I was thinking about the psychological changes crossdressers experience. Some of it is good, some is sobering, and some I wonder what is next. I expected it but it is quite a journey. I think the toughest adjustment is incorporating the male and feminine side to where you are a balanced individual. I picked up two more pairs of panties today. I am looking for a red dress and red shoes. I want to dress up and go out someday as a female. Each day I am getting bolder; taking the plunge towards my transformation as an out CD. I feel so happy and fulfilled and loving the idea of developing the feminine side of me.