

Today, I made a personal declaration that I am a transgender woman. I recognized that the transgender label fit me three years ago. I have mentioned it in past but today I wish to make a public statement of what I actually feel inside. It is another threshhold I have come and have passed.

Friday, May 30, 2008

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Dress your best...and if anyone finds that perfect black dress, let me know.

Friday, May 23, 2008

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Of all the qualities that are revealed when groups come together for a cause, perserverence consistently comes front and center.

Thursday, May 22, 2008

A Radical Church

I am fascinated by the make up of the first Christian church. There were people in attendance who were not normally welcomed in other religious settings. There were women, the poor, the lame, gay, lesbian, bisexual, transgender, tax collectors, robbers..you get the picture. Jesus opened up the way when He died on the cross for our sin and broke down the barriers that separated people.

It didn't matter if you were Jew, gentile, male, female, rich, poor, reputable or had a reputation of ill repute. Many came to the first church because they were inclusive of everyone. This was quite radical in the patriarchial society of that time.

I have no doubt that there LGBT people there too. I believe that this is the type of church that is needed today. All inclusive of every one regardless of gender expression, sexuality, or race. The way I see it, it is the Christian church that can set the tone for including transgender people in their congregations. There are transgender and gender variant people who need love and acceptance. They need someone to share with them that they are loved and that God loves them. God hasn't called me to the ministry but I look forward to a day that the church is truly ALL inclusive.

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

California marriage bill affects all


With the passage of same-sex marriage bill in California, it serves to remind me that it affects us transgender folks too. Though ENDA failed to pass, it cannot stop us fro the pursuit of our goals and equality. Many in society have the mistaken notion that we seek special rights. I have heard this before because as an African-African the same stuff was said about us. If the Constitution deems all men (and women) are created equal, then it's high time this lofty ideal was put into practice.


If a group of people are denied basics rights, the powers that be will find some other reason to deny another group of its rights. An example is the profiling of men from south east Asia and the middle east. Thousands are being held in prisons all over the world just because of who they are. Transgender folks suffer discrimination and marginalization for the same reasons.


One reason I believe Republicans can come back is that they think long term. They raise funds and awareness on a few causes and get out to the public. When the lose an election or a goal is failed, they assess what went wrong, regroup and then move ahead. I do admire this strategy. We transgender and gender variant people need to do the same thing. The passage of this bill in California took hard work, getting out in public and perserverence. This is something that we have to do.


I am making it a point to be out more in public and become involved in change. It may also mean that I will express my cross gender status to others. I meet more GLBT folks in groups outside the umbrella and I'm heartened. Now if it can translate into equality and respect.


Genevieve

Friday, May 16, 2008

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

BE WHO YOU ARE. NO ONE CAN LIVE LIFE FOR YOU.



Yesterday, I was chatting with a woman about a project she is working on. I saw a copy of 'Center Happenings', a magazine put out by the local LGBT center, in her bag. I remarked that I read it also. As we conversed she revealed to me that she is lesbian. I told her that I am transgender. she talked for a half hour sharing our experiences, stories, and backgrounds. It's wonderful that I met a lovely and creative lesbian woman at the same place that we volunteer. I feel more open now about my transgenderism in this setting. I haven't told anybody yet but I'm looking to produce some short stories and poems about what it is to be transgender. That conversation really made my day.

Friday, May 09, 2008

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

With each passing day, I see the day when transgender people will secure their rights.

Tuesday, May 06, 2008

Breaking Barriers

I have been wearing a skirt the past week. My son's girlfriend saw me wearing it today. I could hear her laughing in the next room. Ah, well. Another barrier broken. I feel so comfortable in them.
I have had time to reflect on transgender issues and LGBT in particular. While progress has been made there's still much to do. Generally, as in all struggles, there are common threads that run through all parties involved. Some are out there and known to all concerned. Others are not so discernable. Then there are those threads which are there and need to be dealt with. These are the ones I will touch on.

The first is that there are many people who still do not know what transgender is. There are some who do understand what transgender is about, there are many more who do not. What gets me is that some refuse to discuss the matter and choose to remain ignorant. Education is still needed on the part of school officials, parents, legislators, prison officials, and the general public.

Second, those who perpetrate bigotry and hate will, in the future, confront it face to face. A number of our social institutions were responsnible for countless suffering of slaves, women, Native-Americans and now transgender people. I am a born again Christian and the vitriole spewed against LGBT folks from so-called Christians is very repulsive. Some of these churches are realizing that there are LGBT people in their midsts. Certain denominations are having to deal with allowing LGBT folks to be ordained, married, lay ministers, teachers, and worshippers. Schools are having to deal with LGBT boys and girls. Yes, we're everywhere.

I have so much hope for our young people because many choose to be who they are. Many schools across the country have LGBT organizations to help the students. As an older transgender person, this brings me much joy. Change can be a positive. I believe many institutions would be enriched by the many contributions , skills, and talents of LGBT people. I pray that someday they will recognize this.

Friday, May 02, 2008

WORDS OF WISDOM

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

For every person that rejects us,
there is someone who will accept as we are.

