GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

DRESSING UP HELPS ME TO BECOME THE WOMAN THAT I
WANT TO BE.

I have a very good idea of where I want to go as a transvestite. I'm happy with where I am so far. I intend to go out more being 'Genevieve'.

The pride weekend was good. Progress has been made but transgenders need to focus on real issues. We need to be out there more and on a consistent basis. That's my aim.

My gender is fluid once again. Crazy thoughts are filling my mind. My body wants to submit to its pleasure and sense of discovery. More adventures lie ahead in my sojourn.

I have written much over the past several weeks. Stories, blogs, essays. There's much within me that needs to get out. At times, I am afraid of making myself vulnerable; of expressing my deep feelings. This I must do because it is Genevieve who makes me a better person.

Post # 200!

I had some down time this weekend. I wanted to dress up but the time to access my goals was needed. I'm happy that I have come this far and want to move ahead. I plan on attending some social functions with other transgenders. I am comfortable dressed in public as a woman. The more that I get out the easier it will be.

My spouse and I discussed the matter of my dressing again. It was more in depth this time. She thinks crossdressing is synonomous with being gay. I explained that most transvestites are hetero and married. I'm keeping the lines of communication open. I believe that she will come to understand TG issues.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

The worlds greatest heroes are sometimes people
you will never read or hear about.

Summer is here! Very humid today. I say that after the first day of summer, it's downhill afterwards. That's because each successive day gets a little shorter.

I began working full time again. My body feels it but I'll get used to the routine in time. I miss going to my support group meetings. There's been some illness in the family but I hope to go again very soon.

Tomorrow the Trans Day of Action group will have a march and rally uptown to protest police brutality and discrimination against transgender people of color. I will be going to the rally.

Pride weekend starts tomorrw but Sunday is the big march. I hope that I can march if my schedule permits but it's not looking good. I want to march to represent transgenders and transvestites.

A friend suggested a place for Transwomen and their admirers.

The Boy's Room ( formerly Lucky Stiffs)
211 Avenue A @ 13th Street
New York, NY Weds.

I purchased a chartreuse button down blouse and light green floral skirt. I will wear them possibly as soon as tomorrow. this Saturday, I want to walk around the city dressed. I'm aware of the safety concerns but I'm not afraid.

I'm reading Leslie Feinberg's book Stone Butch Blues. It is a great novel and I recommend it for the LGBT community. I read a lot and learn much about so many things. I don't have a favorite author but read every thing from Plato to the bible to history.

This past Friday, I attended a panel discussion featuring how four women have embraced their transgendered sibling. These lovely ladies have chosen to love and encourage and support their mates and sibling. I was moved by a grandmother who has a grandson who identifies as transgender. She is working hard to understand and help the parents with the child. It is so wonderful to listen to four POSITIVE stories of trans families. They need our support.

I went to the meeting dressed. I wore a denim skirt, pink top and blue flats. A couple of my friends did not recognize me. It was the first time they saw 'Gennee'. I guess I passed. Passing is not that important to me, but I want to look my best.

One thing that really made an impression on me was the gender diversity present. MTFs, crossdressers, FTMs, gender queer, intersex, and others. I really want to meet folks from these other expressions. They are family, too.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

I would rather stand for what is right rather than what is popular.

Today, I wore a bra for the second day in a row. My breasts look like they're getting big-and I don't take hormones.

My gender has been fluid the past couple of days. I looked at myself as 'Genevieve'. I envisioned myself going through the day dressed as a woman. Shopping, riding the subway, whatever activities that I needed to do. I know that some day this is coming down the pike.

Today is Flag Day. Once again, it is a good day to remember the men and women in the military. They are our brothers and sisters.
I saw a beautiful red suit in the Roaman's catalogue today. I have to get it. There's some fine events coming up this summer and I want to dress up and go out more. Still looking for a black dress. I haven't found the style that I like.
Going to my first pride event last Saturday has made me feel proud to be a transgender person. I'm still going to try to go to the New York City Pride march.


Here are some websites worth checking out:
www.bowerypoetry.com
www.poetz.com
www.nuyorican.org
www.poetryproject.com
www.bluestockings.com

Today is my first anniversary as a transgender person. Last year I was a gender questioning middle aged man. Now I am a complete and liberated transgender transvestite. I have entered a world whose people are hated, villified and even killed. because they express themselves different from the norm.
I have met some wonderful, creative, and enlightening folks who have helped me in my journey towards self discovery. I want to help others in the same way. This past weekend's activities in Brooklyn Pride have strengthened my self esteem as a transgender.

