GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Five Things that I Can't Have Enough Of:

1. pink panties

2. nail polish

3. black dresses

4. skirts

5. camis

I attended the LGBT Christian fellowship at the center last night. It is a wonderful activity during the midweek. I enjoy it so much, meeting with my brothers in Christ.

I will be finished classes in May. It's been a hectic semester but I learned so much in the process. The fall semester will be my last until graduation.

I'm developing my wardrobe and arranging in order the things that I'll need. Though I love to dress up, meeting other TG's is important to me. I will have more chances to be out this summer. Also, Pridefest is coming up in June. I will be there dressed and mingling with my brothers and sisters.

I took one of those gender tests last Friday. It's called the COGIATI test. I took it a year and a half ago. I score a +3 which means that I am androgyne. This time around I scored a -10. Not really a big difference but it confirms what I felt the first time I took the test-that I possess more feminine characteristics than masculine. I believe that sometime in the future I may dress as a woman part time for the most part. There's a chance that I may dress full time. Someone suggested that I take Kate Bornstein's gender test and I may do so.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS


Spring is the blossoming of new opportunities

I have been busy with term papers at school. Finished one today and the other is due tomorrow.

I have a better idea on the clothes that I want to purchase. I have to order some thing online because of the particular article or style. When summer rolls around, Gennee's gonna take on the town!

Classes will be done in a few weeks. I'll have more opportunities to go out and mingle with other TG's. I really want to have some TG friends to hang out with. I need some new clothes, too. Funny, I never felt that way about clothes before.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Contentment is being comfortable with yourself.

Things have been good with me the past week. Attended Easter service on Sunday. I'm looking at clothes for the spring. The feeling of contentment is so soothing. I'm not sure if coming out is suppose to do that but it has to me. And that was in July 2005! I believe inner contentment is about being comfortable in your own skin and not letting negative vibes from others throw your equilibrium off.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

If it were my choice, I would be en femme all the time.

One thing I love is wearing hats when I'm in drab. I like them on women, too. I am going to incorporate them in my femme wardrobe, also. I generally wear skirts, blouses, and dresses. I don't wear pants because I wear them when in male mode.

School will be finished in another month. Can't wait. I'll be able to attend some TG events. I have class three nights during the week and it's hard for me to go to these events. I am involved with a couple of groups at the center. I want to help my transgender brothers and sisters and improve the lives of transgender people. I admit to not being an activist, but feel responsible in helping others.

I'm thinking about writing stories and articles from a transgender perspective. It's amazing how life is so different when I discover my own transgenderism. I wish to convey the positive because there's so much negativity about us already. There are many happy and productive transgenders out there.

I was dressed again this past Friday. I wore a blue skirt, blue flats, and a red three-quarter sleeve top. I stayed in the community center because I was a little tired and had some reading to catch up on. It's amazing how people can or cannot read you. One thing I do notice is that people respect you for expressing yourself.

I was thumbing through a Lane Bryant catalog looking for dresses. Still looking for that elusive black dress. It's a matter of finding a style that I like. Need more shoes and camis also.

My life as a CD has evolved. It has moved from just wanting to dress up to contributing and helping others in the TG community. I believe that is what my mission is.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Five things I feel when dressed en femme:

1. Completeness

2. Contentment

3. Relaxed

4. Naughty

5. Commonality

Now that the weather is getting warmer, I can concentrate on my spring wardrobe. I will be out more this year and dresses are in order. I'm looking for breastforms and hip pads. With each passing day, I feel so feminine that I want to dress as much as possible. If I had my druthers, I would dress 24/7.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Love is an act of the will as much as it a feeling in my heart.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

How one feels inside has much to do with their life view
at a given moment.


This week was busier than usual. A meeting with the GLBT veterans group, a Tuesday fellowship with LGBT Christians, a midterm exam, and keeping up with events in the community. I have been surfing the'net articles about crossdressing, transgender, transvestism and Christianity. There's not much posted on the community board about crossdressing so I'm trying to fill that void by posting interesting articles and features. I guess that's my contribution to the community.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

TODAY'S SUCCESSES NEVER WOULD HAVE HAPPENED
UNLESS SOMEONE WAS WILLING TO CROSS BOUNDARIES.

I have settled in to my new place. The move wasn't near as hectic as the last one. Still, moving is one of my least favorite activities
I will have a chance to dress this weekend. I enjoy hanging around the center more observing the people going about. Last Tuesday, a gay man commented on how nice my hands were. He wished that he could date me but I'm spoken for.

I have found a couple of things that I will be involved in at the center. The Christian LGBT group and the GLBT veterans are the groups I am presently involved with. My love for the transgender community grows each day. I'm happy that I am transgender and will work to see that we are treated like first class citizens.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

A GIRL NEVER CAN HAVE ENOUGH PINK PANTIES!

I moved to a new place this weekend. Was a lot less hectic than the last move. It's a bigger place. I needed it.

I purchased the book Transgender Rights. I started reading it and am taking lots of notes. I really want to understand what's at stake and what needs to be done.

I will be out tomorrow night attending a worship service. It will be my first time dressed. I'm looking forward to it.

I said that 2007 would be a better year and it has been. I have been going through some changes in my life both emotionally and spiritually. I can't say that I have all the answers but my trans journey is moving me to reach out and seek more of God and what He has for me.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Never apoligize for who you are,
or how you choose to express yourself.