Friday, July 29, 2011


No matter how many people may be against you, there ae just as many people in your corner.


Thursday, July 28, 2011

Gender Questioning-Liberation!

On July 26, 2005, I came out to myself as a crossdresser. Almost immediately, all the struggle ad ension inside disappeared. What surprised me is that I felt no shame or guilt about it. I was liberated from what society says that I should be. I was completed because I finally discovered who I really was. When I read about the meaning of 'transgender', it connected with me.

Today, I am a happy transgender woman. I have made some good friends, bee out in public may times, and do the activities that I normally do. There's nothing like being authentic. I've never been happier in my life.

My journey is ongoing as I discover and experience new adventures. I love encouraging others to be who they are and that they havethe right to be happy.


Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Breaking Through The Clouds

I'm coming out of my dry period. I have come out with some new thoughts and ideas that I'm putting into practice. Tonight, I will be attending a open mic session at a bookstore. I may read a poem but I'm still deciding.

Over 400 gay and lesbian couples were married this past Sunday here in New York City. The media covered it pretty well. I pray that we transgender people will secure our rights very soon. I admit that I was annoyed the ENDA and GENDA weren't passed but I will keep working until it is.


Friday, July 22, 2011


I believe all Americans who believe in freedom, tolerance and human rights have a responsibility to oppose bigotry and prejudice based on sexual orientation.

Coretta Scott King (1927-2006)

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Dry Period

I've hit a dry period in my journey. Been out a few times but haven't had much time or finances to do what I would like. I've been able to see where I am now and like where my journey has taken me.

Dry periods can be a time of refreshment, searching, assessing, and changing. I never look at it as dead time but time to make the postive changes that will improve my life and help others. if there's one thing that I fear, it's becoming irrelevant. I always believe that I can encourage someone to see that they are important and that they matter.


Monday, July 18, 2011

Gender Questioning, Part 4

The tension I felt inside was excrucitating. I just wanted this urge to go away. I felt like running away and hiding in some dark hole. Every day I kept saying that this urges will go away, but it didn't. What I feared most was lashing out at others for something that was inside of me. I started this blog to write down my feelings and release a lot of this tension.

Every day I wrote something down. It could be a few sentences or several paragraphs. I was open and honest about my feelings; something that never was easy for me. Now the screws were tightening. I didn't know how much longer I could take this.


To be continued.......

Friday, July 15, 2011


Everyone has people in their lives that are gay, lesbian or transgender or bisexual. They may not want to admit it, but I guarantee they know somebody.

~Billie Jean King

Monday, July 11, 2011

While I was happy that marriage equality passed here in New York State, I was disappointed that the Gender Employment Non-Discrimination Act (GENDA) was not. It was on the same agenda and had enough votes to pass. In my opinion, the groups that are supposed to represent transgender folks didn't press it hard enough.

It seems to me that trans activists were always the stepchild to the gay and lesbian lobbies. We had to constantly prove our mettle and we did. I may remind some that transgender people were at the forefront of the Stonewall Riots in 1969. Later, we were pushed to the margins by the predominantly middle class, white gay male leadership. If you look at the boards of many of the mainstream LGBT organization that paradigm still exists. The fact is that the vast majority of transpersons killed, in jail, or unemployed or underemployed are people of color.

While I'm disappointed, I'm not deterred from working to see that the best bill possible that benefits transgender people will pass. The state assembly had a golden opportunity to pass both marriage equality and GENDA at the same time but they passed on it. Perhaps, it's time for us transgender people to carry our own banner and march.


Thursday, July 07, 2011

Back In The Saddle

I'm finally settled in my new place. Feels good to be in a place you really like. The neighborhood is changing for the better. I have walked through the neighborhood and discovered that there are plenty of restaurants, clothing stores, parks, and cultural events.

I read about a bookstore opening in the neighborhood in the local newspaper. I dropped later and found it to be so. I couldn't find any bookstores around so this is a welcomed addition. The community has responded positively to this new arrival. There will be readings, story telling, music, crafts, and other activities.

I have been feel my way around the neighborhood regarding dressing up. I've done it twice so far. It will take time but I'm up to the challenge. Need to if there are activities for LGTQ folks.