Thursday, May 01, 2008

Wearing Skirt in Wife's Presence

For the past four days I have worn a skirt around the house in my wife's presence. I wouldn't have been able to do this a year ago. We have never prevented each other from doing the things we love in our 28 years of marriage. I love her for that. I have shared some more things about being transgender over the past few months. I feel freer to be who I really am.

I have realized how comfortable I am wearing women's clothing. I have been comfortable with my transgender identity for nearly two years, but now more so. I have a saying 'Never let others define who you are' and I live by that credo. I don't care what society thinks about me. I love all my brothers and sisters in the LGBTQI community. Nothing will separate me from that.

Sunday, April 27, 2008

I lie in bed this morning reminiscing over the many labels that us transgenders have put on us. I thought more about what I refer myself as. I'm comfortable with the ones that I call myself though I never let those labels define me. In a strange way I find for myself empowered by them.
I am transgender, transvestite, queer, heterosexual, and androgynous. I'm not ashamed to call myself these because they accurately describe how I see myself inwardly. When I embraced crossdressing and transgender identity, it changed my perception about how gender is constructed by the medical establishment. Just as no two people are alike, there are no two people alike in expressing their gender/sexuality.
I feel that I have been set free from the constraints of what others say about what I should be. I see the many forces trying to tell us who we are and what we should be. I ask who does that benefit? How many transgender people have committed suicide because of this nonsense. I love the title of Kate Bornstein's book 'Gender Outlaw' because I am transgressing the gender binary system.
Yes, I'm very,very content about how I describe myself and about how I feel about who I am. If people call me transgender or transvestite or queer, I'm ok with it. I feel honored by it.

Friday, April 25, 2008

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Seeing others succeed means more to me than the honors
bestowed on me.

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Gender Struggles Cont'd...

In the blog for 4/20, I discussed my gender struggles revealed in my writings. Today I read a poem I had written that probably will make clearer my struggle to discover who I was. Here it is.

URGES

They beckon you at every spare moment,
Drawing you into its web.
You resist, you put it off
but it engulfs you.
You give in to its desires.
All innocence is gone
The mystery is no more.

6/20/2004

As you can see, this was written a year prior to my questioning my gender. I didn't know that I was questioning my masculinity and yet I was being drawn deeper into something that I didn't understand. I was wondering if if this was some abyss that I could never climb out of. I imagine that more LGBT folks go through this more than its mentioned. What I find repulsive is when the medical establishment labeled us as 'mentally disturbed'.
If transgenders were allowed to express and live who they are, would it have spared so many from abusing drugs and alcohol or taking their lives? I'm happy that the younger generation is being themselves and not caring about what others think or say. I'm pleased now that my life was progressed the way it has. I believe that I am the richer for it.

Sunday, April 20, 2008

Gender Struggles Revealed in Past Writings

I was reading over some short stories I had written several years ago. What it revealed was that I was struggling with gender and sexual identity and didn't know it. I fancied myself a stripper, a connoisseur of the alternative culture, and curried an interest in leather culture. Despite the great interest, none of these things really fit me. This was about 2002 or 2003.
Though I was enthralled by these things, I maintained that I would not become involved with them. I was being drawn toward letting myself experience gender and sexual diversity. For a while I thought I may be bisexual or pansexual but I was not sexually attracted to men. I ruled that idea out but still I was confused. I never experienced thoughts like this in my life- and I was in my fifties!
Looking back, I kept being drawn into something that I did not understand. I had felt that I was different since my thirties. I also like people and activities that were outside the norm though I was just an observer. Now it seemed that my days of being a wallflower were nearing an end. The next couple of years would reveal more inner turmoil. The 'urges' inside me kept getting stronger and more frequent. I was afraid. How was this going to affect my family and my livelihood?
The day I tried on my spouse's skirt was a turning point in my life. In a few weeks I realized that I was a cross dresser. All the 'urges' and desires I had crystallized after one counselling session.
I was in denial for several weeks. 'It will pass!' I kept saying to myself but my body was telling me differently. I was reading much about cross dressing and transgender at the time. When I finally embraced my cross dressing and transgender identity, all of the struggle and tension dissipated. I was at peace with my decision and I haven't looked back since.
Today, I am a happy and content cross dresser and transgender. I have been completed and liberated. I would encourage every one struggling with gender and sexuality to seek counseling to sort out their feeelings. I wonder if letting people explore their gender would lessen all the remorse and guilty hoisted upon them? I thank God for who I am. I'm free to be the person that He wants me to be.

Genevieve

Saturday, April 19, 2008

Transgender and Proud



I have been crossdressing for roughly three years. I am transgender also. I embraced both during my coming out process and have never been happier.

During this time I have learned much from those who came before me. Fifty six is relatively late to realize my transgender identity but I believe there are reasons. I have been a late comer to many activities. Why, I was late to my high school graduation. The motto 'better late than never' suits me.

Many have known that they are transgender in childhood. I never had feelings of being different until my thirties. During these past three years I have grown emotionallly and spiritually. I have found a family that I never knew I had. Transgender is a diverse and broad term which describes many gender expressions. I am a peace and content with being transgender and a cross dresser and I'm proud of that. I enjoy dressing and going out but I have decide to be involved in advancing equal rights for transgenders.

