The tension I felt inside was excrucitating. I just wanted this urge to go away. I felt like running away and hiding in some dark hole. Every day I kept saying that this urges will go away, but it didn't. What I feared most was lashing out at others for something that was inside of me. I started this blog to write down my feelings and release a lot of this tension.
Every day I wrote something down. It could be a few sentences or several paragraphs. I was open and honest about my feelings; something that never was easy for me. Now the screws were tightening. I didn't know how much longer I could take this.
To be continued.......