I went out shopping yesterday. I purchased a pink top, a denim skirt, and blue flats. It may not sound like much, but to me it was heaven! Though dressed in drab I felt so feminine, knowing how women feel when they shop. They have so many more choices. Can't wait for my next foray. I want to go out dressed, too.

Still working on my play. I have gotten some ideas from some folks. As I become more involved with transgender issues, I am learning what trans people feel and believe. As I grow in my own transgenderism, I look to make the characters in the play human and caring.

In the next few weeks, I will be posting events where transgenders can get together for fun and entertainment.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

ONCE YOU ARE OUT OF THE CLOSET, STAY OUT!

Today, I went out looking for some shoes. I'll have to order them online because my size (12e) is diificult to find. I need a size 14 in womens size. I shopped for some skirts and dresses. I may purchase something tomorrow.

Now that I'm out to my spouse, I'm going to be the best crossdresser that I can be. I hope some day that she will see that this is a part of me. It will take time.

I'm seeking to attend more transgendered and CD events. I want to meet more people like myself. I count some in my support group as friends. The chat lines are a gold mine of info and people who are like me. I am not alone.

My wife now knows that I am a crossdresser. I told her after she found my panties. She reacted calmly but I'm not sure if she approves. I professed my love to her and that this is a part of me.
It will take time for us to sort it out. I need to show her other things about crossdressing and transgender issues. I'm calm about it and now someone else knows. I was going o tell her in the future, but the future arrived a lot sooner than I expected. The point is that there's nothing to hide anymore. I never felt ashamed about being a crossdresser before and I don't now.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

DOWN DAYS CAN BE AN OPPORTUNITY TO REFOCUS AND REASSESS OUR GOALS.

The writing is coming along. I'm trying to find my transgender voice. There are many positive stories of and by transgenders and that is what I want to accentuate.

I will be shopping for clothes sometime next week. Shoes will be tough because I have wide feet. A red dress is my top priority. I also need a black one, too. The spring fashions are out now. Teal, apple green, and orange seem to be hot colors. I like teal on myself.

I keep learning so much about transgender that I am seeking to become more involved with the community. I love to hang around the center. It's too bad that this is one of the few places that transgender men and women feel safe. I love listening to people talk about their progress. Some day we will have our rights.

Life has been good. I have been dressing more and feeling good about it. So far, it has been a wonderful journey and I have loved every moment. I have been looking for more TG music and films. I have become interested in others experiences. I listened to some music by transgenders and I enjoyed it. It's hard to find but I'm searching. There are a couple of queer film fests here that I plan to attend. The Newfest Film Festival is popular here in New York. It begins in June.

The play that I am writing has progressed some. I did some writing yesterday and Saturday. Still don't have a title but that will come.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

BE BOLD; BE DARING; ENJOY LIFE; AND MOST OF ALL LOVE YOURSELF FOR WHO YOU ARE!

My playwriting is going slow, but it's going. I want to portray transgenders in a positive light to show that we are real people who want to live our lives without fear of violence and harassment.

The more that I understand about being transgendered, the more I want to be involved in the community. There are too many things on my plate right now, but just getting to know my trans brother and sisters is a wonderful experience.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

Each day is one step closer to self discovery.

This week has been very good. My support group meetings are getting better.
I have a much better understanding of a number of gender issues. I am seeing
the difference in other people's lives, also.

I'm still writing a play about transgenders. I have no title yet, but I have a couple
of ideas about the subject matter. I want to present a positive picture to show that
we are not freaks. I have been able to express my feelings through the spoken
word and with my pen. I would love to see the whole range of gender expression
in plays, movies, and television. Plays are my favorite.

I will be getting some high heels (my first pair) and red dress very soon. I'll let you know.
I'm still working on my makeup but it's coming along. There's so much I have to say. I will
have some in my next blog.