I didn't suffer many things that some of us have but I am part of family. The more that I express myself the more likely that I may encounter something more than a few lewd comments. Looking ahead, I see more improvements in the lives of transgender people. I will stay positive, keep learning and understanding, and contribute my time and efforts for transgender people.

Friday, April 18, 2008

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Share your story with others. It's worth telling because it may help someone else to be bold and proud of who they are.

Friday, April 11, 2008

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Be who you are. Don't let anyone say to you that you are not worthy of dignity or respect.

Thursday, April 10, 2008


With each passing day my allegiance to the transgender community deepens.

Monday, April 07, 2008

It's hard to believe that it was 40 years ago when Martin Luther King was felled by an assassin's bullet. I was a nineteen year old college student at the time. I just finished my last class and was walking to the cafeteria for dinner. My roommate told me that King was killed.
I do remember a flash of anger surged through me. I could have lashed out like many did in the ensuing riots that followed. I chose not to follw the same path because it would lower me to the level of those who wished him dead. I remember a number of white students telling me personally how sorry they were about what happened. Looking at the hurt in their faces, they were sincere and heartbroken. There were memorial services on campus and it was quite evident that may people were hurting and grieving. King's assassination was the fourth within five years. John F. Kennedy, Robert Kennedy, and Malcolm X suffered the same fate.
Fast forward 40 years. While many gains have been made, there's still much to be done. Where are the dynamic leaders? More importantly, where are those people who will roll up their sleeves and get down to the hard work of affecting life changing decisions. It starts with each and every one of us. I am at the point in my life that I want to make a difference. I will be teaching soon. I'm currently involved in a couple of projects in which I pray that will generate interest and activity towards improving the lives of others. It is important to get the people who are affected by injustice involved in the problem solving process.
I will always be grateful to Dr. King for his courage and conviction to do what was right. It is our duty to do what is right despite those who would interfere or stop us altogether. As a transgender and an African-American, I will do what is right in his sight. Working to improve the lives of my LGBTQI sisters and brothers is one of my goals. Like Dr. King, I must do what is right.

Friday, April 04, 2008

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Crossroads are places we arrive at but have to choose which one to trod.

Tuesday, April 01, 2008

I will be at the Gay Expo this Saturday at the Jacob Javits Center here in New York City. American Veterans for Equal Rights, an LGBTQ veterans group which I am a member, will be sponsoring a table at the event.

I was wondering if I should come dressed to the event. Well, low and behold, the leader of the group called and said to dress up. HOORAY!!. I can't wait. AVER is a vets group open to all GLBTQ vets. We are looking to get the word out that there is a veterans group for GLBTQ men and women who have served in the armed forces. One of the groups' goals is to have "Don't Ask, Don't Tell" law repealed. It is an ambiguous regulation which unfairly penalizes GLBT people because of their sexual/gender expression.

I will let you how everything went next week.


Genevieve

Friday, March 28, 2008

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

I need to make sure my slip isn't showing.

Saturday, March 15, 2008


GENEVIEVE'S GEMS


The journey may be confusing at times and the stream of gender never ending but we will arrive somewhere we have never been.

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

Last night, I met with my bible study group. I usually dress at the community center then head out to dinner before the meeting. This time I was going home dressed. I informed my spouse the day before that I was coming home as 'Gennee'. She said okay. She has never seen me fully dressed up. I was wearing blue flats, blue skirt and a blue and yellow print blouse.

When I arrived home her eyes widened. "How do you like?" I inquired.
"You look good." she replied. Her attitude about my dressing is more open since we disccussed it at length a few weeks ago. We share skirts, blouses, and jewelry. She said that I have more jewelry than she's ever owned in her life. Wow, did I feel good!

During the summer I will be leaving the house as 'Gennee' when my son moves out in June. I can't wait. I am much freer and so want to express my feminine side more. Having a wife who lets me be myself is a blessing.

Gennee (Genevieve)

Sunday, March 09, 2008

I was looking over some old short stories I had written several years ago. I fancied myself being a stripper, a leather enthusiast,and a connoisseur of the alternative lifestyle. I never actually participated in these things because they didn't really fit me.

As I think about it now, my gender questioning started around this time and I didn't know it. I was writing about something that I did not understand. This was around 2001 or 2002. I have long believed that people are a dichotomy of two people, the feminine and the masculine. Many people won't admit that they have both for fear of being labeled weird, soft, or not manly or feminine. The feeling that I was different was strong at this time.

Finding where one fits in can be a long and arduous task. When I found out that I was transgender, the next task was to feel comfortable in my new identity. I was over a year before I felt comfortable and content with my identity.

Maybe this was God's way of leading me to the place to where I am today. I'm still exploring my identity and seeing where the journey will take me. Perhaps my successes will encourage others who are struggling.

Genevieve

Friday, March 07, 2008

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

The greatest feeling one can have is to be content and at peace with who
they are. What others think or say is irrelevant.