I feel complete since I came out the other day. I feel for others in my situation and pray for them. I'm comfortable remaining closeted to my family and friends, but those who do come out I pray everything will work out. Most important, no one can live your life so enjoy and celebrate life as who you are.

Today, I'm coming out as a transgendered man (cross dresser). No else knows except me. Since this blog site was created, I've discovered my female side. I have never denied it exists nor am I ashamed of it. Cross dressing has improved some other areas of my life. I haven't broken it to my family and friends but perhaps, some day I will.

I have reminisced the feelings that have been going on within me. Having discovered my woman side, it's been interesting. My emotions have run the gamut of relief, excitement, and exploration. I have become more in tune with my body, especially my G spot. When stimulated, it really brings out the woman in me. I feel so much like the fairer gender.

This new discovery has opened my eyes to the people in the gay community. I know of some things; now I know more. I have been reading gay publications, books, and articles by and about the gay community.

I am asking many questions about my own sexuality. I'm not gay, but wonder if I am bi curious.
I've never had sex with a man, but have entertained the thought in my mind. There must be a lot of people in my situation.

It was a quiet weekend. Genevieve is tired from a weekend of singing and is resting. My male side is becoming more in tune with my female. I settled some internal issues and I feel better about myself.

Loving one self is contentment with who we are. It is being comfortable in our own skin. Self love is not egotistical or conceited; it is the love we have for our uniquesness and discoveries made. I have discovered all this within the past few weeks. I love who I am as a man- and as a newly discovered woman. This blog opened up doors that I never knew existed. One event or one move can do that. I'm exploring, searching and moving forward.

I woke up this morning feeling as womanly as I did yesterday. Genevieve is just as much a part of me as me, Leo. My body tingles all over when I think about it. Having discovered so many new things, I'm trying to put it all together and made sense of it. Each day, it gets more clear. I have explored myself physically, spiritually, and emotionally. We (Genevieve and me) have many things we want to do. We are pursuing ours dreams and desires.

I was thinking this morning what it would be like if I was a woman. I surfed the 'net last night, looking for information on transgender people. There are many descriptions as what transgender is. I thought I might be bisexual, but I identify as transgender MTF (male to female). I wouldn't be offended if I was looked upon as transgendered. I found out what the meaning of the colors on the rainbow flag. Also, I found the meanings of the other symbols in the lgbt community. I wasn't able to go to the center suggested to me. I will try to go next week.

I met with a counselor at the center yesterday to discuss my gender identity concerns. He recommended another center not far from my job. I checked the place out on the internet. and I will stop by tomorrow.

I was observing the way women walk. Their walk is so graceful and natural because of the way they're built. I need to work on my walk. I own a pair of short shorts at home where my cheeks stick out. Women look cute in them, so I wouldn't mind if someone was looking at my butt.

My urges were really pronounced today. My male side is in a critical period of life. One moment, I feel like a woman. I watched the women walking by in the streets and saw my female side wearing some of the outfits I saw. On the other hand, I could see myself living as a bisexual man. Though women are my primary sex partners, I could have a meaningful relationship with a man. I have been frequenting gay and lesbian establishments. I need to read more books by gay, lesbian,bisexual and transgendered authors. I'm trying to find out what the rainbow colors of the gay community represent. I had a rainbow wristband but I lost it. If somebody out there knows, please email my website (www.difecta.blogspot.com).

My female side is enjoying being a woman. Genevieve has been happy the past couple of days. She's been shopping, hanging out with friends, a carving out a career as a chanteuse/poet/actress.

Genevieve is asleep right now. Yesterday, while exploring my anatomy, I touched her soul. My male side connected with my female side. Now I understand her struggles, emotions and victories. Genevieve, I love you!

I walked around in a different neighborhood, observing the restaurants, bargain stores, and clothing outlets. Stopped at one, a women's clothing store, taking note of the mini skirts. My woman side say I have to purchase one some day. Better yet, I'll bring Genevieve with me.

I need to keep the woman in me satisfied. I have to remember that Genevieve is still evolving. She's come a long way in such a short time. Genevieve is shopping for pretty and revealing clothing. She is getting her education. She's pursuing her dreams. Genevieve has some tomboy in her and is a good athlete. She is blossoming as a woman.

Genevieve liked the pair of shorts I gave to her. It was in the color she's always wanted. She looks great in short shorts. Genevieve likes nice things. She has a keen eye for fashion.

Last night, the woman side of me was strong. I purchased some shorts for Genevieve because she feels neglected and needs some tender loving care.

It's 'Womens Day". Genevieve busts out! She cooks, cleans, makes phone calls. She's going out to meet friends for lunch. Genevieve has a great time with her crossdressing friends. Later, at home, she feels so much a woman. She feels liberated!

I need to read more information on the contributions women have made to society. I have always had a love and respect for women. Throughout history, women have been screwed over and made to feel like second class citizens. Need to understand that women are just as capable as men.