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Newfest

New York Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual and Transgender Film Festival

June 1-11, 2006

@AMC Loews 34th Street Theater

312 West 34 Street (@ 8th Avenue)

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It was a quiet Memorial Day weekend. I spent time reflecting on what the day really means. I think we take for granted all the sacrifices men and women in uniform have made over the years. Now with the war in Iraq going on, I believe it the spirit is returning to Americans.
I have been writing much of late. I am writing positive stories about crossdressers living out in society. So far there are three stories on the back burner. I will post one when it is completed. I portray crossdressers as a vibrant part of our world who are being their true selves.
I will be seeing two films at the Newfest Film Festival next week. One of them named 'Cruel and Unusual' is of particular interest to the TG community. I will give a review of this film and the other one after I see them.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

It takes courage to be your real self. It takes determination
and singlemindedness to live your convictions.

I went out dressed again last night. Had a wonderful time. I wore my new high heels and they felt good on my feet. I met some new ladies and I felt more comfortable this time. It was a mild evening so we had a barbecue. There are folks from all walks of life and it's a great chance to hear what is happening in other peoples's lives. We will be going out to a restaurant in a couple of weeks, but unfortunately, I won't be able to attend because of a prior committment.

The long weekend can't come soon enough. I need a break. I hope to go to a poetry recitation or concert, I don't know which yet. I will be able to get some writing done, too.

Tonight is the big night! Will tell you how it was in the next post.

Today my feelings about transgenderism and transvestism were reinforced within me. I have written some notes, posted comments on some forums about the subject. The further that I move ahead in my journey, the more I wonder if I am fulfilling some ancient tribal prophecy. It's weird, but I must keep going forward.

I'm going out dressed tomorrow for the second time. I will be wearing HEELS! I will also be wearing a pastel yellow blouse and black print skirt. I'm trying to see if I can find a black or yellow blazer.

There's much writing that needs to be done. A short story, work on my play, my blog. Busy night ahead.

I dressed up yesterday and today while my wife was out. It was for a half hour or so yesterday. Today it was for over two hours. I was busy on the computer that I didn't notice that I was dressed. I guess it has become natural to me.

I purchased a pair of black heels today. They are two or two and a half inches high. I will be going out dressed on Wednesday. Can't wait.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

There's no such thing as a gurl having too many
pairs of shoes.

I wrote a short essay on transphobia versus differing opinions. You can read it at
www.glbtq.com under 'Trans Issues and Culture'.

I wanted to go out dressed last night but I couldn't because of other things that
needed to be done. I will be going out this coming Wednesday.

I have been looking about the pride march in June. Trying to decide whose banner to march under. I have two organization to choose from.

June will be a busy month for me. Film festival, my support group, the march. I'm excited about what's coming up.

I have been wiriting and reading more in the past few days. I am currently reading "Nectar In a Sieve" by Kamala Markandaya. I am formulating ideas for an essay about crossdressing and gender. There's so much confusion about the two.

I plan on attending the Newfest Film Festival in June. I want to check out some films about the GLBT community and transgender in particular. June will be busy month for me. I plan on marching in the pride parade. I am looking forward to it.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Know the masculine, keep to the feminine.

-Lau Tzu (570-490 BC)

I purchased a yellow blouse and black print skirt from a thrift shop today. I'm looking for a nice, lightweight blazer to pull it together. I'll have to order some shoes because my feet are big (12E). Found some nice articles at the thrift shop. They had a good selection for a change.

I will have more time to read and write about transgender and crossdressing issues. I will pass on any information I feel will help the trans community.

I will post a few sites on the blog in the next few days.

I just wish to encourage any trans person who feels lonely or is ready to give up. DONT! If you need help, get it. Go to a place where other tg"s are. I am concerned about your well being. Above all:

I LOVE YOU!

GenderEvolve: The Crossdressers' Manifesto

I attended a seminar at the community center last night. A speaker delivered a 90 minute demo about Sexual Reassignment Surgery. It was quite informative and chock full of photos of patients before and after surgery. Some of my friends from my support group were there in attendence.

It has been warm the past few days (finally) and I'm enjoying it. I want to go out dressed more often. Since Wednesday, I have been euphoric over having gone out dressed in public for the first time. I was out with the gurls!

There are a lot of us out there. The trans community is quite diverse and large. My love for the trans community knows no bounds. I pray for the day that we are recognized for being contributing citizens and not freaks.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Living and being your true self is better than being what others think you should be.

I DID IT! Last night, I went out dressed in public for the first time. I was so calm and felt so feminine. I walked along the street and no one paid attention to me. It was so wonderful being with other gurls who want to express themselves. We had a barbecue and shared our experiences. I look forward to going out dressed again. We will be going to a restaurant next time.

I just realized that this is my first spring as a crossdresser. A year ago I never even gave crossdressing a thought. Much has happened in the past year. I have met so many wonderful gurls and love to be with them. I can never go back to the places that I have passed through. I must stay the course. I'm not afraid about what may lie ahead. I just need to find out where I can best help my trans sisters. they have helped me so much.