This was the best weekend I have had as a transgender. On Friday, I attended my first LGBT film festival called Newfest. I saw two documentaries dealing with transgender women. The first film was called Sexualidad, which was 30 minute piece about transgender women in Cuba. This was the first sex education course formed there during the early stages of the AIDS epidemic. Their approach is to deal with the women as they express themselves. It is much superior to the narrow paradigm used here in America.

The main feature was called Cruel and Unusual. It was a documentary about transgender women in the prison system. The filmmakers interviewed them at various prisons around the country. Transgender women are housed with male inmates. They are subjected to harassment, rape, and physical violence by other inmates and some guards. The prison system has no clue about transgender issues. This film needs to be shown at community centers, schools, medical and law schools, prisons,and political consortums.

On Saturday I attended Brooklyn Pride which was my first pride event ever. I enjoyed myself and met a few interesting people. They was food, entertainment, information about various services. The evening concluded with the pride march. I hope to march in New York City pride if my schedule allows me.

Yesterday, I spend much of the day dressed as 'Genevieve'. I wore a skirt, sandals, and cami as I cleaned, cooked, and blogged. It was the longest that I have been dressed.

I will be attending more events this year. I want to be out more with my trans sisters. This past weekend, I felt that I was with family.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS

SOCIETY HAS BEEN PROVEN WRONG ABOUT MANY THINGS.

Tomorrow, I will be seeing a documentary called 'Cruel and Unusual'. It is about trans men and women in the prison system. I will give a critique about the film next week.

I will attend the Brooklyn Pride event on Saturday. It will be a first for me. I'm hoping that I can attend the New York City pride if my schedule allows me.


REMEMBER! NEWFEST FILM FESTIVAL
thru Sunday June 11.

Next Monday will be my first anniversary as a transvestite. It has been a wonderful journey. I have found liberation and completeness. I am part of a group of people who are villified and hated by society. I am part of a people who dare to be their true selves. This is something that I am happy to be a part of.

This time last year, I was a man who was questioning his gender. I had read gay magaziness, investigated the leather scene, and watched porno movies. It still didn't feel right for me. When I got the urge to try on women's clothing, it was the start of my journey toward transgenderism. I received some counseling to help me sort out my thoughts. When I admitted that I was a transvestite, all my tensions and fears dissipated.

Today, I am comfortable with who I am. I nurture my feminine qualities, understanding what it is to be a woman in this society. I will never transition, but I feel that those who do are courageous. They hold a special place in my heart. I am equally comfortable wearing women's as I am wearing men's attire. If I had my druthers, I'd wear women's clothes all the time.

This blog was created and dedicated to my transformation. Each day is different and new. The journey continues.

I am working on my second short story about an out transvestite. I hope to put out at least a half dozen short stories by summer's end. Also hope to finish the play that I have been working on for months.

GENEVIEVE'S GEMS


Now I can be the Lady in RED

As cities across the country celebrate pride month, it is time to be proud of the successes transgenders have attained. It is a time that we can educate the public about transgender issues. I have been transgendered for only a year but I'm understanding the animosity between the gay and lesbian community and the transgender community. One of the sticking points is the fact that trans people are out in the open. One doesn't has to disclose their sexual preference but our trans identity is there for all to see.
I am a crossdresser, and I plan on being out more. There are times when you have to throw caution to the wind. I know crossdressers who go out dressed and I love and admire them. They are aware of the dangers but they are living their life. The more that I go out dressed the more it will, hopefully, encourage others. It's strange but the older that I get the bolder that I have become. One reason that I want to march in the pride parade is to introduce the world to Genevieve. I believe that there will be people who will be emboldened by crossdressers being out in public.



Don' forget:
NEWFEST FILM FESTIVAL JUNE 1-11
@ AMC LOEWS THEATER
312 West 34th Street (@ 8th Avenue)
Newfest.org

I'm almost finished with a story I have been writing about an out crossdresser. It should be done by the weekend.

There are so many beautiful clothes in the stores. If I had to choose a style that I like, it would be fashions from the '40's and '50's. They really knew how to dress. I'm having quite a time looking for a nice black dress. Finding a style that I like is the most difficult part, but I will find one.

With pride month in full swing this June, I believe it is a great opportunity for trans men and women to educate the public about the issues. I will do whatever I can to help.